Milk carton

HI GUYS. Sorry I've been MIA lately! It's because I was studying like a mad woman. I took the test yesterday and I got the results back already since it's computerized. All I can say is... :)

I hung out with my loves today. Of course I had to see them right after the test. I call it test detoxification therapy. We did nothing. Went to a chocolate cafe and talked for hours. Has anyone been to Dolce Bella? That was my first time. We randomly saw Prath and Mano. They're so funny and ridiculous.

I called my grandma after I finished testing and she was happy that I did well, but she had to add "It's good that you're done with your test, so you can relax for now, but after you write up your essays and proposals don't forget that you can't completely stop working or else you'll turn stupid." Thanks grandma.

Anyway, I'll be updating more regularly. Time to zzz. Oh! By the way, happy hew year~

Half empty

Our lives depend on five letters. These five letters determine future worth. They are indicative of whether one become a surly pauper or a successful businessman. Inadvertent selection of these five letters may be the difference between 100% and 96%. Hands move from left to right, graphite fills the gaping void between squares, and one may be tempted to think, "It's okay, I have 20% chance..." Wrong. Young grasshopper, that is 80% failure.

Excuse my morbid pessimism. Day three without sleep is getting to me. It's always the third day when things start floating around. Day five is when Michael Jackson sits next to you and strokes your hair.

This girl right here. Haha. It's because we understand each other that we can do this. I chose the part of the conversation that made the most sense; otherwise, I don't think you guys would understand anything we were saying, or rather... not saying.

The days after

Has anyone ever played the game called Banana Grams or something like that? I've never played before, but I've always found it to be intriguing due to the fact that the game itself is contained within a large yellow banana with a zipper. Is it kind of like Scrabble? Let me know.

I don't like gingerbread. I don't like the smell or the taste. I don't like how it's brown (not that I have anything against brown things--I like coffee) and I don't like how people make houses out of it and then eat it. Disgusting. Mostly because I don't like cinnamon (Cinnabuns don't count). I also don't like mustard, pickles, relish, black licorice, garlic, ginger, cottage cheese, ham, bacon, sausage (maybe I should just say pork), mayonnaise, relish, canned soup, donuts, whipped cream, and almonds. If I smell mustard/pickles/relish/black licorice I get a headache and it makes me want to throw up. I'm a fruits/veggie eater, but I'm starting to dislike apples for some reason.

I like onions. ONIONS.. are so delicious. If I could eat onions all day everyday and not develop a nutritional deficiency (or drive everyone away due to halitosis) I would do it. Cauliflower, mushrooms, pistachios, avocados, chipotle, Korean food (minus 삼게탕 because I don't like ginseng), Japanese food, and all fruits.

Bling

Jewelry stores are not my thing. The last time I went into a jewelry store... they probably thought I was a rich person. Either that or I looked suspicious and they thought I was going to steal something because they kept following me. There are so many things that I want (but can't afford).

Me: "Wow this ring is really cute how much is this?"
Store guy: "Ah yes, that is part of our blah collection, we are currently holding a promotion and the price has been reduced!"
Me: "Such perfect timing! How much will this cost?"
Store guy: "Only $4999! Plus free engraving!"
Me: "Oh... I see..." body goes limp
Store guy: "I noticed you took interest in our most recent collection?"
Me: "Haha, yeah I really liked the amethyst earrings!"
Store guy: "Good eye! Those are also part of our promotion just $15,000!"
Me: "HAHAHAHA -_-" walks out of store

If you're going to propose I want this. Platinum, one diamond. You know it's dangerous because 1. it's Cartier and 2. they don't list the price. Note: if you're unfamiliar with Cartier their watches can cost more than a Mercedes. Just sayin.

4n+2

For the longest time I thought that manila folders were called vanilla folders. Can you really blame me? The color is relatively vanilla-y and when people speak rapidly it kind of turns into vanilla. So imagine my confusion as I'm trying to ask someone at Walgreens where I can find vanilla folders. "Uhh... you mean manila folders?" and I correct him--"No... I mean vanilla folders..." how embarrassing, yet this appears to be a common trend in my life.

I woke up and my hand was bleeding (this also seems to happen too often). I always knew I got into gang fights in my sleep. What can I say I'm just such a g (which stands for gangster, don't get it confused with 9.8ms-2).

What the heck is "smh." People keep writing it on Facebook, but I don't understand the young people lingo anymore. Someone told me that it means smack my head or something like that, but why would you do that.. I pretty much have to live on Urbandictionary to decipher what people of my generation are talking about nowadays. Also, what is a LG? I assumed it stood for leaving group because I'm a nerd like that... smack my head, I better go look that up as well.

I went to Hotpot City with my aunt and cousins yesterday. Mmm. However, analogous to every hotpot/bbq place on Earth, you come out smelling like a piece of grilled meat--albeit a delicious piece of grilled meat..

Merry Christmas~

My buttons

I know I'm really cheesy, but I really like the Apple iPhone 4S Christmas ad. It made me smile (which has become a rarity as of late).

My right eye. It looks like someone took a knife and stabbed it. It's so red. I've bursted several blood vessels these past few weeks. I'm pretty sure my body hates me at this point. I think I abuse it too often what with all the sleep deprivation, starvation, overworking, etc. Ah, to be young and healthy again~

So you know how I spend ridiculous amounts of money at Banana? You know those packs of buttons that they give you? I recently realized that I have a giant drawer full of random little packets of buttons which ultimately isn't helpful because if I really do lose a button I'm not going to sit there and sift through all of the little packets to find the one that matches. I'll probably just put a giant piece of duct tape on my article of clothing and call it a day. Maybe I should start labeling my button packets. I don't really know what to do with all of them. A while ago I happened to stumble across an arts and crafts blog that was teaching people how to be creative by making cards out of buttons. Really? Does anyone actually want my buttons? Any January birthdays?

Tie it

If I ever tell you guys that I want kids I'm going to count on one of you to slap some sense into me. Today was ridiculous. I went out to buy something and there were so many cars driving around everywhere that it made me want to shoot myself. There were a lot of impatient people on the road. They were probably having anxiety attacks while thinking about what to buy as last minute Christmas gifts for people (speaking of which I though Christmas was Wednesday... oops). Anyway, if I reacted to a green light with a 1 second delay I got honked at. Geez. People are crazy. Holidays make people crazy. That was a long tangent.

What I was going to tell you guys was that as I was standing in line there was a little kid driving a toy train in circles around me. I was irritated that I couldn't move freely without stepping on him, but I remained civil and ignored him. However, you can only contain irritation for so long before you explode. He started running his train ON my shoes and my leg. What. The. Heck. Where were the parents in this situation? Happily chatting along behind me "oh he's so cute look at him playing with his train." Really? I'm not saying children should be put on leashes, but control your kids gosh dang.

By the way, I love how they try to disguise them as cute backpacks. Though, "honey go put on your backpack" does sound significantly better than "honey go get your leash." It would be funny if there was a mom walking a dog and a kid at the same time. :)

Splatter

Maybe I should just accept the fact that I'm always out of it. I can't wait until everything is over so that I can relax for once in my life--for two days, but it's better than nothing. At this point I'll take anything I can get. I was trying to flush the toilet with the light switch and I stood there for the longest time staring and not understanding why it wouldn't flush until I stopped and thought about it. Then I proceeded to call myself an idiot and headed to the kitchen to make myself a cup of coffee. I turned the machine on and waited for it to finish, but for some reason it was taking longer than usual, so I just ignored it and went back to my room. Only after I went to check on it again did I realize that I didn't plug the coffee maker in. Wow.

