Checkmate

So... I went to the outlets today. I know. I'm bad. I spent 60 dollars. I hate myself. My initial intention was to go and buy a hat. I ended up seeing no hats at all and buying clothes instead. It felt like summer vacation. Truthfully, after my midterm on the 22nd it felt like school had ended already, which is probably not a good thing because I should be studying. Bah. Why does it have to be this way? M and I went into Bath and Body Works to smell things. Does anyone else have the inclination to smell everything there? Anyways, when we went in this lady immediately approached us and put some country girl lotion on our hands. It smelled good-- for a total of 5 minutes. Then we couldn't get rid of the smell. Gross.

I got another research position! It's for a position in Western Nutrition's research center which is funded by FDA. It's a pretty big deal. Anything funded by FDA is a big deal. There was only one position in the lab, so I'm really lucky. They actually liked me?!?! What??!-- haha, I'm super excited. I wonder when I can start.

I was going to go swimming today, but when I walked over to the pool to scope out weather conditions I saw that it was GREEN. What on Earth? Why was the pool green? You guys might assume that it was algae, but it wasn't. Although algal blooms do happen mid-spring, I can assure you there was no algae. It was more of a lime-green. Like... Kool-aid. Oh, yeahhh. I wonder what happened... I bet kids couldn't hold their urine. After all, light blue + yellow = light green. There was caution tape around the pool. I wonder if someone was murdered. That would be exciting.

I suppose I'll do this questionnaire. I don't usually respond to these things, but whatever. I happen to be procrastinating.

1. What time of the day is your dream date? The heck kind of question is this... I don't know, it doesn't matter.

2. What was your worst nightmare? I was running away from someone and managed to climb onto a roof, but then they caught up to me and pulled me down. Then they dragged me somewhere and started beating me up--and that's when I woke up.

3. Do you remember laughing so hard you cried? ALL the time. I have leaky tear ducts. My friends make me laugh.

4. What is the name of your favorite pet? I don't have a favorite. I LOVE all of Eliza's dogs to death.

5. If you were to direct a movie about yourself, who would play you? OH MY GOSH. Best question ever. Sandra Oh. Or Lucy Liu. Because they're Asian and amazing! (too bad I can't be amazing)

6. If you could change anything about yourself what would it be? I would... not be so obese. I would want a faster metabolism. Personality-wise I wish I could stop being so pessimistic, cynical, and masochistic.

7. Something your best friend does that drives you crazy: Uhh which one? Well, one of them bites her nails until they bleed and peels off scabs and skin. -_- Another one drags her feet and chews gum loudly. Another one never calls me. But I mean, essentially it doesn't matter.

8. If you're mad at someone how do you approach them with the problem? ...I don't. Unless it's driving me insane, then I'll write an 'angry' note, which is merely a very well written message that subtly condescends that individual.

9. Would you ever date your best friend? Hmm. Sure, why not. Though he probably doesn't like me.

10. Have you ever done anything illegal with your friends? Yeah. Tried to take pictures at various parks after 8:00pm. Trespassed on school property. Stupid things like that.

Gag choke

Okay... so I guess she's not mad at me. I was just thinking too much, as usual. STOP thinking Joanna. Geez.

This morning was really weird. I got up later than I usually do. Of course that's not saying much since I generally wake up around 5:00am regardless of when I went to sleep. Anyways, I ended up dragging myself out of bed at around 6 or so and to my astonishment "I" was awake as well, which is rare because that girl sleeps a lot. We had a pleasant conversation in the kitchen, blah blah. I was hungry so I went back to the kitchen to get a bowl of cereal although I knew it was dangerous already. I heard a door open and footsteps approach the kitchen. I knew I was doomed. SHE came out. At the time I happened to be facing the cabinet and I was just hoping that she wouldn't talk to me. She must be stupid or something. She probably thought that I didn't hear her because you know what she did? She turned around and walked straight back into the room. Obviously, she tramples around like an elephant, so it's impossible NOT to hear her.

By the way, she ripped down my message. I was going to leave it up for a week (does she have the right to take down my message?). I'm contemplating whether or not I should stick another copy on the fridge. I just feel that I need to get my point across. But then, I guess you can't really blame her... it's pretty embarrassing to have a message addressed to you stuck on the fridge. Of course, her being who she is she probably didn't even notice. In fact, she's probably going to bring it home to her family to tell them how much of a beezy I am. Well... I don't mind. Hey, that was a well written message okay? I think I have the right to be proud of myself... haha;;

I can't believe I sat next to the most annoying person this morning in my bio class. It was ridiculous. All of the things I hate combined into one. This FAT 白人 was wearing short shorts and had her FAT legs on the chair in front of her. Then in the middle of the lecture she took off her shoes and was barefoot. During this time she was coughing up phlegm and blowing her nose into the same tissue. I thought I was going to contract some disease, so at some point in the lecture I started breathing into my sweatshirt. That's when she pulled out a big sandwich and started eating it while shaking her legs and tapping her pen against the desk. Most annoying person ever. Go figure. It WOULD be a 白人.

For free

Current location: Starbucks. Current activity: Bis101. Current drink: H2O. I didn't order anything... I feel kind of bad, but I'm sure I'm not the only person that's here for free light and wi-fi. :)

I cut my palm while opening a water bottle. Yes, this is possible. Especially if you're me. It hurts mama, it hurts. :( I'm sure in this case the proper response would be 自作自受. Which translates into 'you reap what you sow'-- at least I think that's what American people say. That's what I get for being an idiot.

Hm. I'm not sure why, but I think M is avoiding me. The timing is just too perfect to be coincidental. I wonder if I did something. I would say something, but she probably doesn't care and just wants to be left alone. I'll probably just annoy her if I say anything. Maybe I need to stop over-thinking. I don't know. Lately, I've been having a beezy complex. This is mostly because I have to convince myself that I don't care about anything except for grades and my future or else everything at the apartment feels like it's too much to handle. Oh, by the way, she broke the air conditioning again. Though it would be a lie if I said that I'm not happy about this. Broken air conditioning means all of us not freezing at night. Hooray!

