There's something that has been bothering me for a while now, so I guess I'll write it down here and solve my own problems as I'm writing. Facebook. Actually Facebook isn't the problem, it's the content that shows up on my news feed. I don't go on Facebook much unless someone messages me or leaves me a comment on my wall because I get an email. I'm not one of those people that refresh their page every five seconds, but I do see the news feed (it is the first thing that shows up, after all). I scroll down and I see pictures of summer, people, and what they've been doing with their lives, etc. Then I'll see pictures of my friends at some random places and I'll think haha they're ridiculous-- wait... was I invited to that? I scroll down some more and I think woahh awesome they went there-- wait hold up no one told me about that either. So there's a trend here, you see?
A long time ago my friend told me a story. Her and her friends were all really close in High School and they were always around each other. Then the first year of college came and went. She was still in the bay, but they had all come back from their respective schools. She was wondering when they would all hang out again like old times when one of them called her and told her that they had all (minus her) previously been at a restaurant. They told her not to be mad. When she told me this I thought it was pretty messed up of them. At the time, she told me that she wasn't mad, just hurt. I thought, wow that sucks, but I'm sure it won't happen to me. What can I say? I was wrong. I am wrong. I think I understand how she feels now (oh, except I didn't get a phone call I got Facebook news feed; oh the joy). I'm not mad either, it's just kind of ouch because I don't really know if I did anything to upset them or not. I'm speechless... Shrug. Essentially this just means that I'm a fool for caring about people. I shouldn't let these things affect me too much. Maybe I need to disconnect from everything and start over. New phone number, new fb account, new blogspot, new life, basically. However, one thing is certain. Joanna Lo, you really need to make some friends, fool. I'm going to need to think about this later, for now I'm going back into robot-goal driven-studious-hair pinned up-mode. It seems that studying is the only way to get away from everything... maybe that's why my grades yeah. I'm such a wimp I need to stop running. Oh, by the way, I'm going to sign up for an internship at 9:20am today (12:20am here). I really hope I get it. I want either ER, Surgery, or Cardiology. Wish me luck! I'll let you guys know what happens. (but knowing my luck I'll probably get stuck with pregnant woman and vaginal diseases at the gyno department)
What was my point again? I kind of got off track (I know, what else is new, you guys must be sick of me you come here to laugh at my life and all you get is paragraphs drenched in the internal problems that will never be spoken out loud). Oh, yes. Showering here is pointless. The only time you're not sweating is when you're in the shower. You get out and guess what? You're covered in sweat again. Fantastic. I could use a giant bowl of shaved ice right now. I think that's what I'm going to do. Street vendors for the win! Go Taiwan!
skip & do push-ups <3
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