Chilled

I took the ferry the other day. It was a complete waste of time and it was super cold, but at least it was pretty.

Crumbly heart

These are so cute :)

I need to get myself a Christopher Robin. I bet you guys were all thinking that I would want to get myself a Pooh. I am Pooh. We have the same figure and I frequently walk around without pants on.

I didn't think anyone felt as strongly about this as I do. He must have been mad while writing it. I've pretty much given up and expect everyone to be late because most people are rude and disrespectful so when people are on time my reaction is usually, "NO WAY IS THIS REAL LIFE?!"

Eh. I just noticed I'm posting too much Korean music again. I'll stop.

Cantatory

I don't really understand the purpose behind the color run. Click the link if you guys don't know what it is. Anyway, I think that running is difficult enough without people throwing things at you, so why anyone would pay to get bludgeoned is beyond me. Maybe the kinds of people that sign up for these things are masochists. Should I sign up? Psych. If anyone is interested, I only charge $5 so let me know if you would like me to throw things at you.

Every time I made a star I thought of you and it made me sad, but now that the jar is full I'm never going to think about you again. I never fully conceptualized this because now I have an unlucky jar. -_- I'm either going to have to give this to someone or burn the sh#t out of it.

Catch me

"In order for women to live easily in this world all they need to be is pretty/cute and stupid/air-headed." Unfortunately, this is true. However, I have studied too much and have had too many experiences to live without dignity. I refuse to have to rely on someone else's income in order to survive and will never suppress or withhold intelligence to do so. I also do not have enough money for plastic surgery, so that's that. I'll admit though that if I were incredibly desperate I would seduce the yakuza boss into marrying me, but it's not like I would be completely useless. I would either run the night club or count drug money. I would devote my life to being a mobster and get an enormous dragon tattoo on my back. Do you know how hardcore I would be?

Cancel

I was planning on being miserable with my pulled shoulder muscle this weekend, but ended up having a lot of fun instead. I mean come on people, look at the size of this room. Of course nothing is ever fun unless you're with good company so... :)

Ahh, real life again tomorrow. I wish I could sleep forever... though would that mean that I'm in a vegetative state?

Cough syrup

가시는 걸음걸음
놓인 그 꽃을
사뿐이 즈려 밟고 가시옵소서.
...죽어도 아니 눈물 흘리오리다.

With each step you take, where the Azaleas lay... Step on them lightly when you walk away. ...Even if I die, I'm not going to cry. 김소월.

Collapse

Like an idiot I tried to move my desk by myself and pulled my right shoulder muscle. Now I can't even pick my nose without grimacing in pain. I shouldn't be complaining as this is a byproduct of my intermittent stupidity. The sadder part is that I volunteered to help my friend paint this weekend. I guess that's not happening. The only thing I have to look forward to is going dryer shopping. Hooray! I actually really like appliances in general, but kitchen appliances are my favorite. :)

I was checking out at the grocery store yesterday when someone looked at me and said, "You look malnourished." I wasn't sure how to respond, so I just said thanks.

I'm always honest about the way I feel if it's a positive emotion. For example, if I like someone I'll say "I like you!" or some variation of "You're great!" However, if I don't like someone/what they're doing I'll choose to remain silent because it would take too much effort otherwise. Imagine going to work and entering the building "I don't like you, you're a horrible person" walk a bit more "You're rude and condescending" etc. by the time you reach your work space you'll be dehydrated and out of breath. Anyway, I'm just saying that if it's something good then you should let people know (even though it's embarrassing) or else they're never going to know.

Corpse

My recent obsession. Incredibly good coffee. I'm so happy it's Friday, but I should be doing work. Okay, later.

Cotton

I really don't understand why children like to play with furbies. They're so creepy. Maybe people assume that children like creepy dolls... What are these manufacturers thinking? During my childhood I remember I had a doll that was the same size as me and it walked and made strange laughing noises, but after the battery started running out it sounded like she was choking on something. It was one of those human simulating ones that would close their eyes if you positioned them horizontally on a flat surface. I also had some sort of black market barbie that didn't even look like a girl. Needless to say, they were incredibly creepy and I hated them. I decapitated the black market barbie and I stuffed the life size doll into the closet after wrapping her in a blanket. How traumatic.. for both me and the dolls probably.

Enjoy.

Circumvention

I've been doing a lot of thinking (per usual) and I find that I have all of this money saved "for the future," but I don't even know what exactly this future consists of. I'm not saying that I'm going to go around buying a bunch of cars or go T-Pain status "making it rain" on the rooftop of some secluded building, but I do think that it's time that I treat myself better. In fact, I think we all need to treat ourselves better in the present to broaden our perspectives and enhance our future prospects--that is, if you're not a horrible person. If you're a horrible person please isolate yourself in a dark corner and reflect on your wrongdoings. While you're at it you can also apologize to the people that have wasted time on you. I deserve an apology damn it...