My rich aunt is in Hawaii AGAIN. She keeps going randomly and then she bombards me with pictures. I wish she would realize that the pictures do not make me happy. In fact, every time she sends me pictures from her adventures I get depressed because I too, wish I was in Hawaii, but instead I'm here... in Antarctica. Suffering. How is anyone supposed to focus when you get pictures like this and this sent to you?! I'm jealous and bitter. Oh, and those weren't the exact images (similar, but not the same) because my phone is too ghetto to upload pictures.

This girl keeps spontaneously turning her head over really quickly and looking at me. Then after five seconds or so she turns her head away. This has been going on for about two hours now. I feel rather disturbed... Why am I always surrounded by creepers? But I guess you know what they say... like attracts like right? -_- At times like these I wish I had a privacy screen on my computer.

I chewed a pack of gum within 4 hours. My jaw is about to fall off.

Philosopher's stone

People's lives are like sine and cosine graphs. They're completely different and they go along at their own pace. Each individual heads in their own direction. People go about living their own lives unaware of others. But, at some point their lives intersect and for those brief moments people spend time together and their lines, hence lives, are one. However, the lines must come apart and people shall separate as well, once again returning to their own lives unaware of the other. Eventually, the lines come together again... that is if you remain friends. I wonder what people do when the lines separate.

Once again this is just me thinking too much... which I probably shouldn't do.

If you suck at something you're not going to like it anymore. Think about it. It's true.

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with

Well... I don't do ****** up things to begin with... but I've been on some crazy adventures with this girl :) She's going to kill me if she finds out I put this up.

It's official

My phone has died today. Officially. I can't call anyone anymore. Every time I press send it just closes. At least I can still text. I think people text too much. I feel like I haven't heard anyone's voice in an extremely long time. The white iPhone is out tomorrow. Is this a sign? I think at this point I'm just going to get it. It's not possible to survive in this generation without a phone.

I spent the whole morning doing lab writeup and I still can't figure out what structure it is. This is so troublesome, but really how can they expect us to figure out a whole molecule without giving us H'NMR or C13? They only gave us IR, which only tells you bonds. So stupid.

Drama time. Well, after I wrote the letter and stuck it up on the fridge I did not receive any response and she didn't write down her mom's phone number. What a shame. I really wanted to talk to her mom. Go to the source of the problem you know? Actually, I was going to have J call and pretend to be my dad or something. 白人 are just stupid.

Sandia

I feel like M is mad at me even though I know she isn't. We haven't really spoken in a while. Partly because I was gone for a week. I'm just overly sensitive to things like this. I over-think everything and they end up driving me insane. I wonder if it's natural to think 'everyone hates me' on a regular basis. Maybe it's a manifestation of the hatred I feel towards myself.

Day 9 - a picture of the person that has gotten you through the most

Picture unavailable. How do you post a picture of God? Those of you that know me know that I'm not super crazy religious and that I don't try to push my religion onto others, but I've got to say that I feel like he's always been there for me even when I'm rotten and don't deserve anything... especially that one time on the freeway, but I'm not ready to talk about that yet. When I am, you guys will be the first to know.

Look at my watermelon! It's the smallest watermelon I've ever seen :) I can't wait to eat the whole thing tomorrow. Don't hate.

And so

Okay, I'm finally back-- and I am in a good mood. Certain people just have the ability to make you laugh, you know? Anyways, let me start at the beginning before I end up telling the whole story backwards (I tend to do that sometimes).

A certain someone has been refusing to pay the rent at the time I specified. Guess who. It should be no surprise that it is the same someone that keeps breaking everything. After I asked I to tell her to pay me (because it was already late by 4 days), she refused and told me that her mother didn't like the idea of money sitting someone else's bank account for a long time. Like mother like daughter I suppose. Lacking in common sense, selfish, and stupid pretty much sum it up. Let me ask you guys this: is it reasonable for them to expect that I have time to go to the bank in the middle of the week when I already have enough going on in my life without them causing more adversity? No. Also, if you designate someone to pay the rent you should probably pay them, don't you think? I didn't want to be the one to have to deal with this to begin with, but unfortunately it ended up this way.

The above all happened during my Physics D/L and it made me r

eally angry. I should probably apologize to I for venting so much through text... -_- but the anger has to get released somehow right? Thanks for putting up with me. I was so mad that I was shaking. I wasn't going to go back to the apartment, but I realized that something had to be done. I zoomed back and went straight to the office. We discussed the implications of the lease and they told me that it was equally binding meaning that if one of us were to not pay then it would be written down on our records and we would have difficulties finding a place to stay in the future. Great. Then after I explained the situation they felt sorry for me and said that it would be okay for us to pay with individual checks. With that situation dealt with, I proceeded to write out a message to so that I could stick it on the fridge. Refer to the picture below.

Anyways, after I wrote out the message I felt better (I had to write two drafts because I couldn't stop myself from swearing in the first one). Then it was time to go... to watch Rio with V. :) I almost forgot how funny this fool is. I miss the good old 7:30am bio lab days that we suffered through together. The movie was super cute and funny at random parts. I totally wasn't expecting it, but I found that after the movie I was in a really good mood. Funny how only 2 hours before I was about ready to buy a bazooka. This is a sign. Maybe I need to make more happy friends. Easier said than done right?

Everyone is just sick of this. Thank goodness there are only four and a half weeks left.

Huff

I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW. I'll tell you guys all about it after I come back tonight. Hopefully something good can cancel out this RIDICULOUS mess.

Pain

Ouchhhh. I think I threw out my back three days ago carrying water into my house. Every time I move the left side of my back hurts like heck. This is ridiculous. The moment I turn twenty, I start showing signs of aging. I'm probably going to die soon.

I really need to pee, but no one around here looks trustworthy enough to watch my laptop and iPod. I guess I'll just hold it in...

If anyone is an NMR (nuclear magnetic resonance) or IR (infrared spectroscopy) pro, please help me in determining what my compound is. I'm stuck. I don't know whether it's a primary or tertiary alcohol. Ugh. This is so dumb... and when I asked my TA for help he told me that I should be able to figure it out based on the graphs and the experiments. He needs to stop smoking and be a more useful TA (he always smells like burning grass... gross).

