Slander

My PI is incredibly nice to me these days. I'm not too sure if I should start becoming suspicious or just enjoy it.

Recently, I've noticed that I give up at a higher frequency because I think most things are a waste of time. This probably isn't good because there are some things that I think, if I put in more effort, could potentially become something worth sustaining. However, the problem here is the fact that I never believe that things will turn out the way that I want them to even if I do put in more effort, so I don't see the point. There's really no need to make life so difficult. I don't have enough energy, so I'm easily irritated these days. I'm tired... and more often than not there's only dirt at the end of a rainbow anyway--or in the case of my life, there will likely be a giant mound of crap.