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If I was to be reincarnated I would hope to be a twig. There's not much to think about when you're a twig. Your greatest concern would be getting stepped on by someone, but even then it's not that big of a deal because it's not like you die, you just multiply. 

I ended up video chatting with H for more than three hours today. I mean, that's typically how long our phone conversations last. It's difficult to find people that you can stand to talk to for such a long duration without going insane (once again, especially in this city). Usually after talking to/hanging out with someone for an extended period of time people run out of things to say and it turns into forced conversation teeming with awkward silences. Whenever I'm in this situation I feel like a rodent trapped in a cardboard box clawing around frantically desperately in search of an escape route. More often than not I'll end it with something like, "Okay, I have to go... lint roll my shoe" or something equally ridiculous just to get out of there. Desperate times call for desperate... excuses. Of course, not all silence is bad. Comfortable silence is the best. When you can walk next to someone/talk to someone on the phone and be completely silent without feeling the overwhelming need to say something for the sake of saying something. How often have you experienced this with people unrelated to you? It's rare. I'm kind of lucky. 

While we're talking about people why does everything have to be a competition all the time? Why does it matter how many publications you have or how expensive your car is? Don't people ever get tired? I'm tired. I will gladly lose if it means they'll shut up. I wish I could be awesome and just do this in response to peoples'  absurdity. 

I'm going to puke bile. I'm so dizzy. Four more days until I can eat something. I must persevere!