--edit. You know, I keep saying this over and over again, but essentially the only people that are going to genuinely care about you are people related to you because everyone is too busy thinking that they're the most important while dealing with their own lives to take time to care about what you're doing. If ever there is the rare occurrence that they really do care either 1. you're delusional or 2. you found a really good friend. Neither of which I can attest to except maybe the first one because sleep deprivation leads to delusional Joanna. I miss my 고등학교 친구's. Because I know that they care. For sure. Ahh, so depressing... I want to go home and I just got back.

Dead or dying

I'm back... unfortunately. Funny thing is the moment I get back, someone rings the door bell. Guess who it is? It's the repair man. Why you ask? Is it because another strawberry was stuffed down the sink? No (although that's bound to happen again sometime soon). The air conditioning broke. I'm going to assume it was probably her. You know, the only one that keeps turning it on when it's not necessary. Seeing as how she has broken just about everything in our apartment already I'm really not surprised. Ah, whatever. Idiot.

Throwback time. I haven't listened to these songs in the longest time and I happened to have my ipod on shuffle for the past few days which made me realize how many awesome songs I've neglected for the past few years.

Day 8 - A picture that makes you laugh

There are way too many. But those were some of my favorites. Guaranteed to make you smile at least.

Oh barf

Want to see a picture of cat barf that hasn't been cleaned in 2+ weeks?

You didn't have a choice.

Reality

I suppose I'm going to have to go back later today. I was planning on leaving between 10-12 because that's when there is the least amount of traffic. We'll see how that goes seeing as how I'm still awake at the moment. Back to reality. Sigh. Is it bad that I wish she would just fall down a ditch and never come back? Hey. You were thinking it~~ Oh em gee, but you said it!! Just kidding. White chicks moment right there.

GUESS what E made me for my... day? Look at this, isn't it cute? Ahh, I'm so happy. It's so cute. ^__^

Yeah. I have talented friends. Be jealous.

AND I got to see her dogs (I am the godmother by the way...), so I am content and very happy. What I'm not happy about is this...

The freak man. This is how much I payed for room service. I suck. I need to stop spending money. Also, I just got my car fixed and that was another 700. If you sum up my spending for April you'll realize that I've spent nearly 2000. This is unacceptable. What am I doing with my life?? Clearly, not anything useful.

Se7en

Day 7 - A picture of your most treasured item.

This, also, should not be surprising. If I lost this it would probably mean the end of my life as we know it. I keep more information on this than my phone. But, that also shouldn't be surprising since my phone is a piece of trash.

Okay

Alright so wow. I have been out the whole day, basically.

I took my cousins to Gilroy outlets and I spent 70 dollars on Banana. Go figure right? It's my extended birthday gift... at least that's what I'm going to call it. Anyways while we were there we encountered a very attractive person. Yumm, back fat.

I know some of you may question the morality/logistics of taking a picture of someone without their consent, but in this case I can justify myself by saying 1. this person wore this shirt to the mall for a purpose: so that people will think she's attractive 2. because she believes other people to find her attractive she must believe that she, herself is attractive therefore 3. it's okay to take pictures because she would probably take it as a compliment.

Also, I would just like to say that this wonderful shirt reminds me of the clothes that my ex-roommate used to sleep in. Some yoga shirt with holes in the back. I'm not sure why... I mean... I wear t-shirts to sleep. Maybe that's not naked enough. Should I try this out? Would you guys appreciate that?

...I think YES. ;)

Quick

Really fast, I just thought I should say that cousins are exhausting. I'm exhausted. I apologize for not updating in a few days. Blah.

I have a lot to tell you guys, so I'll update for real within the next few hours or so.

Crumble

I don't know what was wrong with me this morning. It must have been sleep deprivation. I went to take my bio midterm and everything kept on falling. First my pencil fell and then my eraser fell. Then my sunglasses and backpack fell on the girl that was sitting towards my right, and then my keys fell. I think that girl got irritated because she kept sighing loudly and she seemed very stressed out. The fact that she was stressed out made me want to laugh. I hope that doesn't make me a bad person.

Day 6 - a person you would love to trade places with for a day

Don't hate. I have good reasoning behind this. I want to be able to coin the phrase "that's hot." No, I'm kidding. But what I want to do is be able to live a day of luxury without being restricted by money. It would be fun. I can't believe she gets to live that kind of life every single day. I'm so sad. I'm sure she doesn't deserve it. You know, what people don't know about her is the fact that she actually does a lot of charity work. It's probably because it's more fun to broadcast her as a party girl.

I. Am. Going. To. Fail. Freak. My. Life.

Another day

Thanks to the people that remembered. It's better to not tell anyone. But my theory about everyone here is that no one knows and no one cares, which is essentially fine with me (oh, except this one girl, but it's on the same day so it's embarrassing if she doesn't remember). I mean, if they did know then I don't think they would care anyways. Ah, well. It's all good. It's better this way.

I have been turning the heater on. I do what I want in this palace of mine. Too bad there are only a few more days of rainbows and unicorns. Life is good (except for the fact that I'm going to fail ochem). It's so nice and warm and toasty. Also, I've been able to sleep recently (relatively). You guys know how I have sleeping problems right? Funny thing is I'm able to sleep in a hotel better than I am at the apartment. Pretty sad if you ask me. I actually have to set my alarm or I'll keep sleeping. The last time I set my alarm back at the apartment was... I don't even know. A long time ago. Stupid M called me and woke me up yesterday at 4:18 when I went to sleep at 3:30.

I cannot wait until this weekend. Oh man, oh man. It's going to be so fun fun fun fun fun~

This little butt hole is going to get me cookies when I go back this weekend. This is why I keep that cousin of mine around. Haha how cute. I had to mirror the picture so you guys could actually read it without standing on your heads or whatever. And also, this was RIGHT after I charged my phone. Wonderful.

