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I had a nightmare yesterday. I kept on dropping my itouch. It didn't matter where I was I just kept dropping it and dropping it. However, (and surprisingly) whenever I dropped it, it never broke. I would always pick it up and breathe a sigh of relief. Then for some reason I was paddle boating with a random guy and I dropped my itouch into the lake. I quickly grabbed it from the water and I furiously tried to wipe all of the water away and get it all out of my ipod, but it still wouldn't turn on. I woke up with a sinking feeling in my stomach. I grabbed for my ipod, turned it on, and was relieved.

Yeah, that's my idea of a nightmare. Like I've stated previously, my ipod has my life in it. I would be totally lost without it. Another nightmare that occurred two days ago was one in which school started on 9/20 I woke up thinking, oh my gosh is this real life? I started panicking because I didn't know if I would have enough time to adjust my jet lag, get a parking permit, blah blah blah. I went on to the school website and I realized that while the quarter starts on the 20th instruction begins on the 23rd. Huge sigh of relief. Of course, who could possibly go back to sleep after something like that. Yeah, that's my idea of a nightmare. Death of an ipod and school starting on three days earlier. I think I realize that the things I fear the most are quite pathetic.

You know I don't understand people that refuse to apologize. I don't understand why it's such a big deal. Do people feel like they've "lost" if they apologize? I think an apology is the most basic thing anyone can do if they have wronged someone. This should be very intuitive. Why are people too stubborn and proud to admit that they're wrong? I have this thing. I believe that if someone does something wrong they should apologize for it. If it is done to me specifically, depending on how much you irritate me, I will talk to you minimally or not at all until you apologize (obviously, you have to mean it as well, an "oh I guess I'm sorry" isn't going to cut it). That's all I ask for. If you apologize then everything will return to how it was before. I just need you to admit that you were wrong. Then of course there are people that don't think that they do anything wrong or never admit to doing anything wrong because they put blame on everyone else. Though, that's pretty immature. At our age I believe that the majority of us are capable of realizing when we have done something that has offended someone else. We just need to realize how to handle what happens after. The art of perfecting the apology.

Of course this doesn't apply to everyone. I mean there are people that get upset over ridiculous things (if you haven't heard stories I'll tell you a few if we meet in person). If that's the case then I think that you should minimize the amount of time you spend with those kinds of people. It'll make your life a lot easier. Talk to someone of the same caliber. Trust me, you'll feel better if you don't deal with such trivial things. I don't think that you necessarily have to apologize for doing something that normally wouldn't make people mad because sometimes it really is ridiculous (of course, the right thing to do is often the hard thing, my suggestion in this case would be to swallow your pride, apologize [do not BS this, at least sound genuine], and move on to find better friends).

It's never too late.

apologize & forgive <3