Can I ?

I know I said I would stop, but this is so accurate...

I feel less guilty because there are subtitles. Of all days why do I have to be so weak today? If you called me right now... I think I would just say yes. What is it called if I'm sad when I don't see you, but equally sad when I do? I'm just always sad these days even though I pretend I'm not and that I'm perfectly fine without you. All of this constraint and resistance is draining my energy. It would be so easy to give in...