Humanity

Today I had a professor ask me about how I felt as an Asian. "As an Asian, do you feel pressure from your parents to do well and not be like the lazy Western stereotype?" What? What does that have to do with being Asian? I think that regardless of race or gender people will feel some pressure whether it be from relatives or themselves to do well or what's the point in higher education, don't you think? That was a stupid question and it totally caught me off guard. It's the equivalent of "Because you're Asian... what's the color of the sky?" It's degrading, uncalled for, and unnecessary. As a professor, you should have known better.

I didn't know how to answer this and I reverted to psycho laughter. Every time someone makes me uncomfortable I force out a laugh. Whenever I force smiles or laughs my eye twitches uncontrollably. I don't know if anyone can tell the difference between my real laugh and my forced laugh. When I told H about this she said that she could only tell the difference between my maniac laughter and real laugh because she's known me for so long. I hope this is the case... I hate uncomfortable situations. My solution to this is psycho laughter and then get the heck out of there.

Basically.

If you don't care you remember 50%. If you care you remember 80%. This number is for the general public. If I don't care I remember 90% and if I care I remember 99%. What this means is my head if full of useless information. If I tell you that I forgot something it probably means that I'm lying and don't want to take responsibility (I shouldn't tell you guys my secrets). Well, if you like me enough to care I will assume you remember 80%. That being said, if we plan to meet up and you cancel plans five minutes before we're supposed to meet, you are rude and inconsiderate and I will thus, not want to see you until a month later... maybe. Not many things make me raging-fire-furious, but people that waste my time are the worst. I don't know if you guys have noticed this, but I stopped making plans in advance with people unless I am 99% certain they'll be there at that time for sure. All of my calls recently have been "Want to go to XYZ right now?" it's so much simpler and none of my time is wasted. I should be a problem solver. 8)