Jump for joy

I've been living the good life. Really, one could get used to this. I don't know why I didn't choose to live by myself to begin with. Life is so much simpler, beautiful, and happy. LOVE!

Last night I wanted to see if I could find that one Korean BBQ place that everyone is always talking about. I ended up getting lost, but it was the most amazing thing ever. The night is so pretty. I ended up at some high class restaurant and then when I was driving back I passed by the Korean BBQ place. Stupid GPS. What a useless thing. Although, it might be because I haven't updated it and it has been trying to get me to update it since last year. Oh well... I haven't died yet, so it's all good.

Why are there so many bugs lately... I only say this because they have all been deploying on kamikaze missions versus my windshield. I'm not too sure how they benefit by launching themselves into my car, but my washer fluid is out AGAIN and I just refilled it two weeks ago.

Day 5 - A picture of your favorite memory

Well I don't know if this is my favorite memory or not, but I miss us. I miss us doing random things like this. Sky high, karaoke, etc. I really miss you guys (H&E not pictured) and it's always around this time that I get really sad that you guys aren't here to make the coming day less depressing.

I really feel like I'm going to fail ochem. Someone help me.

Banana peel

I nearly fell down the stairs today, but some guy caught me... sort of. I know, it sounds like the cinderella story right? I make it sound good, but in reality it was more like this...

J: "Ahhhh!" stumbles backwards

guy: "Woah, crap... oof" uses book to jab me in the back and push me upwards

J: "Oh my gosh I'm so sorry, thanks..."

guy: "Yeah..." walks away

You guys are going to hate me for this because it's so addicting. You're going to stare at it for over 5 minutes. Oh... turn your volume down if you haven't already.

Day 4 - A picture of your night. Yeah, I didn't really understand this one, but I guess this is night. You know just doing the usual, standing on zebra backs and whatnot. No big deal. Really though, my nights here consists of A/C fights, going to the gym, and studying, so there's really nothing exciting there.

Today I realized that Chipotle is right across the street. Hooray! This is my first time eating dinner since the quarter started. Special indeed.

I feel like I'm going to fail ochem on Friday. Does anyone else feel this way? So many mechanisms... @_@

Balluhh

Day 3 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show. This shouldn't be surprising at all. Sandra Oh is so so so so so cool. Grey's Anatomy is the best show ever.

Arrived at the hotel: 1:00pm. The receptionist behind the front desk was super nice. She said that there weren't many people staying around this time, so she could check with her boss to see if I could get upgraded to a better room. I am currently in the VIP KING SUITE. Ohh snap. I feel like such a high roller. This place has a whole kitchen. Woot woot. Party over here! And also, who knew there were over 70 HBO channels geez. I'm not too sure if this is good since it's midterms week. I'm kind of looking forward to the complementary breakfast tomorrow, but for now I think I should probably go study.

Living the good life~ ah ahh <3

Sparta!

Oh man, so much stuff went down last night it's ridiculous.

So I got back to the apartment around 12:00am to avoid unwanted... "things" and I went to shower, so that I could sleep earlier. I walk into the bathroom realizing that it smelled like crap, but ignored the smell and continued to open the shower curtain-- to find a giant mound of crap (literally) sitting at the base of our bathtub. Okay... what the hell, I thought to myself. Being drunk is NO excuse for crapping in the bathtub. I am NOT cleaning that up. I knock on I's door and tell say... "um.. yeah dude there's crap in our bathtub..." she goes to look and she says that she hasn't been here all day. Well if I haven't been at the apartment for the whole day and she hasn't been at the apartment the whole day who was the culprit? Side note: I don't think you guys understand how BAD this crap smelled.. it smelled like moldy cheese diarrhea or something. I would have taken a picture, but I was too busy suffocating. Anyways, we had M come look at the crap and we determined that it was that damn cat (what is that saying? where owners and pets are alike...). So, I woke her up and told her to clean the crap (I didn't wake her up, "I" woke her up" like hell I'm talking to her). Well, the cat crap fiasco was the most excitement since.. yeah haha.

Despite the cat crap, I was in an extremely good mood yesterday. I was singing and dancing everywhere getting ready to get the heck out of there you know? So, last night I thought I would raise hell. For once in my life I decided to be the rebel. Once the A/C went on I went out to turn it off after about 5 minutes. Why? Because it was damn cold. I just wish we could get some respect around here you know? When we turn on the heater in Winter she immediately turns it off and we leave it off for an extremely long time-- until it gets cold again. The three of us feel the same way about the thermostat, so it's not just me being a baby. I'm glad to say that I had a partner in crime last night. I turned it off about 3-4 times and "I" turned it off about 3-4 times as well. It's Sparta, baby. But, like I said it's because I was feeling like a rebel. I figured, hey I'm not even going to be there for the next... who knows how long, so I might as well :)

Oh! By the way, I have officially been de-friended on Facebook. I kept checking because I knew that she would do that. I just laughed because I feel like all 白人 are like that. Because that's exactly what my sex addict room mate did last year.

Why

Why is the sky blue?

Why can't chickens fly?

Why is the ocean salty?

Why can't the guy sitting directly across from me stop farting? Oh my freaking gosh I'm going to die here. Someone save me.

Just me being a nerd as usual.

Z: Are solutions feminine?

J: Yeah... they should be

Z: Oh, yeah. They are.

J: because problems are males

J: HA.

--no one laughs-- = story of my life

London bridges

Calvin Bridges kind of looked like Brad Pitt... sorta. Calvin Bridges is the guy that examined color segregation in drosophila. He was essentially the Mendel of flies. He's right in the middle. Not that great of a picture, but oh well. That's a pretty epic photo though Alfred Sturtevurt AND T.H. Morgan are both there. Psh, they would be. Those fly people.

WHY do people talk on the phone in the THIRD floor of the library a.k.a. the "quiet" part of the library where people actually need to get some work done? Go downstairs you buffoon. Gosh I want to throw rotten avocados at her. So stupid.