I don't remember who gave me this pomegranate, but I ate half of it yesterday. It was really good. I love pomegranates, but I'm usually too lazy to eat them. It's too time consuming and it gets messy. I also don't like the fact that it stains your fingers purple. What scares me is the fact that people eat the seeds o_o. How do they do that? It's so disgusting, but to each their own I guess. Another thing I can't stand is the fact that the seeds are so small that they drop and fly everywhere. Given the fact that I have OCD for cleanliness you would expect me to avoid pomegranates all together. Anyway, I dropped one seed on the ground and I thought, "Man, I better pick this up before I run over it with my chair." I moved my chair back to pick it up and I heard the sound. Therefore, I now have a big purple blotch on my carpet and people are going to think that I menstruate everywhere. Hooray!

And in honor of my pomegranate story... if you guys haven't seen this you're missing out. It's annoying and ridiculous, but keep watching until you get to the anus part (5:30) :)

Omg shoes!

I think it's really funny how only guys will notice the sneakers I'm wearing whereas girls will comment on my boots. The other day I was wearing my Nikes (which is rare because the weather has to be the perfect) and my friend said... "HOLY @(#$ are those the ORIGINAL Air Jordan 1's?!?" and I was very surprised because no one ever notices (well, except Melanie... but that doesn't count). Then I thought about it and I guess some guys do have sneaker collecting hobbies. I too, had a crazy sneaker collecting phase which resulted in about 40 pairs of brand new sneakers just sitting in my house. I'm trying to slowly wear all of them, but it's difficult since I can only fit 10 pairs of shoes at a time in my apartment. Also, I'm not that big of a fan of sneakers anymore. They're convenient for school and such because I don't want to ruin my shoes due to my labs/chemicals and I refuse to be one of those girls that wear heels to class. So stupid. On to boots. My collection is growing and I don't want to wear any of them because they're too beautiful. It makes me happy when people actually notice what I'm wearing. It makes me feel like people don't see me as a homeless person, which is always a plus. "No way! Are those Clarks or Jimmy Choos??" HA. They're Clarks. I can afford 200, but there is no way I am spending 800 dollars on shoes. Ridiculous.

You guys already know the two types of shoes I can't stand. UGGS and Crocs. What else don't I like... let me make a list. These weird slip-ons (I'm sorry, but buy some real shoes). Those daddy sandals; even more-so with socks. Boat shoes? Is that what they call these? Either way, no. No, no, no. If you're too lazy to wear socks then wear flip flops.

Not what I typically listen to (I despise most American music due to the fact that all they talk about is sex, money, and drugs), but pretty catchy. Doodoodoodoo~

1 2 3

My goals for the week:

1. Learn to become ambidextrous to increase productivity.

2. Try to stop online shopping (not possible).

3. Try to sleep more (even less possible).

4. Think only positive thoughts about the test.

5. Isolate myself from everyone, so I can focus.

6. Do laundry... maybe.

...is this a cheese grater??

Airplanes

What if I wanted to be a flight attendant? It would be nice to get free tickets to fly around the world as I please. What are the qualifications anyway? Languages... and to be skinny? Slightly relevant, has anyone watched Pan Am? I know that back in the day stewardesses were hired primarily based on appearance, but that's because most passengers were male and flying was considered a luxury.

Too bad I get motion sickness and would probably throw up on all of the passengers.

Men can make sperm after they're dead. People actually collect sperm from their dead husbands. That's just wonderful.

Can I be your DNA helicase? HAHA oh my gosh I'm so lame. -_-

Medusa

Isn't this problem a bit too realistic? And who would name their child Medusa? That would be so sad. To be affiliated with this sexy lady right here. Actually, I keep getting her confused with Urusla who is equally attractive. Oh, the answer is E in case you were wondering.

I need a giant coffee right about now.

My volcano

There is a rooster crowing outside... why... -_-

I think pimples have minds of their own. Sometimes they grow in such strange places it makes me wonder if they can choose where to plant themselves. There must be some master pimple somewhere in the body that's directing all of this or else why would I have cultivated this giant pimple on my EYELID. I'm such a freak. I look like this. Eww no I don't. It's not that bad... though if it was I'm sure you would all stop talking to me.

Speaking of pimples have any of you guys watched that pimple squeezing video on Youtube? E sent it to me a few years ago. It was the most disgusting thing I've ever seen in my life. Towards the end I couldn't even watch it anymore and I had my hands over my eyes, but I could still hear the girl squealing "eww eWWWWw EWWWW!". You guys should go search it up if you're bored and want to gross yourself out. Viewer discretion advised.

Sloth mode

I'm so lazy. I really don't think there can be anyone lazier than I am. I won't be lazy when it's about work/labs etc, but when it comes to my own life I'm such a useless person.

1. I never cook anything unless it's for someone else because I'm too lazy. I figure if I'm this lazy I might as well just die of starvation and stop wasting the oxygen on this planet.

2. I've been saying that I need a new lanyard for the past four years and still haven't gotten around to buying one. Hmm... I think I want a red one this time.

3. I'm currently using a notebook as a mousepad because I don't want to put in the effort to physically go and get one even though they're only around... three dollars. Look at this pedo bear hand warmer mouse pad! Impractical, but funny.

4. I have four coasters, but I'm too lazy to take them out of my drawer, so I put my mug on the base of my desk lamp.

I'm sure there's much, much more, but I can't think of anything else at the moment. I must depart~

Back

Alright. I need to stop moping around and start doing something about everything. First of all, I'm going to apologize for my depressing posts and promise you guys that I will be back to normal after this post. Yes, that does mean you can once again laugh at my life! Whoo hoo!

A tribute. I think it's super hard to find people that will know exactly what to say when I need them to. Only you guys would know that the one thing that will cure me is laughter. Only you guys would understand that I don't want/need people to say sorry because I think it's pointless. And so, I guess... thanks for knowing :)

Oh and look at this.. haha.

Wow mom

My life is in such a mess right now holy frick.

Swollen

If it's not okay then...

A. smile smile smile
B. blame everything on allergies
C. deny anything is wrong

That's my default. It works~

Ice cube

When she told me, my heart stopped. After two years I'm sure we all knew it was coming, but the situation seemed to be getting better and we were all doing what we could.. What do I feel? Numb. Definitely numb. Guilt? Regret?

I'm sure September 11th was devastating, but December 11th..

I really don't want to be alone today..

Sorry, this is depressing, but I can't seem to piece together anything funny at the moment..

My life

I forget that people are supposed to have lives sometimes. For the first time in maybe two/three years I played Wii with my cousin. My Mario Kart skills have deteriorated. I keep falling off on Rainbow Road, but we finally beat Brawl yesterday. I feel somewhat accomplished. If only I could feel like this about life in general. Then I realized that I haven't touched my DSi since college started and my PSP is just sitting in my drawer. I don't know why I'm telling you guys all of this. I'm pretty much admitting that I'm a big time nerd, but I figure you all should know that already. Nintendo is so cute though! Also, I love Kingdom Hearts. Disney<3 I almost bought a PS3 solely to play that game, but realized I have a nonexistent television and I'm never home, so there's no point. I want to play DDR. You know what else I like? I LOVE board games. Taboo is my favorite :) though I also like Apples to Apples. Too bad I'm ALL ALONE in this cold apartment.

I got a magic mouse. Don't get me wrong, I still dislike Apple and I'm still against them, but their products can be so cool sometimes... I should be ashamed of myself. Anyway, I don't usually like using mice, but I figured I should get used to the whole "testing scenario" thing and one thing led to another, so yeah. In case you don't know what a magic mouse is... there you go. Ahh. Speaking of Apple products... I can't find my iTouch, but perhaps it's better that I can't find it since all I ever do on that is play games.

Two seconds after I wrote that I found it. I might need to put it in exile--music only.

If I can get 23/26 then I will be satisfied. That's not going to happen, so if I can get 21/24 then I will abstain from shooting myself.

Old

You know what drives me insane? I can't stand word problems. I probably have ADHD for word problems. If I'm in the middle of reading a word problem and a bug flies by I'll turn my head and stare at it. Whatever. I think word problems are useless. Especially those age related world problems because when would anyone ever say that in "real life"? Example...

