Gawdelpus

Continued--I'm pretty sure that's part of why I'm not particularly good at receiving compliments even at this age. There's a difference between being humble and truly not believing what people are telling you. I'm probably the second one. I recently went to my friend's house and I was just chilling, playing guitar when her boyfriend walked in and was in shock. He then told me that I played guitar really well and that I should hold concerts and teach at some institute. I said thanks (not really believing him) and he went on to asking me a bunch of questions about guitar and he told me that he grew up surrounded by music (though he himself doesn't play) and that his sister was a music major, but he felt that she was very mechanical and played with no emotion. He then went on to ask me how I felt while playing guitar--usually happy--and if every time I played it sounded different--depends on how I feel and he said that he could probably sit and listen to me play for hours. I finally believed him after talking to him for 3 hours.

Guitar is one of the things I care about most in the world. It's unfortunate that I haven't found anyone as interested in it as I am and I was sad when I realized that this is the first time someone has ever asked me--in such detail--about something that I truly care about. Though I guess it's understandable no one has ever asked me about receptors in detail... I could go on for hours. Anyway, it was nice. I need to meet more people like this because after I left I was so happy that I couldn't help smiling every time I thought about playing.

Genuinely caring about others and what they care about is the fundamental basis of a friendship or any relationship for that matter. Unfortunately, genuinely caring about people is a rarity possessed by only a select few in this world. Find them while you can and don't let go because finding more... well, good luck with that.

Although dark and gloomy, I know that my past experiences have made me the person I am today, so it's okay. I just think that as as parent there are better ways to teach children.