DAY 2 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest to the longest

Excuse the hideous picture of me; do you see the resemblance? Anyway, of course it has to be my grannymama. She raised me. She was so proud, I was such a smart kiddo, I wonder what happened to me. Somehow thanks to her, I managed to master two languages by the time I was 2. I've forgotten a large portion of my Taiwanese because no one ever speaks it here. I should be ashamed. Tsk, tsk. My grandma's the most supportive person on the face of the Earth. Every time I call her she just tells me to be happy. My grandma beats your grandma ANYDAY. :)

Mr. happy

Revisiting a rocket to the moon. I love this song, so go listen to it. It makes me happy. It's definitely a spring/summer song when you're sitting in a convertible top-down with your boyfriend driving to the beach. Maybe I have an overactive imagination. :) He's not that good looking, but it doesn't matter because I love all of his songs. The whole "On Your Side" cd is amazing.

Smile. :) :) :) Oh and also... teehee. ^___^

Sleep deprived... but I'm in a good mood. As long as that thing isn't here everything is rainbows and unicorns. :)

Photo challenge

You know what I want to do? I want to do the photo challenge. Except I don't want to do it on Facebook, so I'll do it here instead. Of course merely doing that is boring, so I'll do it and still update as usual (this is going to be a 30 day thing by the way... let's see if I can keep it up).

I can't sleep. I've slept 2 hours in the past three days, but I still couldn't sleep last night. Well, "last night" because it's 5am right now. I don't feel well. Dizzy, dizzy.

I bought a salad at Safeway yesterday and they have mozzarella balls in them. They're literally mozzarella BALLS. I wonder how this is going to taste. I hope I don't hate it because I had to buy two. They're on sale if you buy two or more (don't hate; you know you guys can't pass up a deal like this either).

Someone is snoring very loudly.

Day 1 - a picture of yourself with ten facts (oh dear... for real? you guys have to look at my face on the first day... my apologies... hopefully I can keep pictures of myself to a minimum)

Yeah... I didn't really want to take another one right now, so you guys are just going to have to make do with this one. It's the only one on my computer that looks relatively normal (though I don't know why I'm so fat here... hm I should be used to this, aren't I always?). Now what... oh yeah, 10 facts.

1. My elbows and knees crack all the time like an old lady (especially when I bend down or do push-ups).

2. I spent 6 dollars on one load of laundry because I had too much faith in a broken dryer.

3. I lint roll my carpet because I have to physically see the crap getting thrown away or I feel uneasy.

4. I'm constantly putting eyedrops in my eyes (people probably think I'm high).

5. I wrote a novel (thriller) in high school, but I would never consider publishing it.

6. I like white toothpaste because it feels "cleaner" than colored ones.

7. My Physics TA has man boobs (does this count as a fact about me?) hmm okay, how about... I tend to fall for skinny, nice guys that are smart and have a corny sense of humor (guys that have too much muscle scare me and I like lame jokes especially if they're academically related because I happen to be a nerd puahha).

8. I dance around in my bra A LOT. Especially if it's in the morning while I'm blasting music and trying to decide what to wear.

9. Snow White made me cry at Disneyland when I was four.

10. I drink about 6 liters of water a day. Yeah...

Hopefully those weren't too boring... I hate it when people tell you facts like "I have a dog" "I go to blah school" "My favorite color is blah" How uninteresting.

My favorite color is dark purple. ;) and I really want this fedora from Banana.

Common sense

This morning I fell up the stairs on my way to my car because I was rushing. I thought that it would be back by 10:30am, but it didn't come back, so I got a bruise on my knee for no reason. Not to mention a girl saw me and laughed. Sigh. I'm so prone to accidents here

Look at this picture and tell me what's wrong with it.

If you guessed "a whole strawberry is in the sink..." then you have stated the correct answer. Look at that strawberry. It's just sitting there. Chilling next to the bread/pasta that she has also thrown down there (not to mention she ripped off all of the rubber...). I just don't understand how hard it is to throw a strawberry into the trashcan. Hey idiot, you already broken our sink once and you're really set on doing it again. But then again, look at their trashcan...

The opening must be too small right? I mean you can't possibly fit the strawberry in there. Yup. Maybe that's why it's just sitting in the sink... -_- So ridiculous-- words cannot describe.

Tomorrow is picnic day. That means DRUNKARDS. They're pretty fun to watch. I don't understand how people can be partying when midterms are next week.

Useless

So I was shifting through the news as I usually do when I'm taking a break and I came across this article. I'll summarize it. This girl in Tennessee got dragged into the woods by some mysterious abductor. That's not the problem (okay, well it is a problem, but it's not THE problem). The problem here is the fact that "Both Bobo's mother and 25-year-old brother watched the woman being abducted and called 911." Seriously? Are you kidding me here? Your sister and your daughter is getting dragged off by some dude and all you can do is watch and call 911? Are you people retarded? I would hope that if I had a brother, he would attack the abductor on my behalf. And hello, mother. Get out your kitchen knives and frying pans, come on man.

The white iPhone is coming out at the end of April. Hmm. Nah, then you might as well wait another 3-5 months for the iPhone 5 right? Though I've got to say the white iPhone is looking sexy.

What day is it? -_- This week has been a blur. I feel like a homeless.

Zzz

I'm so exhausted. I got out of lab early, but I'm about to collapse. Well, it should be no surprise that I'm at the library right now. I really wish I could just go home and sleep, but I can't because I would rather not put myself through pain and suffering... though I wish I would have brought some Tylenol out with me because my headache is killing me. Unfortunately I only slept for an hour and a half yesterday. I don't know what the freak is going on. I slept at 3:00 and then out of nowhere at around 4:30 I woke up scared. I must have heard something loud that shocked me or whatever. Have you guys ever woken up scared? It's really hard to fall asleep again after that. Kind of like this... ;)

They finished fixing the sink and they came to pick up the giant fan that they used to dry the cabinet today. The repair guy likes to talk to me about the weather for some reason. He's so strange. I was trying to close the door to get him to leave, but he just kept talking and talking. Just like this guy sitting in front of me in the library. He keeps talking and talking on his phone. "Ching chong, ling long, ting tong." -_-;

I won my first game of words with friends! I just started playing today. It's pretty addicting. If anyone wants to play with me my id or whatever is joannalo. Very original right? I'm so creative.