I don't understand why anyone would do anything that they're going to have to apologize for. Just don't do it. People are always apologizing to me. For some reason I'm stupid enough to fall for it and forgive them only to have the cycle repeat itself. Or well, that's what my friend told me the other day, "I think you're always miserable because you forgive people so easily. They're not going to change because you just let it go. Everyone deserves a second chance, but you give people like 900." Well, what would you suggest I do? They're not going to change regardless. Real life example time...

A few months ago someone apologized to me for XYZ reason and wanted to meet up with me to catch up (after two years). I had previously concluded that this person was quite horrible. I shouldn't have said yes, but I did because I was hoping/curious that perhaps this person changed. When I met up with this person I thought, "Wow! They're completely different. They've really changed in a good way. I'm impressed." and so we continued to randomly hang out. After a while I realized that this person did not change at all it's just that they valued me more, so I was deceived into thinking otherwise. Does no one else see that this is the problem? Everyone is so busy chasing things that they think they want that they don't realize the importance of/appreciate the things that are right next to them until they disappear. Not going to lie--I'm guilty of constantly chasing things that I think I want, but there's no way I would let something important disappear. And so the lesson for today is: don't be a scumbag. It's harder than you think.

For some reason this reminded me of when my old housemate and I would go grocery shopping and it made me laugh. :)

Convict

Just because someone never physically grasps a knife to stab anyone doesn't mean that they're innocent. Words can easily substitute knives and are manipulated to expose wounds respectively. Someone once told me that the most painful feelings in the world stem from sorrow and lingering affection. I wonder if that's true because I was going to guess child birth...

The world needs more Hello Kitty bandages, probably.

Croissant

List of places (international) I want to go before I'm 30... I have a list of domestic as well, but we'll save that for another day.

Hydra and Navagio, Greece
Bodrum, Turkey
Half Dome, Yosemite (I know, but I've never actually climbed the thing because I always go with old people)
Maldives (I rave about this too much)
Venice, Italy
Auschwitz, Germany (is this too depressing?)
Aragusuku Island, Japan
Great Barrier Reef, Australia

If any of you guys are interested in coming with me, let's do it.

Candy girl

I've been wanting to buy a variation of this ring (because no one can afford the actual thing) as a present to myself for breathing (such a trying task). The ones that I really like look too much like engagement rings. Simple is best. I never buy jewelry for myself because I would rather buy other things, but I thought that it was time and so I shopped around and read a bunch of reviews. I read this one review and it said, "I bought this as an early Christmas present for my wife before she died." I nearly bought that ring, but the thought of wearing the same ring as some man's deceased wife made me reconsider. These days the majority of the excitement in my life revolves around receiving packages, which is quite sad given most of them are dog treats.

There was once a wolf that was hungry, so he set out to find food. He walked for several miles and found a lamb stuck at the top of a mountain. The wolf entered the area in which the lamb was enclosed and became trapped too. The two spent some time together and fell in love. The lamb noticed that the wolf was becoming weaker and said, "Eat me, so that you can survive!" The wolf couldn't do it and starved to death. Was that too depressing? If that disappoints you, you can choose to believe that the wolf became vegetarian and they ate grass together for all eternity. However, in the analogy-of-my-life version of the story where I'm the lamb, I say "It's okay, just eat me" and the wolf says "Oh, okay." and does. Moral: if you love someone more than they love you, you're the one that's going to get hurt. Happy Thursday.

Commit

Apparently my package has been "out for delivery" for the past two days. The DHL delivery man must be having some difficulties. I'm going to choose to believe that he's very hard working and has been wandering around trying to find my house for 48 hours. I just want my screen protector. Good grief.

I thought that if I chose to hang out with people that are around 30 it would make my life easier because they're less stupid and problematic. I was wrong. I think I'm going to have to start hanging out with people twice my age. I actually have for the past month or so and I found out that people that are around 40 don't BS. It's pretty nice since the vast majority of people on Earth are full of S. Oh and also, they meet you at the agreed location at the exact time! What a concept.

He's my absolute favorite. Why? Because I can't play any of his songs... they're incredibly difficult, but he makes it look easy. Plus, I've always had a thing for Australians. Take a listen if you're bored.

Train. There are many interesting characters here.

Conscientious

I went to my first Zumba class last night and it was super fun. My friend was making fun of me the whole time because I had no idea what I was doing, but neither did the Asian lady next to me, so I felt better about myself. I think I'll start going more often.