J: Hey, how old are you?
X: Well, if Jim is twice the age of Tracy and one third of my age divided by one fourth of Matt's age..
J: ...are you stupid just tell me how old you are.

That's how I would respond.

I must have had a pretty intense dream... I woke up and there was blood on my hand. I wonder who I punched.

HAHA! I would have given him full points because that made me laugh.

Life goes on

I'm not too sure what's wrong with me... I'm really craving pistachios. I know, really random right?

Yesterday I was drinking Powerade or something and suddenly I couldn't find where the bottle was. I thought I left it in the kitchen, so I went out and I asked M if she saw my drink. She said that she saw me take it into my room. I remembered taking it into my room as well, but it disappeared. I didn't find it until I opened my closet. It was next to my laundry basket. I don't know. I don't have any brain cells anymore just accept me for who I am please.

I ended up making 150+ cookies. Can I just quit school and make cookies for life?

I think I need to stop being so hard on myself. If I'm in the 90th percentile without studying then I should be okay right? The thing is I know during test day I'm going to do worse than I know I can do and that's frustrating, but if everyone does worse than it'll even out right? Sigh.

What are you guys up to? Let's play :)

Nice

Even the ads on my computer know that I'm going to fail MCATs/DATs. They're encouraging me to pursue a new profession... I resent this.

Add oil

If you guys are procrastinating on studying you should read these. I shouldn't be encouraging you guys to procrastinate, but whatever. I laughed so hard that my stomach hurt and I cried. It's a good stress reliever :)

When I was taking my final yesterday the girl next to me was humming. HUMMING. Who does that during a final? I nearly went insane and I couldn't concentrate because I kept reading the same paragraph, but all I could think about was pulling out a bazooka or bashing her head into the wall. The professor noticed the humming, approached her, and told her she was affecting others, so she finally stopped. People are so ridiculous.

I was studying at Starbucks with my NPB book open to the reproduction chapter. I didn't realize that I was drinking coffee while staring at a giant picture of a vagina until people started giving me odd looks. I then proceeded to go home to stare at vaginas in privacy. Why does this happen so often? -_-

UGH. How am I supposed to study when I keep staring at this?! 명수<3

最後一個。勝利! <- lol good times~

My ant

Recent chain of emails between my aunt and I:

J: "I can't do this anymore. I'm going to quit school and become a prostitute... they make more money than doctors anyway!"
A: "...you're going to get an STD"
J: "That's what antibiotics/vaccines are for!"
A: "No one wants to see you naked!"
J: "You want to see me naked!"
A: "Go study for your finals!"
J: "Augh..."
A: "Don't worry, you can do it."

She's the best right? :)

Oh my gosh... I think I talk too much... That's more than 34 hours. Thank goodness the majority of you guys have Verizon or else I would be broke. Hooray for M2M calling! And yes, I do prefer calls to texts because I like to hear your beautiful voices~

I met a cute guy yesterday that was walking a cute dog. Please someone tell me why this only happens when I'm dressed like a HOMELESS PERSON.

Burt's bees

Guys talk about their "little birds" and girls talk about their periods. The difference is that guys are more open whereas girls try to conceal the fact that they are talking about menstruation. What I've realized is that some of the euphemisms people use may not be as surreptitious as they would like to believe.

For instance...

1. My Aunt Flo is visiting
2. I'm on my rag
3. Big red

1. It's pretty obvious that not everyone has an Aunt Flo and really, who would name their child 'Flo' to begin with? I for one would not want my existence to be associated with menstruation (or diner dash for that matter). 2. Not many people know that this saying stemmed from the fact that women used to collect their uterine lining on rags. I'm sure that was sanitary. I honestly didn't understand the meaning of this until I read some science magazine a few years back. 3. This one just reminds me of the gum. Also, I hate cinnamon, so I'm kind of biased.

M: "Dude... you look horrible"
J: "...thanks..."
M: "No, I'm being serious.. you look SO tired."
J: "...I know..."
M: "Like... there are HUGE black bags under your eyes."
J: "I GET IT!!!!!!" T___T

A blood vessel in my eye popped yesterday. Hooray!

I look like this. Feel like this. And want to this. 

Never again

My pen exploded about an hour ago. I'm not exaggerating. I was in intense study mode and suddenly my pen stopped working. I scribbled on some scratch paper, it started working again, and then I went back to my notes, but when I started writing a giant glob of ink leaked out and it squirted itself everywhere. I wonder what happened... spontaneous combustion without heat? You know what this means? It means I'm studying too much and as a subsequence my pen is protesting. I should throw some pepper spray on it. HA. Too soon? ;)

People ask me why I never use pencils. I HATE pencils. With a deep passion. Especially those ugly SAT pencils. I never use them unless I need to fill out a scantron and even then I do so begrudgingly. Pencils are dirty. They make the underside of your right hand gray. If you make a mistake you have to bust out the eraser and leave a bunch of eraser shavings everywhere. If I'm sitting next to someone that is frantically erasing and brushing off their eraser shavings in my direction during an exam I can't concentrate. Would YOU be able to concentrate as fat little chunks of gray droppings fly onto your desk? And this is precisely why I always sit on the left most seat in the row... though knowing my luck the next person that sits to my right is going to be left handed.

Oh my gosh!! LOL!!

Shooting star

Dude. I'm so out of it. I've never done this before no matter how many finals I had. Seriously. When I was taking off my clothes yesterday before showering I realized that I was wearing two bras. What the freak. Who does that? Furthermore, who does that and can't feel it? -_- How embarrassing. This just goes to show that perhaps the general public should keep away from me around this time. Given my current state I'll probably start biting people out of nowhere.

I'll let you guys in on my testing secrets. Peppermint chewing gum has been proven to stimulate the brain and help people do better on test; however, this is only effective for the first 30 minutes. That means you should save the gum for the hard problems since finals are two hours long. -_- I've never tried this one out, but Z told me that wearing blue has the ability to make you calm/relaxed while testing. Hey, I've always wondered this... does anyone wear "lucky underwear" or whatever? I've always seen this on shows, but if anyone actually does this and wants to admit to it tell me if it actually works. I'm super curious :) Also, I'm a creep and would like to know what underwear you're wearing just because.

I LOVE the Christmas mashups that the producing companies are doing. They're so cute. Here listen to this. It makes me smile. Unlike finals. They make me frown. 

Good luck studying everyone~

Germs worms

I finally found out what 90210 means. At first I thought that they just chose a series of random numbers, but it's actually the Beverly Hills zip code. I know, after 4 or 5 seasons I am a bit slow, but it's not like I watch the thing, so that's my excuse. If you quiz me on Grey's Anatomy I would get 100%. :)

I've never really considered myself as a germaphobe, but I think sitting in lecture with all of these diseased people has turned me into one. Whenever someone coughs I get really uncomfortable (especially if it's those phlegm-y coughs). I have to pop up my collar, pull up my sweatshirt, inch away from them, and breathe through my clothing. The worst case scenario is if they are coughing directly behind me and I don't have a hood. If I can feel the warm air hitting the back of my neck I'll think that I'm slowly dying. For some reason I always end up with a headache which causes me to assume I'm getting sick. The headache is probably due to the fact that I worry too much.

I don't get sick often. The last time I was sick was Junior year of High School (you guys remember the whole pneumonia/lung fiasco right?). I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not because when I do get sick I always have to be hospitalized. And for some reason it occurs around the time of my birthday, so I always breathe a sigh of relief after April passes.

Death

This quarter is... not a good thing. You know what I want to do right now? I just want to curl into a ball in the corner of my room watching romantic comedies while eating 떡뽁이--and while I'm at it I should learn the English names of these things, so you guys would actually know what I'm talking about instead of having to click on my suspicious links.

When squirrels dash across a lawn dogs will rapidly turn their heads in that direction and stare. When a bird lands on a windowsill cats will stop what they're doing and stare with wide eyes at the new friend. When a text banner/notification shows up on my phone I drop everything and look towards the lit screen. It's primitive instinct... not obsession.