My brain... and my stomach is being loud how embarrassing.

Gg. idiot

Everybody, let's clap together shall we? Clap, clap, clap. Good job. Really, this takes the cake. You break the sink by shoving food down the drain and it is clogged, so what do you do? Continue to shove more food down the drain. Oh no! You see that the food has remained in the sink and the water level continues to rise? What do you do? You continue to use the sink as if there is nothing wrong with it. You see that the sink remains clogged after two days. What do you do? You TURN ON THE DISHWASHER AND FLOOD OUR HOUSE. Good freaking job. Clap, clap, clap. I don't think I've ever met another person with so little common sense. Her brain must be the size of a pea (comparing her brain to a pea would be generous in this case). Really, just-- congratulations on being the stupidest person I've ever met in my life. I was going to take a picture of the sink to show you guys, but every time I look at that thing I want to puke. Gross. I feel like everything looks like this.

Minus the sink fiasco, today was an alright day I suppose. I mean you can't really get too excited when you're just running away from your problems all your life right? I went to Starbucks earlier and I'm currently at the library being extremely productive as you can tell. A guy just sat next to me... out of all of the seats that are empty here he chose the one RIGHT next to me. Sigh... should I move? I'm not comfortable.

I've been chewing a piece of gum for over two hours, but I have no where to spit it out...

You're so dumb

Last night almost turned into another horror story. I have S and I to thank for keeping my sanity. Special thanks to I for letting me borrow her heater or else I would have probably driven back to SJ in a storm of anger... again.

Anyways, I ended up not being able to sleep because I was too angry. I wish I had the ability to make her this angry as well, but I don't because she doesn't care about anything except herself. By the way, the sink is broken. Probably because she tried to stuff a bowl of pasta down there. Good job. When you see that a sink is clogged what do you do? You avoid it. You don't use it because you know it'll overflow. The idiot decides that it should be fine so she dumps in her cereal. Good. Freaking. Job. Dumb nut. So great. Now we have still water with tomato sauce and rotten cereal in it. How delicious. We're probably going to house mosquitos sooner or later. This is wonderful. Part 2. When you break something, you fix it. Why? Well, because you're the one that broke it. Is this not common sense? Apparently not. I doubt she's going to do anything about it because she's selfish.

Also, I highly suspect that she came into my room while I wasn't here because she was trying to find the fuse box (she short circuited the lights in her room GG fool). You know, now that I think about it, she keeps breaking things. I won't even mention both of the windows... Well, the point of all this was to say that I feel violated. This is an invasion of privacy. I am extremely unhappy.

OH! And guess what? Her idiot of a cat threw up near my router last Thursday and she still won't clean it up. That's just wonderful. Wonderful and splendid. We're probably incubating more than fifty different types of diseases in this house. 4 MORE DAYS. I'm so excited for next week! It's strange that I say that because midterms are next week. It's just the fact that I get to get the heck away from this place. Just thinking about it makes me happy. :)

Complaint

IT'S FREAKING COLD YOU SON OF A-- BLEEEEEEEEEEEEP.

It's unfortunate because if we didn't live with each other we would be friends (or non enemies at the very least).

FORK.

ONE MORE WEEK (if I can survive that long. FORK.).

UGH. BAH. SORRY for the excessive links... but AUUGGGHhhh!!!!! I'm angrier than Mr. Angry. BAHHHH. I have to rant SOMEwhere or else I might end up accidentally murdering someone... -_-;;

星bucks

Someone released a very loud and embarrassing "passing of the gas" in the quietest section of the library. Therefore, I have migrated to Starbucks because they have wi-fi. However, they are neglecting to turn on the lights so I am here squinting at my ochem book and attempting to use my laptop to illuminate my "desk". It is not working. This place is actually not as quiet as you would expect a cafe to be, but at the same time I don't think you could call Starbucks a cafe. Not a real one at least. What once was (Pike Place, NY) has now turned into a commercial convenience chain store. Depressing? Yeah, kind of, but that doesn't stop me from coming and drinking my disgusting coffee for some reason. Every time I come I get the same thing. Either an iced black coffee or a hot black coffee. The guy probably thinks I'm boring. I really can't see anymore should I ask them to turn on the lights? Why am I so useless. -_- But... everyone is just sitting here in the dark like they don't mind... sigh...

My phone has officially died. Okay let's break this down. If I get the iPhone 4 and the iPhone 5 comes out in 6 months I will be devastated. But then again, a contract only lasts 2 years and 6 months is already 1/4 of the time already. If I get the HTC Thunderbolt and the iPhone 5 comes out with a duo core processor AND runs on 4GLTE I will be doubly devastated. If I just use my Droid2 (long story, maybe for some other day) then it'll continue to lag on the 3G network, and it's already "outdated" because it's been out for nearly two years (of course the ghetto brick I have now is outdated by 4 years so... yeah). Maybe I'll just wait until WWDC in June and if it doesn't come out then I'll get whatever I like at the time (Droid Bionic looks pretty good).

Geez. Three updates in a day. What am I doing with my life?

Ahh germs!

I'm at the library right now and there's that one coughing girl. You know what I'm talking about... that ONE coughing girl. You can tell that she's been sick for a while because it's a lingering cough that contains phlegm instead of the dry cough. One can only wonder if her germs will wander over to this little cubicle...

And in honor of the coughing girl... this and this.

Today is my cousin's birthday. Officially a teenager... dear God.

Condiments

Today I ate the most disgusting salad on the face of the earth. Actually, it could have been worse. There could have been blue cheese in it, but there wasn't. Anyways, this salad was full of condiments. At least, it's what I consider as condiments, which I tend to despise. Green onion, cilantro, garlic... by the time I took out all of the things I didn't like I was left with cabbage and red cabbage. So much for my "asian" salad (I love how people throw cabbage in a dish and call it Asian or put on two pineapples and call it Hawaiian... ridiculous). Oh, and the dressing smelled like a dirty foot, so I didn't use it. Well, I never use dressing anyways, so I guess that didn't make much of a difference.

