Honey

I ditched a useless class today to buy myself HALF of a sandwich that cost me SIX dollars. The sandwich ended up having MUSTARD in it, but I tried to force myself to eat it anyway since it was freaking expensive. I couldn't do it because it was too disgusting, so I threw it away. Today the wind blows.

People need to just say what they want. I can understand why it's difficult, but I don't understand why you would torture yourself by letting things remain stagnant... like a pool of dirty pond water. Do you want your lives to turn into dirty water? No? Then just do it damn it. I think I'm pretty good at forcing myself to do this even when I don't particularly want to. What I mean is... if you want to talk to someone then pick up the phone and call them instead of staring at their number or Facebook page for a day waiting/hoping that they'll contact you first because chances are the smaller the amount of time you invest in them the smaller the amount of time they'll even consider you to be significant in their lives and you will be staring at things for many many days. Alone. Things don't just happen by themselves. Unfortunately, even when you take initiative and make an effort things rarely go the way you want them to, but if you do it at least there's a chance it will go as planned.

I'm only mentioning this because I ran into someone today and they said something like, "I've really been wanting to hang out with you! I was going to call you!" and what I wanted to say was WELL THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU?! GOOD GRIEF. Why does it have to be so difficult? I probably would have said no, but I mean... -_-;

My person has no phone for the week. Only now do I realize how truly miserable I am without you. Augh. To compensate I'm on Skype 24/7 and I spam email random updates, but it's not the same. It's not the same! I'm so sad. There was a really interesting article I came across today, but this post is already too long, so stay tuned.