Sacrifice

I find it increasingly difficult to concentrate. My brain hurts. This whole day I've felt very horrendous. It's probably due to the lack of sleep. I've felt like someone has been dragging me around by the feet since this morning. I told my friend that I thought all of my cells were going to burst and die at the same time and all that will remain will be a pool of red liquid. She said, "...Well then I'll just turn you into a lava lamp." So gross, but I'm glad you would be willing to stare at my innards for the rest of forever.

Do good people even exist anymore? I don't think I'm a good person... There's only one person I know that I think is a good person, but it might be because I don't know them that well. They may superficially seem like a good person. Humanity is complex in the sense that there is never a black and white, but I used to think so. Good and bad people don't exist. Everyone is gray, though some people will be a darker shade of gray than other people. What I mean is seemingly "good" people most likely have "bad" qualities while seemingly "bad" people may have "good" characteristics as well. If "bad" people do "good" things are they still bad? Would you consider someone "bad" if they kill five people, but save ten people in the process? See? It's hard to draw a definitive line.

I need to stop chewing on ice... my teeth are going to die.