Condiments are not okay. Some people like eating things raw like that. Green onion, cilantro, garlic. Gross. The only time green onion is okay is when it's in a 蔥油餅, but even then it's not by itself, so it tastes fine. Although some of the restaurants that make it put in too much green onion and it ends up tasting despicable. Cilantro is only okay when it's in Chipotle cilantro rice. At least, that's the only time I'll eat it. And garlic? Garlic is never okay. Never. Anytime you eat garlic you're doomed-- well, your breath is doomed. Garlic bread doesn't count because no one uses real garlic to make it. Instead, they use garlic powder and a giant bucket of butter. Yum, heart attack in bread form.

Have I ever mentioned how much I love Chemistry? Haha, this is so funny. I'm so lame. And speaking of being lame... I don't know what I was thinking the other day because at around 4am I read an article about a genetic mutation that makes people sleep less (hi guys, I think I have a mutation) and out of nowhere I sent it to my genetics teacher. After I sent it I sat there feeling sorry for myself. Why did I send it? Why?! I now feel like an idiot. Sigh. It must have been a combination of delirium and headache-ness. I feel ridiculous.. like those.. what do they call those? Drunken texts? Yeah, that. I guess I'll start a new trend. Delusional emails. The lesson of the day: never trust my rationale at 4:00am. Frick.

Which leads me to... FRICK! doom is going to arrive at 3pm. That means that I need to escape before 3pm. DOOM... I need somewhere to stay in situations like these. Too bad I have no friends or else I could just stay at their houses. It's all good I'll go chill with my hobos in front of Safeway (aka... go study at the library... I'm planning on bringing my umbrella, by the way).

Backside attack

Nerdiest title on Earth, but man oh man do I have a lot to tell you guys. Let's start with yesterday and then we'll progress from there.

Nothing eventful happened yesterday until around 10:45pm when I was walking back to the parking lot from the library. As all of you know, I hate walking in the dark alone so I'll usually call or text someone. Unfortunately for me, my phone was running out of battery, so I thought I should conserve it in case something really happened. I grabbed my umbrella in one hand and I was attempting to put in away as I continued walking. Out of nowhere a guy jumps out from behind a tree and launches himself right in front of me. I scream and react without thinking, hitting the guy with my umbrella. I hear "What the f-?!?!" as the guy runs onto the street and away from me. I compose myself.

"Oh... sorry.. heh.. you scared me"

...and the guy continued walking. How embarrassing. I attacked a stranger with my puny umbrella. I guess he had no intention of scaring me, but he happened to pop out of nowhere while I wasn't paying attention. Hey man, can you blame me? How would you guys have reacted under those circumstances?? It's only natural...

Anyway, that was probably the eventful part of yesterday. Now onto today. My genetics teacher provided us with a really funny example of recessive lethal genes (and also, who knew there was so much more to genetics than the Punnett square? I don't recall anyone ever teaching me more than that). So, apparently there is a gene in chickens that make their feet short (dwarfing). This gene is called the creeper gene... and this is what went down.

Teacher: "What would happen to the F2 generation if two creepers mated and had children? --wait I mean, not two creepers, but two creeper chicken-- I mean, two chicken that are creepers-- I mean... -_- you guys know what I mean"

The whole class was laughing, but you had to be there to understand. Genetics jokes... it's gotten to this point. I am such a dork.

TO ALL THE GUYS OUT THERE... is this true???

"...no matter how much I liked a girl, no matter how much I wanted her and just her exclusively, I’d never tell her that purely for fear of looking weak and pathetic. If we were ever to move beyond the vague, undeclared status that characterizes every relationship in its early phase, well, that would be up to her. Most guys think this way."

For real? You know we're the ones waiting for YOU to make the move. Then if everyone is just waiting for one another no one is ever going to get anywhere and everyone is going to be "just friends" for life. -_-; Here's the full article if you want to read it... and if you're a guy you should. NO BIG GESTURES. Geez, so uncomfortable. Well, not until it's a marriage proposal and you've been dating for a long time. Women don't like to be caught off guard. Remember that and you shall go far, young grasshopper.

Hit that- literally

The moment I step back into this godforsaken place I start getting mad again. I probably ranted off 10-12 swear words all within the span of 5 minutes. Oops. My bad. The last time I've ever sworn so much was back in 6th grade when I was a hoodlum. I can't help it though. I feel like starting a fight right now. Come on, don't tell me you don't get that sometimes... because I know sometimes people just want to yell at something or punch something. Everyone has violent tendencies. Anyways, I'm saying if she were to walk out and encounter me at this very moment I would probably unleash 8 months of disgruntled anger on her and it would not be pretty. I just need to survive one more week. This. Is. Sparta.

and THIS is the coolest video I've seen in a while.

PHew. Ranting has its uses. I feel better. ONE MORE WEEK. ONE WEEK. I can do this. 加油！ Gambare! 행운! YAH.

That's that

I drove back to San Jose last night on a whim because I got so irritated. 55 degrees, really? Then the moment I turn it back to room temperature she storms out and turns it back down. It's spring gosh dang! I can't believe I chose to live with such a selfish person. It just sucks that you don't really know people until you live with them. I wish we could have a "test out the waters" period before you start living with people. It's okay I just need to survive one more week until I can go to the paradise that is a dirty hotel room. Just kidding, it better not be dirty or else I'm going to sue someone.

I really wanted to cry yesterday. I was so sad and frustrated. I was between that stage where I felt like my heart was being ripped out and stepped on and my head was being smashed against the wall. I held it in, though (I'm a big girl). I guess that's what happens when you feel alone and helpless.

Anyways, it's kind of nice being back. I haven't been back in a while. My cousins were both really excited when my aunt told them that I was back and they rushed into my room in the morning (it's block day for them). I talked to them for a while before they had to go to school and before leaving they said "Bring lots of blankets!" which made me smile. My aunt is very concerned because when I got back last night at 1am she looked at me with a what... the... heck... expression, but then I explained it to her and she completely understood and was super supportive. You know, I realize that when it comes down to it no one is going to care except for family because people are too busy thinking that their own lives are more important to bother with your crap. That's okay, I guess. It's normal. Altruistic behavior gets people killed in the wild. Every man for himself right? Unless they're family then there are kinship benefits, so that pretty much sums up human interactions. It's nice knowing that there are people that care. Thank you auntie + cousins, I feel much better. It was definitely worth the time and money driving down.