Y: "Why do you put your hands in your pockets like that? Do you think you're cool or something?"
J: "No... my pants are falling..."
Is this what people think? They think I'm trying to be cool? My pants are literally falling all the time. I only have two pairs of jeans that actually fit. Belts don't work. It's probably because my hips are too lumpy. Someone buy me a lumpy belt.

...I think I need to start going to Starbucks to study again...

Lagrimas

I feel really bad. I made her cry. Well I mean... she was the one that wanted to know. Okay wait I need to start at the beginning. I went to meet a faculty advisor yesterday morning and we were discussing my application, blah blah. When we arrived at the part about extenuating circumstances I gave her a very brief and vague description and moved on, but she wanted to know more "if it was alright with me."I was reluctant because I don't tell people these things, but I needed her input, so okay fine. I told her about my life, poured out my soul, and then I started crying and then she started crying and then everyone was crying and she had to bust out the tissues, etc. Geez it was totally Korean drama status. Anyway, what was the point of that? The point is I feel bad for making her cry. I'm sorry my life is so depressing. How embarrassing. See? This is exactly what I'm talking about. Once again I need to learn how to shut my mouth. The rest of the day was an utter mess because you know how once you start crying you can't stop? For real. At lab I poured BHA into the plate -> tears. I went to class and my professor started talking about viscosity -> tears. I opened my DAT book -> tears (actually this already happens every time because I'm going to fail -_-). Extremely unproductive day. I'm never going to cry again. Hah....

Oh my gosh. Those girls that walk in a straight line and take up the whole sidewalk are going to give me an aneurism. Excuse me, I have somewhere to be and I'm not about to jump into a shrub just to dash in front of you guys because I would like to maintain my dignity. Not to mention the last time I did that there was a spider web in the bush and I flipped out when I found out. Dang you snail people!

Yes I did indeed waste ten minutes of my life editing that JUST to show you guys what I'm talking about.

Under

Sorry I'll life-update tomorrow! I didn't study enough over Thanksgiving break and am now paying the price. Dang that 뽀로로. It was so cute I couldn't stop watching. Reliving my childhood~ By the way, did you guys know The Muppets movie is out? I really want to watch it :) I'm like an old lady in denial about her age.

Just getting a head start on Christmas ;)

A toast

It's one of those days. I woke up with a HUGE pimple on my face. I love my bangs because they can hide it (in that case I should just grow my hair out so I can look like Sadako). It probably erupted out of my face as a subsequence of Black Friday shopping. I was going to take a picture, but decided otherwise because I don't want anyone to disgorge the contents of their Thanksgiving dinner.

I feel like everyone is promoting the Facebook "like" button nowadays. I can't believe they put it on Tic-Tacs as well. Target has some pretty strange things in general... I've just never realized it.

Hehehe. I know, I'm very mature. Thank you.

Citizen fail

Out of sheer laziness I've been drinking water out of one of those Arrowhead 3L bottles. It's mostly because I don't really want to go through the hassle of having to get up and refill it every five seconds due to the fact that I am a whale and I need to constantly rehydrate myself or else I will shrivel away like a prune and die.

You have got to be kidding me. Guess what date it's on? December 27th. Three days before my death day. Why does this have to happen to me? Injustice! The worst part is the fact that I've already postponed it twice--and this is precisely why I wanted to remain a fob for eternity. Augh. FML.

It's a banana pen... I know right? :)

Coded

Ultimatum: I cannot go Black Friday shopping unless I finish studying.

Conclusion: I will be studying all day Thanksgiving.

Who knows... maybe I'll take a short break to gnaw on a turkey leg. You know, I realized that I'm getting too old to go shopping. I don't mean that shopping isn't "cool" anymore what I mean is that physically I don't think my body can't handle it. This is quite sad. Last Black Friday I took my cousins to five different malls. Ah, to be young and healthy. I swear one year of college subtracts ten years from your life. I feel so old and frail. Maybe this is why as we age we stop carrying around cash... little pieces of plastic aren't as heavy.

I was talking to my cousin about which stores she wanted to visit and which malls she wanted to go to on Friday and she asked me if I wanted to go to Banana. Is that even a question? Of course! And she responded...

E: "Okay, then I need to charge my iPod if I'm going to wait in line for you again." -_-

I couldn't even argue... which then reminds me of what my other cousin said last year.

G: "Are we going to Banana?"
J: "Of course!"
G: "Omg, you always take like 3 hours!"
J: "What?! No I don't!!"
G: stare
J: "Two and a half?"

Happy Thanksgiving everyone :)

Mine

My lab is so funny. I had fun yesterday. I think there's a huge difference between getting paid for a lab and not getting paid for a lab. Well... I guess it's more of a personal difference. I feel like I have to be more serious whenever I'm in my $ lab. Though at the same time it might be because my supervisor there isn't as chill as my other supervisor, but then again that might be because I'm not getting paid. See where I'm going with this? Money changes people (which is understandable because only $ can furnish my extravagant spending habits and expensive taste in clothing... dang me).

Essentially I've realized maybe I shouldn't give up on humanity yet because I've been proven wrong. There are actually good people left on this world! 쇼크 o_o! Can you blame me for my pessimism? The past three years have been filled with sex-addicts and psychos--and I love it when people try to tell me that they're angelic... I think I'll be the one to determine that after I go on Facebook and see all of those questionable drunkard pictures spawning all over my newsfeed. -_- Anyway, before I went on a tangent what I meant to say is that I've been fortunate lately and that I'm thankful. My faith in humankind has been restored to 50% which may not seem like a lot, but it has increased from the negative percentages (I hope engineers aren't reading this... they're going to tell me that's not possible, but they're my percentages, so leave me alone).

I need to control my mouth. I keep blurting out whatever I'm thinking without thinking. This is going to get me in trouble one of these days. Honesty is not always the best policy.

I was asked the question that I hate the most yesterday. AUGHh. Next time I'm going to say that I'm 12 years old, first year in middle school. Hey... that's actually a good idea. What do you know? My brain cells haven't completely degenerated yet.

I'm so tempted to cut my hair... must... resist... I think I have a hair cutting obsession/disease. :(

Irrigation

When I'm studying I get irritated really easily. Every little thing has the potential to bother me (even more so now that my headphones are 接觸不良... how the heck do you say that in English). Anyway, noise is always the biggest problem, so I've been pretty upset as of late. I think that's reasonable, but when it gets down to the fact that cheese shreds, bread crumbs, and single strands of hair can provoke my irritation I start to question whether or not I'm insane. The answer to that is probably yes. I feel like the only time I can study is between 2am-6am, which is what I've been doing lately. I'm just frustrated, but I'll get over it after Thanksgiving.

My heart has been acting weird lately. I feel like it's about to pop out of my chest--and before you guys suggest that I'm in love let me explain myself. Whether I'm sitting or walking makes no difference, I can hear my heart sounds (of course as this is happening I'm thinking LUB-atrioventricular valves close -> isovolumetric contraction -> DUB-semilunar valves close). I'm not sure why this is happening, but my hands are throbbing in sync to my heart beats. This isn't normal. When you can see your hand moving up and down in concordance to your heart beat as it rests on a flat surface there must be something wrong. It gets really bad if I think about MCATs/DATs. The moment I think about it my heart starts beating even faster because I don't think I'm ready and I only have a month left to prepare. LUB-DUB. Then I think about your mom LUB-DUB. Sorry, it was too easy I had to throw that in there. ;)

...well that's awkward.

Sadness

I'm trying to decide whether or not sitting through traffic is worth it, but then I already promised to go shopping with EL when I get back, so I guess I'm going (can't wait for this~!). I hate crowded freeways. If it were up to me I would use Harry Potter's fireplace to zap myself back to the bay area. Given the way Apple products are evolving it seems likely that by the time iPhone 9S comes out there will be a teleportation device included.