So my school decided to change the layout of their homepage. Now there's a giant "cover photo" or whatever of random things affiliated with the school that changes every few seconds. That being said, there are candid shots of students biking, walking, living, etc. The fact that they didn't have this when I was around is one thing to be grateful for. Imagine having to always be sexy everywhere you go because you live in fear of becoming the center of the cover photo. How are you supposed to bike and be sexy at the same time? Everyone's muffin tops and butt cracks are always showing... Also, I'm curious to know what the cover photo is going to look like during finals weeks... Anyway, I guess it's not my problem, so oh well. I have other things to worry about... like how much fertilizer I should put on the lawn because these instructions are vague and horrible at best.

Corner act

New best friends :)

Just to get you guys into the Halloween spirit. I hate to admit it, but it's cute~ Also, I'm totally a sucker for lists like these.

Casual affair

As I was organizing a bunch of stuff, I came across a giant tub of coins (held in a giant water cooler) that I had collected since childhood. It was incredibly heavy, caked in dust, and it needed to go. I decided to wake up at dawn's butt crack yesterday in order to drag it to Safeway. I stood there throwing coins in for about half an hour and a strange man came and started "helping" me even though his help was unwarranted. He stood there with me making commentary for thirty minutes as I rushed to get out of there. Finally I was done and I thanked him even though I was lacking in gratitude. I've never thought of coins as real money--aside from quarters, but I walked out of there $527.89 richer.

The season "fall" used be called harvest simply because farmers used to harvest their crops around this time. The word fall was shortened from "fall of the leaf" because clearly that's what happens during this season. Now you know. 

Companion

This is some crazy stuff. Your roommate could potentially be a drug dealer... though that would make my life infinitely more exciting.

This is very difficult for the majority of the world. If you're interested here's the article; 20 things 20-somethings should know how to do. I know someone that is about thirty and still unable to do this. There is no hope for that poor soul. Moment of silence. Anyway, recently it's becoming very clear that I value people that initiate things because I don't like having to do all of the work all the time. I also don't like having to remind people that I exist. I think that if people care enough they should do things like this automatically. That being said, I've had it and I'm not going to do it anymore. I find myself migrating away from people that are unable to do this. Why? Have you guys heard that as you get older your patience for things that you feel strongly about decreases? Well, it's true. I'm easily irritated. However, can you really blame me when people with common sense are so scarce?

Corrosion

I was organizing some stuff and throwing things out. It's difficult to throw away something that you've spent so much blood, pain, and tears on. It's very sad that what I've worked on in the past four years fits into one box. Well, I guess that's not true because I didn't keep any of the literature or nutrition stuff. I kept mostly Biochemistry related things... Okay, let me rephrase... It's even sadder that the only useful things that I've studied in the past four years fit into one box. I threw away a lot more than what I kept that's for sure.

I wish Google would create a "like" button for emails, so I wouldn't have to respond "Okay, that sounds good" so often. "Joanna, please prepare a 20 minute presentation by next Friday." LIKE.

Consistent

Okay, okay, relax. I'm not actually in Hawaii right now I just wish I was. Not many of my pictures have been chronologically accurate, but oh well. If you piece it together you'll still be able to get a gist of what I've been up to. There are only three things I'm looking forward to as of now 1. my friend's birthday in October 2. Thanksgiving and Black Friday shopping 3. December 18th. Blah. Monday blues. Good morning world.

Comrade

Okay, a few days ago my friend told me something that completely blew my mind: green gummy bears are strawberry flavored--WHAT? You've got to be kidding me. I guess it doesn't really matter because I only eat the red and clear ones anyway, but this is still slightly traumatic and I realize that the greater half of my childhood has been a lie.

Cranberry

Good day without cause~ For some reason things are going well... I guess it might be because I'm ignoring the things that aren't, but at this point I'm okay with living in an illusion of the ideal.

Oh, you know.. :)

Camouflage

I couldn't find the type of battery I needed for my vintage camera, so I turned to eBay. I bought it and afterwards the seller sent me an email saying "Thank you! Your cat is very happy now that you have new batteries for your laser pointer!" There is so much wrong with this I don't even know where to begin so I'm going to choose to remain silent and let you guys be disgusted for me.

This shark stroller is really cute. I wonder where the mom was because I didn't see any cows roaming around the grocery store. I know, I'm not that funny. Let me be, it's hella early and I'm on the train.

Can't wait :)

Many people say my dog looks like anything but a dog. They say he resembles a chicken, a deer, a bear, but now this:

I do see it though.

And this is pretty cute, so watch it.