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Let's clear some things up because the other day someone said that they were very amazed at what a patient/kind person I am. No.

People have this common misconception: that even if they ignore me I'll still be waiting for them--like that one time I waited at the mall for 6 hours--"because I'm nice". That doesn't make me a nice person, that makes me a fool. People that care won't make you wait for 6 hours. Not sure why it took me so long to realize this, but I'm not like that anymore. I've stopped waiting. People also think that I'm the type of person that's good at initiating things (calls, email, text, etc.) or that I like doing it. False. I hate it. I would rather get a mastectomy (not that I have much to remove in the first place). I only do it because I care so much that I'm willing to do things that I don't like to do, BUT here's the key: I have to feel that it's worth it. These days I get tired easily and I stop trying because I assume people don't care. Prove me wrong.

So what happens when it's not worth it anymore? I stop caring, I guess. It's obviously easier said than done. I always pretend I'm over things when I'm not. Lousy. It takes a lot of discipline. It helps if you're mentally and physically exhausted. What is that one saying? The train has left the station? Something like that. I think most things in life are a timing sort of thing. If you decide to start caring after I stop then it kind of sucks to be you. I don't like being ignored. I don't like feeling like an unimportant person. Who does? So, I mean, when it gets to the point where it always feels this way I'll choose to disappear. See? My patience and kindness is quite limited.

Slightly related: I don't understand how people can put no effort into relationships and still expect to have friends. Come on son, steak does not fall from the sky. -_-
but if you called me right now and told me how much you miss me I would drop everything to go see you because in reality... 我還是很愛你; ugh I hate myself.
Wow, sorry this post was super serious... been on my mind for a while though. Anyway, go look at this and realize how old you are. I'll post something funny soon.