Last straw

I can't do it anymore. I don't think I can do this anymore. I just can't do it. If I continue like this I'm either going to get an aneurism or I'm going to die from arrhythmia. My heart was beating so fast today. Sometimes I wish I could just turn off my mind. I need to stop over-thinking everything and just let things be.

我應不應該離職？ Because I really want to. I REALLY really want to. This is bad for my health. I keep feeling like I'm always about to faint, so I have to keep walking out to lean against a wall. Okay. It's done. Starting tomorrow 我必需小心一點；時間到了...回到 “之前”

What's wrong with me is the fact that sometimes I'll say whatever comes to my mind first. While that's being honest and truthful and whatnot it can get me into these unavoidable situations... Me and my big mouth. I'm going to stop talking altogether from now on. That way I can 1. prevent misunderstandings and 2. avoid undesirable circumstances (though technically speaking #2 encompasses #1... whatever, you guys know what I mean).

Let me ask you guys something... 如何把朋友和同事分開來？ What I'm saying is can they ever be the same thing? I need to think about this some more.

Random fact #1: I have a skeleton in my room. Literally. I named him dexter and I used him for memorizing bones in physiology.