Tears of joy

SHE SAID YES. Okay, this can be misinterpreted in several ways, so let me explain myself. I finally stopped being a stupid person and started asking for letters of recommendation. It's so hard to ask teachers because I assume they don't remember me and they don't care about me enough to write one, but the other day I asked my old English professor.

J: "Hi Kelly, I don't know if you remember me, but..."
K: "Joanna! Of course I remember you how are you doing? I would be glad to write a letter for you!"

Yes, we are on a first name basis, but that's besides the point. I was so happy that I cried. Well it wasn't only that, but yesterday was such a good day that I literally cried due to sheer happiness. It took me three months to formulate exactly what to say and then it took me two months to deliver because I am a chicken like that. Now I feel like I have enough confidence to ask my genchem/ochem teacher. We'll see how that goes.

One of the biggest hurdles is the fact that I'm extremely afraid of rejection, so I've been checking my email less and less because I really just don't want to know the answer. When I get a new email my heart beats so fast it feels like it's going to explode. LORs are not good for my health. Professional schools should know about this. I think if a professor replied with "What? Do I know you?" I would just bury myself in a hole and fail all of my finals. Speaking of finals... one down five to go. -_-