Well, that's that. I'm going back at 12pm. That thing should be gone by the time I get there. If not then someone is going to get hurt.

Blame the maid

People have the tendency to blame others for their mistakes and wrongdoings. Of course that includes me as well. I remember this one time when I stayed at a hotel with my aunt and cousins at Reno I couldn't find my iPod charger/wire when I knew I had packed it. The only solution to this was: THE HOUSE CLEANING LADY DID IT. I was so mad at the time because quite frankly, one would expect more out of a four star hotel. So, of course I felt like an idiot when I found my wire in the side zipper of my duffel bag three days later. To this day I still haven't heard the end of this. Every time I misplace something (cell phone is the most common) my aunt and cousins give me a hard time about it, "Hey, maybe the house cleaning lady stole it!" -_- such a supportive and caring family I have right?

This just made me laugh. And you know, speaking of whales, I've been watching a lot of killer whale attack videos on youtube after reading an article about Tilikum on yahoo. I mean... they're not called "killer" whales for no reason... I wonder whose bright idea it was to stick them in SeaWorld, ride on top of them like horses, and feed them dead fish (which have very low nutritional value, just sayin). Oh and by the way, did you guys see pictures of the exploding whale in Taiwan in 2004? Delicious right? Haha, apparently something rotten was going on inside that thing. Poor little scooter all covered in guts.

I'm cold.

My brain hurts.

I want to barf.

I need to pee.

F my life. BUT reservations HAVE officially been booked. Like I said, I'm irritated. Time to abandon ship or well, house in this case. I know, this is what I do... run away instead of deal with my problems. It's so sad that this is going to be my birthday gift to myself I would much rather buy a PS3, new earphones, and an iPad with this money (yes, that is indeed how expensive it is; we're going high class suite-status here people), but at this point I think the greatest gift that I could possibly give to myself is a week or so of unhindered peace especially since all midterms fall on that week (can you believe they only let you stay for 7 days? what the freak man, what is this? how can they make money like this?) Anyway, if I'm still irritated after a week I'll just extend my stay (because apparently you can do that; I'm so confused). And if a cleaning lady steals anything... well, I'll be sure to let you guys know.

Screw that

I can't take this anymore. Everyday I wake up with a sore throat thinking that I'm sick only to realize that it's because once again the air condition was on the whole bloody night (she turns it to 60 degrees; wtf are we all refrigerators?). I can't say anything because that's just how I am. I really wish E was here. I know exactly what she would say: "Oh my gosh Joanna, why are you so useless, just tell her" she would then proceed to roll her eyes at me, but eventually she would approach the jerk on my behalf and tell her to stop being such an idiot. That's how we usually operate and I miss having my person here. It's easier to speak for someone else than it is to stand up for myself. It always has been that way and probably always will be. In the meantime I guess I'll just suffer alone in my room. Just kidding. I'm going to let it slide for this week because midterms have yet to start, but if it continues (which I know it will), I'm going to move out for the rest of April and then come back in the middle of May-- actually, screw May I'll come back when SS1 starts. I refuse to let her ruin the best months of the year (April & May). That's such a waste of rent, but if money can help me keep my sanity then it'll be well worth it. Anyways, I'm being completely serious here I'm just going to leave without a word. If she gets evicted, well, that's really not my problem now is it? I feel sorry for the other two, but it's not my fault they put me in charge of rent and utilities. I don't have enough energy to care anymore.

Mmm. I'm sad I haven't played piano in a few days. Hopefully I'll get a chance to play today...

Skin

Umm... my head is bleeding, but I'm not too sure why. Oh well.

You know, I've always thought that guys think it's attractive when girls wear nothing (or near nothing), or why else would girls demean themselves by walking around looking like prostitutes? While it's true that some guys are into that, the good ones generally aren't. The other day when I was walking with my guy friend we saw this one girl that was wearing leggings with an extremely short skirt and an "off the shoulder" shirt. He cringed and said "I don't understand that... she might as well just take that off" he said, as he pointed to the girl. I took one look at her and burst out laughing because her "off the shoulder" shirt was more like an "almost off half of her body" shirt. I then asked him if he thought that was attractive and he said "Hell no. It looks like a dog ate her clothes. That shi- is a joke." It's nice to know there are guys out there that appreciate girls that know how to dress. So the conclusion here is this: girls walk around dressing like prostitutes because 1. they really are prostitutes or 2. they want to get some action (which means that 1. is most likely true as well).

STUPID Adfalkjdfaskjfdaks. Shut UP. Geez. I'm so annoyed; music is on full blast.

Check it

Currently hooked on:

Replay um I think it's also called 누난 너무 예뻐 but don't quote me on that. We all know I'm a Korean impostor. I should focus more on Japanese, but Korean is so much easier... and I'm lazy. Ha.

Minho is my favorite in the group. Can you tell why? Sexy.

And yeah. Don't hate me 'cuz I'm beautiful.

Oh! And I thought I should let you all know that Owl City is coming out with a new cd. I'm so excited I could pee my pants. --whoops. ;)

Shazaam

It's so sunny! I'm walking on sunshine, ooh ooh.

I am in dire need of a new phone. I'm open to suggestions, it just has to be Verizon.

I hate 酒肉朋友. Not saying that I have any because I don't have any 朋友 to begin with. Ha. Seriously some people are pretty useless. There was this one quote on someone's Facebook that I liked... "there are only so many people on Earth because shooting people is illegal" or something along the lines of that. So true, so true. If I could have gotten away with it, who knows how many people would have gotten shot already.

A wise man once told me... "Well, you can always just like the good parts of them." That's pretty smart. I think that's what I'll do from now on. Too bad some people have no good parts. Lol.