Last night I had a dream that I left my phone in lecture and I was completely frantic trying to find it. When I woke up I was really mad, but then I realized it was just a dream.

Have you guys ever woken up like that before? In the most extreme cases I've woken up laughing and I've woken up in a puddle of water thinking that I drooled everywhere when in reality it turned out to be a lake of my own tears. I don't even remember why I was so sad. You probably broke my heart. :(

If I have three blankets and I fold each one in half and stack them on top of each other does that mean that I'm sleeping with six blankets on top of me?

English is his first language?! What?? Am I the only one that didn't know?

Ah, productivity

I don't often complain about classes and midterms, but what kind of scrooge gives a midterm the day before Thanksgiving? Actually, if I were a professor I would probably do this too, so I guess it's understandable from that perspective. If you give students a test the day before Thanksgiving it means that you don't have to be at class and the TA's can do the dirty work while you go off and hunt down a turkey. Fine. I see how it is, but that doesn't mean that I like it.

The other day someone asked me what my best physical feature is. I couldn't respond because I don't really have one (there's not much to choose from given all the fat clinging onto my body...). After thinking for a while I finally figured it out. I guess the only thing I like about myself... dimples? I think it's mostly because I was jealous of my friend and wanted dimples for the longest time. Then one day I looked in the mirror and noticed that I had dimples. I was so confused. Who would have guessed that excess adipose tissue hinders the expression of dimples?

Sorry if I have eternally blinded you. Please forgive me.

She's going to kill me when she sees my new profile picture... HAHA.

Ah. 추워~ It's freaking cold. :( Someone warm me up. Hohoho ;)

Fatty

My aunt sends me funny things. I cut out the text and I'll just translate directly for you guys.

Evolution: girl -> woman -> grandma
Girl: "Ah yes, I must sit properly"
Woman: "I should be more feminine"
Grandma: "Imma sit however I want! 爽"

No translation for the last word~ back to work.
Soundtrack to my life. :)

Tell her

I think my English is slowly degenerating. Yesterday I interchanged cohesive and coherent. I'm so sad, but perhaps this is what I get for submersing myself with all of these other languages i.e. phone, Facebook, mail, Youtube = Korean; news=Chinese; radio=Japanese. This is despicable. I'm mad at myself.

Surprisingly, I made it to the bank yesterday. I went and I finally cashed that stupid security deposit. I asked the teller if she could split the check and send it out to them, but she told me that that would cost me money. I said that that was unfortunate because there were certain people that I would rather not see again... and then I let my voice trail off. What was funny was the fact that she responded with, "I KNOW RIGHT?! College roommates were just... horrible--and there's always that ONE that everyone can't stand because they're either really dirty or they have a boyfriend over all the time etc." Oh man. You know, that really made me feel better about the past year. Knowing that most people actually understand and can sympathize with me makes me happy.

This is worrisome and disturbing. I mean, when I was growing up A always stood for Apple. Now that there is an abundance of knowledge children need to start learning about respiratory disorders at the age of three? What does B stand for? Bronchitis? 

Double

Those of you that know me well or have been unfortunate enough to have a class with me know that when I'm bored I tend to draw hearts around the borders of my paper. I'm not sure why, but it's been this odd habit of mine since college started. However, as I was studying for a class and looking through my notes I was surprised to see that I didn't see any hearts. Instead, I saw doodles of dead weeds. This seems to be a pretty good depiction of my life in general. I told this to H and she said, "So this is what happens to us when we grow older - it's nice to know your soul is shriveling away."

I've been obsessing over 광민 (Kwang min) from a Korean boy band (don't hate). What can I say, I need my daily dose of skinny guys. He's so cute. Aww. He's the one on the left. He has a twin. It's actually the yellow haired one on the right (Young min) and before you say that they look the same... they don't. Kwang min is skinnier and cuter, but here's a still picture if you guys want to tell me that I'm wrong. Now I feel like a pedophile because they were born in '95--and we'll just leave it at that.

I never think twins look the same even if they're identical. Maybe that's why I was the only one that could tell those two apart during tennis in High School while everyone else had to look at their shoes. Please, that's why they made me captain *brush off shoulder. I'm only joking. Seriously though I don't think I've ever met any that have been completely impossible to tell apart and I always have a favorite. HAHA~ don't tell on me.

Oh actually there was this one time when I asked Julian for a favor and when I walked passed him in the hall I called out, "Hey Julian! Thanks for..." and the person responded, "uhh... I'm Sean." I was super confused because I didn't know he had a twin and I thought he was lying to me. Come to think of it Sean probably thought I was a creep at the time. Whatever Sean, Julian is my favorite.

Earplugs

Why does this always happen? I just want to cover my ears, scream that I don't want to know, and run away. What I mean is... I don't want to know about your sex life. I don't want to know how much alcohol you consume. I don't want to know about your bowel movement and I definitely don't want to know how busy you think you are. I know the last one is semi-reasonable, but I've already posted about this previously, so I don't want to repeat myself. I'm just saying that if you got a sexually transmitted disease... why aren't you ashamed? And why would you tell me this when I don't even know you? I literally sat down next to some girl and the first thing she asked me was if there was lab this week and then she said that she got gonorrhea and proceeded to ask me if I knew any good solutions or something like that. Really? Do I look like a STD expert? ...come to think of it... do I? -_- sigh... why must it be this way.

I think something that I keep hearing is "What? I didn't know that you..." but that's only because I don't go around screaming my head off about how busy I am. As a general rule of thumb I only answer questions about schedule, classes, grades, relationships, age, and bowel movement if asked directly because I assume that people don't care (though like I said, if you're one of my people you have no choice). And if I don't want to answer I'll reword my sentences and change the subject because I'm crafty like that. 8)

I want to watch 50/50 and Jack and Jill (Katie Holmes!). Go with me after finals! :)

너 없으면 행복 할 수 없어

Hairy situations

Yesterday I was in class and some girl was sitting in front of me. I was concentrating on the lecture as the professor was talking about water activity (though I was primarily focused on the water activity inside my bladder). Then suddenly the girl flips her hair and a giant mound of curly, oily, puffs land on top of my binder while I'm trying to take notes. I can feel the vomit building up inside my esophagus, but I ignore it, brush off the hair with my pen, and continue to pay attention to the lecture. Then five minutes later it happens again, but this time her hair lands ON MY HAND. Is that even sanitary?! I'm sure there are mounds of bacteria and small bugs living inside that bird's nest of hers. Judging by the texture of her hair it didn't look like she would be one to bathe frequently.

Seriously, if you're going style your hair in that fashion please don't fling it anywhere or at least make sure it doesn't touch anyone as you're doing so. I don't want to be mean, but... that's freaking disgusting. What if she had lice? I couldn't even concentrate for the rest of lecture because I was too busy scooting to the very back of my seat trying to avoid the dirty hair monster that was trying to eat my hand.

I finally decided to wear my new scarf yesterday, but I didn't know that it would shed so much. It's made out of wool and alpaca, made in Italy, and supposedly very warm, but the thing is I didn't think it would be so itchy either. I think halfway through the day I developed a rash or something. Maybe I'm allergic to alpaca. When I told that to my friend she said, "Are you stupid? How do you not know when you're allergic to something?!" I don't think it's that strange. I mean... it's not like I walk though campus petting all of the alpacas that happen to be roaming around. This is an alpaca if you don't know what they look like.

I should have thrown some alpaca on giant-hair girl. HA--take that *fling. I'm only kidding~

My western blot worked! I finally succeeded! :) I'm so happy. Though it was in part thanks to my friend's brother.

Mission impossible

Do you guys remember studying missions in middle school or something? For some reason I dreamed about San Juan Bautista last night. Yeah, I don't know... I'm just all over the place recently. I really miss field trips though...

