Hostility

I heard that ads are supposed to be tailored to you these days. If that's the case why do I have this showing up on my YouTube? -_- I guess they're not exactly wrong... but isn't this creepy? I thought that they chose ads based upon browsing history? How are they supposed to know about my personality or the type of person I am as a whole?

Is it possible to be unmotivated, but still productive? I think I'm in that state right now. It's probably because I'm screwed, so things need to get done. However, that doesn't mean that they're done elegantly or excellently for that matter.

I usually trust my intuition because it's usually right. Unfortunately, while this is true it's hard to account for factors that you're unable to control. I could be right about something, but it might not play out in the way that I want it to because it does what it wants. In that case, maybe I shouldn't trust my intuition anymore or maybe I should stop acting on it, is probably a better way of putting it.

When I'm not in a good mood everything tastes horrible, so I just stop eating or I'll eat a bite and put it down. When I'm happy even things that I don't usually like eating end up tasting alright--except for pickles... pickles can never be alright. Do people eat when they're upset because they're trying to release Dopamine? I asked my friend that question and she said, "Joanna... You're probably the only person that thinks about neurotransmitters when you're upset."