I remember coming back from the field trip completely obsessed with the whole Native American thing and I kept thinking that every rock I saw on the side of the road was an arrowhead, so I would pick them up and bring them home. Then I started collecting acorns because I was determined to make acorn bread or acorn mush (I don't remember which one they ate...), but that failed because I tried to mash them on those big decorative rocks that people have scattered in front of their houses (I didn't steal them... I put them back after I was done "cooking"). I remember my aunt coming back and seeing me outside sitting on the stairs trying to mash acorns with big rocks. She asked me what I was doing and when I told her I was trying to make Native American food she walked inside and was like... right... you do that.

Needless to say I was a strange child. -_-

If my western blot fails today I think I'm just going to throw myself out of the window.

What's today?

My brain is going to explode. I would like to speed up the process, so these headaches can stop. I think I need to worry/think less because it's not really helping the situation. I wonder if it can actually happen? If you study so much and there's so much information in your brain that it just gives up and bursts. It would be kind of interesting though... to sit in lecture and suddenly BOOM as the brain of the person two rows down explodes and you see little pieces flying in all directions. Sorry, I'm clearly not in the right state of mind. Whoo. @_@

So I did laundry at 6:00am this morning. It was super refreshing because I had every single washing machine/dryer to myself. I was almost tempted to wash one sock in each machine, but decided against it due to my lack of quarters. It's better this way. I guess I never wanted to do this before because I hate going outside in the early morning when it's super cold, but I figure if I'm going to be awake anyway I might as well. Besides, no one is ever up that early, so no one can see how ridiculous I look dressed in a snow jacket and two pairs of pants. Don't judge.. it's cold -_-

I don't understand why no one sells a plain clear sticker for the iPhone home button. It's driving me insane. You guys know how I like my stuff: clean/clean-looking right? Well after thorough searches I end up with things like this or this. Really? Do I look like the type of person that would stick that on my home button? As a general rule of thumb anything that has the world "bling" associated with it is bad news by default and animal print should stay on animals. Is a clear home button sticker so much to ask for? HMM?! IS IT?! Oh my gosh... I'm so crazy right now... please forgive me. Clearly I need more human interaction. Locking myself in my room -> intense study mode -> insanity.

Awkward turtle

Oh my gosh... I wish I could chop out my brain. Yesterday I went to Safeway to get some water and the little boy in front of me in line said something along the lines of "...none of your beeswax" and immediately my brain starts thinking: beeswax; lipid ester, joined by long chain fatty acid (typically C16-20) and long chain alcohol. ...oy -_-

I think I'm a really bad person. I feel so bad... two weeks ago some lady made an appointment with me for an interview and it's supposed to happen on Tuesday, but the thing is I already got the other position that I wanted, so I called her to cancel, but she didn't answer the phone and I had to leave her one of my awkward voice messages. I wish there was an undo button for voicemail. I told her that I had previously been hired, that it was more suited for what I wanted to do in the future, and I wished her luck in her search for a research assistant. Then I didn't know what to say, so I paused awkwardly and said, "...so yeah! I hope you have a great Thanksgiving." What the heck... who wishes people a good Thanksgiving on November 12th? Augh. What was I thinking. I'm so weird, but you guys know this already and still love me regardless... aww <3

Song of the day. Colbie Caillat - Rainbow.

Cool

As a kid I've always wanted one of these... but I was such a deprived child that I could only play with this. I'm just kidding. My grandma spoiled me and bought me one of those motorized kids cars, but for some reason I was infatuated with the rice spatula (which perhaps explains why I was so fat for the greater half of my life).

You know what sucks about school? The fact that there are so many classes that I want to take, but can't because I already don't have enough time to take my required classes. Dang you school system, I just want to take Japanese is that too much to ask for?!

Let's see... what has been on my mind lately? Western blot western blot western blot... driving me insane up in here. Is it okay to like someone that's 10-15 years older than you? HAHAh. Okay I'm not going to post about this. Too embarrassing.

Life support

I'm too lazy to put food into my mouth, but I'm really dizzy. -_- whatever.

What am I going to do with my life? I'm so confused. Doctor? Dentist? Doctor? Dentist? Augh. If my grandma just supported my love for dentistry then this wouldn't be such a difficult decision and it makes me really sad because my grandma is the best and if I ever let her down I might as well just bury myself in a well. What doesn't help is the fact that advisors at this school don't care to meet up with students individually and try to avoid contact as much as possible. Too bad I'm too poor to go to a private school. 

Man I have to tell you guys something. I'll update tomorrow morning since I don't have to work :) Have I ever mentioned that I love veterans? Because I do :)

Negative cells

Man... the last time I laughed that much was last year. I laughed so hard that tears were rolling down my face, my stomach hurt, and I got a foot cramp ( is that normal...). Then I realized that maybe my foot cramping up could be due to the fact that I was literally running from building to building yesterday in order to be on time for my interview. I feel so guilty. I can't even remember the last time I went running. I'm too lazy... I think it's because I don't eat anything, so I don't feel the need to exert extra energy. Hehe.

J: What's that called? Those gloves that cover your whole hand?
J: Muffins? Muttons? Muffs?
M: ...mittens

J: What are those people called? The ones that follow the president around?
M: hmm...
J: Social security!
M: That's old people money!! -_-
J: Social services... special services? Special force? SECRET SERVICE!
M: *facepalm

And THAT is how you tell I'm midterm-ing. My brain is so full of info I wouldn't be surprised if I forgot how to tie my shoe tomorrow. I should buy myself some Uggs. HAHA. Gross.

LMAO I love my aunt. I'll translate for you guys... "Hi, Your grandma and I have discussed and wanted to tell you that... you're too skinny. And you can't focus on studying this way because your brain will short-circuit.." and the rest is just typical aunt stuff and she tells me to "add oil" aka fight-o/fighting, but there isn't a saying like this in English. Sigh. I want to go to Taiwan.

Sunshine~

Today is hands-down the best day of my life so far and it's not even 12:00pm yet! One of my labs is ending (the bugs have finished mating), so I wanted to find another one that would give me actual meaning in my life--and I did. I found an amazing research center in Sacramento in which I could run my own tests involving gastrointestinal cancer (emphasis on premature islet cells in the pancreas). There's even a vivarium :) so amazing~

You know, I never know what to wear for interviews. I don't want to be too formal (prick), but at the same time I don't want to be too casual (slacker). Next time I'll go naked and see what they say. Actually, they would probably send me back out and subsequently sue me for blinding them for life. After talking to Dr. U for about an hour... I GOT IT! I'm excited. So excited that I have this permanant dopey smile on my face. I could die of happiness right now and I want to scream. 1 hour of sleep? I've never felt so alive.

--the fact that I was lost for an hour running around like a headless chicken will remain unmentioned... this is why I leave an hour and a half early for these things -_- I managed to find the room at exactly 9:00.

Also, I feel like a horrible TA. I ditched my children for an interview, but it's okay because I moved my hours to another day, right? Is 7:00am too early for college students? HAHA. Well it's up to them if they want to come or not. :)

The only thing that could possibly make today any better is if my midterm tomorrow becomes magically cancelled. Heh. I can dream...

Be twelve

This is the most ridiculous thing ever. People in my UPPER DIVISION molecular biochemistry of food class do not know what vitamin B12 is for. I had to hold in my laughter yesterday as a conversation went down like this...

TA: So... does anyone here take supplements?
Girl: Oh! I do. I take B12.
TA: Okay. Why do you take B12?
Girl: ...um because it's good for you... it has a lot of different good things in it..
TA: ...uh huh... ...right... ...anyone else?

I mean it would be a little bit much to expect that the general public would know (or care for that matter), but when you're a nutrition major (I'm assuming that she was...) and you don't understand such basic concepts... it's questionable, to say the least. People consume vitamins and supplements without thinking and it can actually be detrimental or cause reverse effects, so it would probably be a smart idea to do some research before shoving pills down your throat right? Geez. I sound like a drug label, but it's only because I think everyone looks like this nowadays.

Vitamin B12 isn't synthesized in the body and it can't be stored (the body only converts inactive form to active form... but I won't bore you with the details), so yeah you do need to consume foods that contain the vitamin precursor (which, luckily, is very abundant... most seafood, protein, cheese, etc.), but you don't need to take it in pill form unless you have a serious deficiency. The reason that our bodies need B12 is mainly to prevent pernicious anemia (inability of production/maturation of RBCs) though it has other functions as well. I guess... in essence it's not particularly harmful if you want to take it in pill form, but it's not exactly beneficial either. It's just a waste because it can't be stored and it's going to be excreted anyway, but to each their own I guess.

Somehow this post turned into a lecture/article. -_- sorry... you guys get enough of this in class, but it drives me insane that people don't know what they're eating, swallow random vitamins/supplements, and then freak out about how high fructose corn syrup is "bad" (I'll post on this one of these days).

An ode

Swifter. Probably the most innovative invention on the face of the Earth. If people thought snuggies were amazing... they probably don't have a Swifter. Not many people understand how many functions a Swifter really has. That's because they have no creativity. Do you think that this brilliant contraption is limited to cleaning tiles and wood floors? No. Little did you know that this little mop can be used to kill bugs in all areas and all angles of the house. Oh, is there a mosquito in the corner of the living room? Don't worry, bust out the Swifter. With it's boxy form figure it can attack the pest and exterminate it within seconds. (I would like to admit that I do none of the killing) What else can you do with a Swifter? Well... if your 500lb neighbors upstairs are jump-roping you can take that Swifter and whack the ceiling with all your might (not me, but true story.. I live on the top floor... should I start jump-roping?).

So you see? Get creative :)

I'm ridiculous

Oh my gosh... this is so distracting. He's so freaking good looking that I've been watching this video on repeat instead of studying like a good person.

How cute is this? AH. Ukwon. I'm going to die. 죽겠다 진짜. AHh. This is driving me insane.

ALSO... Jaehyo. Aiish. I'm not going to get anything done at this rate.

2's and 4's

To the couple kissing in the middle of the parking lot: Hi, it's great that you guys have found each other, but I need to get to my lab, so if you guys could PLEASE make out where it will not obstruct the flow of traffic that would be great. Thanks.

To the Safeway bread stockers: Hi, I know you guys are busy and I'm grateful for the fact that there's always bread on the shelves, but if you guys need a step ladder to put my bread at the back of the top shelf what makes you think I can reach that without a step ladder? -_-

To my advisor: Thank you for scheduling an appointment with me and then not showing up. You're awesome, really.

(and finally) To my NPB book: Why must you contain so much content? :( I will love you regardless... through good times and bad right? Right. 

J

Jay Chou's new song... I'm kind of questioning the outcome of this album. It's so different... 1. I didn't know he could dance 2. it's auto-tuned 3. umbrellas came out of nowhere 4. whaaaat? I'm so confused.

Okay that's all I had to say. Must study. But, check out the MV on youtube.

Hair loss

My hands are so dry... they look like some cracked grandma's feet. This is really attractive, viewer discretion advised. I ran out of hand lotion and I refuse to use my face lotion because that stuff is too expensive to use on my hands (being the nerd I am, I calculated this and it comes out to about $2 for every mL... gosh dang my sensitive face=$300 spent on facial products. FML).

You know, there are seriously some people that make me very uncomfortable. Do you guys know I'm talking about? Those people that 1. ignore everything you say 2. don't respond to anything you say 3. don't laugh/smile ever 4. take too long to respond 5. always try to give you advice when you don't want it. I think I need to explain...

1. they ignore everything because they don't want to talk to you? But it's not that they hate you... they're just socially awkward? I don't know, it's just weird.
2. kind of linked with the first one
3. this really irritates me because I like making people laugh... I can see how it wouldn't bother people if they're normally grumpy
4. you stand there and wait for a response, but they're speaking EXTREMELY slowly and you don't really know what to do with yourself because you want to make them speak faster, but it would be rude to point out that you could be utilizing your time more efficiently, so you shift your weight and fidget uncomfortably -_-
5. those self proclaimed "do-gooders" out there that are always trying to save the world when in reality all you want is to make conversation because there is essentially no solution to the situation you're presenting i.e. oh, so this weekend I ran into a wall when I was trying to get to my room in the dark response: well... maybe next time you should be more careful or buy a light (the normal response is "haha, you idiot" or some equivalent)

AND if someone happens to encompass all of these characteristics... it's enough to make you want to pull your hair out, agreed? Thereby, solving the mystery of the bald spot developing on the side of my head..

Exercise...

What exactly are you trying to imply here... -_- I mean, it would be okay if they sent one, but when they start sending me four emails a day for discounted fitness classes I begin to think they're trying to tell me something.

Inception

The way you phrase something can affect what people think of you... it's easier if I give you guys an example... I'll talk about what I did this weekend.

What I can make you guys think:
Oh man, I had such a crazy weekend. I drank so much that I couldn't even see what I was reading anymore. Then the next day I went out with my friend and we went to this place where they were selling the goods, you know? Yeah, I bought some. Then we went to this dark place and there was this one dude hella checking me out, but we got out of there fast.

What I really did:
I studied, drank a bunch of water, and went to the optometrist. Then I bought a shirt. End of story.

Try to match up what I actually did with the ridiculous story above. See, I didn't lie I just made the truth a bit more exuberant. Think carefully before you say things or else people will misinterpret what you're trying to say. (and even if you do people will probably still misinterpret things... sigh)

Do I look like I have a lot of free time or something? I don't think they understand. This quarter is just... And somehow I've become a free tutor/essay editor/bakery -_- ugh dang me and my inability to say no to people.

You see?

I think everyone loses socks (though some people lose socks at a higher frequency). I happen to be one of these people, but I've come to accept the fact and hope that people aren't particularly creepy and inspect the half-inch between my jeans and my shoes to see whether or not my socks match. Losing socks is reasonable, but once you start losing pillowcases you start to wonder whether or not the dryer is eating everything. I swear, I did laundry yesterday and when I finished I put my bed sheet back on my bed and my pillow cases onto my pillows when I realized that a whole pillowcase was gone! What the heck?! Mark my words... I will find you..

Relatively related, I wonder if you guys know that Apple made some pet GPS thing? (do you think they could make some for my socks)

So I went to the optometrist yesterday and she looked like she was unhappy with me because she probably felt like I was wasting her time... she told me that my eyes were fine. One eye has around 15 degrees I think and she said ..."uhh.. well nothing's really wrong with your eyes... you can get glasses if you want, but it's not... (long pause) necessary" and when I tried to explain to her that the blackboard was blurry at 4:00pm she gave me the signature "wtf" look and told me that that doesn't typically happen to people. Am I weird? -_- Don't answer that.

Study time. I'm going to go get some coffee..

The river?

This is so adorable. Kids are only cute to look at... taking care of them is a pain.

I randomly "woke up" at 3:00am today. This seems to be the story of my life. Sigh. I just wish I could get more than 2-3 hours of sleep... though it's a lot better than how it was before.

Two nights ago I was sleeping and suddenly my earring started bothering me, so I took it off and threw it somewhere. Now I can't find it. There goes $50. I wonder if I can sell the other one for $50. HA.

Also, I think I lost my ATM card. Sigh.

And by the way, I gave in and bought the leather jacket. FML. I wish someone would stop my irrationality and spontaneous clothes-buying disease.

You know, as surprising as this may seem, I've begun to realize that there actually are good people out there and I've been missing out because I haven't been putting much effort into looking. Thankfully, as of late, they have been coming to me. 좋아. Please continue~ (I've also found out that there are a lot of expressions in each language that are really useful, but it sucks that they don't translate well into other languages which makes it bothersome when I'm trying to say something because my mind is constantly flowing between 6 different languages -_-)

This is

I hate this. Really. Sometimes I feel like... What the heck am I doing? I wish I could be a more substantial part of life in general, but that's not the case and it makes me frustrated because the only thing I CAN do is study and work more, but where does that leave me? Nowhere.

Ricola

Who knew halls vitamin C could be so inspiring?? I feel like I can now conquer the world. I'm going to go be unstoppable. Later~

Adipose

I feel really fat. I always feel really fat when the weather starts getting colder. I wonder if it's because I start wearing more clothes? The numbers on my scale have been at a constant decline since college started, yet I still feel really fat. Like a turkey. Please roast me for Thanksgiving.

I wish I weren't so weight obsessed, though I feel like the majority of girls around this age are. Maybe it's because it's "mating time" in which sexual selection is particularly strong, so everyone must follow the whole "reproduction=success" theory (thank you, Charles Darwin for ruining every Biology class I've ever taken). I don't think this is healthy, but I have to weigh myself every day. Like... I MUST. I will bring my scale back to San Jose just so I can weigh myself. I'm not sure... perhaps it's the fact that my form factor used to resemble that of onigiri (<- keep in mind I was never that cute), so it makes me extremely sensitive/aware of the percentage of fat accumulating in my body.

Don't you hate those people that can keep eating and eating, but never gain weight? What the freak. Though I suppose it's these same people that get really fat in college or the years after as they continue eating and develop a sedentary lifestyle. I once told this guy that I eat a peanut and gain ten pounds. He responded with, "...that must be a pretty big peanut then..." Ha! Best response yet. I love witty humor.

Lumpy

You know, I've never understood people that put things in their back pockets. I suppose it's the norm for guys, but for girls it's kind of strange. Mostly because girls' clothing is form fitting and when people do that it looks like they have a tumor coming out of their butt. I mean, unless they find that kind of thing attractive... to each their own I guess?

Butt tumors remind me of hemorrhoids... ew.

Wouldn't it be nice to go on a vacation? Trinidad anyone? Haha, sometimes looking at pictures is enough to make me smile~

Song recommendations for the day:

English: Michelle Branch - Everywhere
Spanish: David Bisbal - Buleria
Chinese: 飛兒樂團 - 三個心願
Japanese: Kuraki Mai - もう一度
Korean: 슈퍼주니어 - A-CHA

HA. Pick your language.

F that.

You know what drives me insane? Everything. Okay, but seriously it drives me insane when people don't respond to things. Such as: texts, emails, messages, etc. What the freak?! How am I supposed to know if you saw the thing or not? Here's the order of importance... If you don't respond to wall posts it's normal (that's what the like button is for), texts - fine (you probably think you're "better" than me; whatever you can keep thinking that if it makes you feel better about yourself), but it starts to irritate me when people don't respond to emails, messages, and I'll be extremely irritated if you don't respond to a phone call or voicemail because if it gets to the point where I have to call you it probably means that it's important.

I don't understand people and these stupid stupid games that they play. The whole "oh, I shouldn't respond so fast so they think that I'm a busy person and don't have time for them and that they're not important in my life" is so ridiculous to me. It shouldn't be this hard, people.

What the heck. And then you go on Facebook and your newsfeed indicates that they've responded to everyone on their wall, but they couldn't take those few minutes out of their lives to reply to your email. Seriously? So rude. So extremely rude. I'm going to scream.

Okay sorry I'm done ranting.

Uggly

I swear... I probably post about this every year when the cold season starts, but I really need to emphasize how UGLY Uggs are. I'm so bewildered by the fact that so many girls wear them (daily). They don't enhance the feminine features of feet. In fact, your feet become comparable to those of elephants. Why anyone would pay so much money to look like an elephant is beyond me. Honestly, my upper half already looks like an elephant. Why on Earth would I want to pay a large sum of money to make the bottom half more synonymous? (This is where you guys say... Joanna, what are you talking about, your bottom half already looks like that of an elephants as well -_- can't even argue..)

I guess the one good part about cold weather is that the slutty summer clothing is going to be put away for a while. That is unless they're truly dedicated... in which case they will bear the cold to show some cleavage. I don't know. Frozen boobs just don't sound very appealing to me. I think I'll keep my 10 jackets on. I don't think there are any guys on Earth that are worth freezing for (unless it's Blue or Jonathan Rhys Meyers... I would gladly be naked for them HAHA~) and if there actually are, they wouldn't want you to freeze to begin with.

There's a leather jacket that I really want. Freak.

Thyme

Ah. I haven't updated. :( I just realized that I have too many midterms. What I mean is... check out this recent conversation...

C: Joanna do you have midterms this week? Let's hang out!
J: Oh yeah, I have one Wednesday and Friday...
C: Aw man... okay let's hang out Friday after your midterm then!
J: AHh, I have one Monday or else I would :(
C: Dang.. I guess after Monday then?
J: Lol... I have another one Wednesday -_-
C: -____-

HAHA. I'm sorry <3 I would if I could...

I can't wait for Thanksgiving... I don't even remember the last time I ate. It must have been Friday or Sunday. Good luck on midterms y'all.

죽겠다~

MMM

I really love this guy. He makes me smile. The song looks fun... I'll play it when I have time... uh... -_-

It's not really considered classical, I don't think.

Say uncle

I think I'm addicted to coffee. It's official now. I've been drinking a cup a day since school started because it wakes me up, but I decided that this morning I was too lazy to make some and that I didn't really feel like drinking it anyway. Bad decision. I went to work early (as usual) and at around 11 or 12 I thought that I was going to drop dead on the ground. Sloth mode. You know that feeling that you get around 2 or 3 in the afternoon? Yeah. It was like that. 

Highlights of the past week

1. I fell asleep on a random guy in class (but it's okay because he was asleep too)

2. I couldn't reach the bread that I wanted at Safeway and some tall 白人 with long arms got it for me

3. Midterm went well (hopefully it went as well as biochem :) but I doubt it because I always second guess myself on multiple choice)

Speaking of biochem... okay I have to tell you guys a funny story. So after we got our tests back our professor put up the scores and she showed the number of people that got what score etc. There were two people that got 100% and I was sitting there smiling to myself. Then the girl next to me turns to me and she says, "%*$& don't you just want to kill those two bi#$&@#?! Like what the *#$& they hella ruined the curve and $#&@ " and I said, "Uhhh... yeah! o_o;;" This is a scary world we live in...

I need to 똥. -_- just saying~ 

Gross

THERE ARE FREAKING FROGS OUTSIDE MY APARTMENT!!!

N P B

I just... want to pee.

Ahh, I can't really update right now. I have to study.

BUT. I will provide you guys with a juicy update tonight... that is if I don't fall asleep on the ground the moment I get back.

For now... to keep you guys entertained.

Agreed?

I'm currently updating my phone to iOS5 and while I was updating it a series of boxes popped up, so I absentmindedly clicked next, next, agree, and it started downloading. Then as I sat there and watched the blue bar slowly increase towards the right (this thing says it's going to take 4 hours... freaking Siri doesn't even work on iPhone 4) I realized that I never read those user agreement things.

For all I know they could be asking for my soul and I would still be sitting there clicking agree. I'm just afraid that one day someone will show up on my door step and say, "Oh hey, so we're here to take you to the prostitution house!" of course I would deny ever being affiliated with such demeaning activity whereby they would proceed to whip out a contract showing that I clicked the blue agree button on October 13, 2011. Then I would have no choice, but to respond with this. I seem to have a lot of those moments.

Studying makes people crazy. Well, at least it makes ME crazy. I'm acting really strange lately (OKay, more than normal at least) and I have to keep reminding myself to tone it down because there are probably only four people on this planet that have seen me act like a complete psycho and are okay with it. I think I scare people unintentionally. :(

Zombie mode

T___T 김치볶음밥 먹고 싶어. Kimchi rice? Kimchi fried rice? Kimchi rice stir fry? I don't know what this is called in English. Either way... Intense craving... too bad there aren't any Korean restaurants here and I have no Kimchi (not like I would cook anyway because I'm too lazy).

And oh my god... 奶油餅... ahh I'm going crazy.