Four cents

DONE. Now time to study for other things. I can't believe I haven't updated in so long. I guess I've been busy like a bee. Bzzz. As for my social life? Well, what social life would be the better question. That's okay though. I don't mind being a recluse as long as I can ensure a secure future. After all, job security is rare in times like these. In all honesty I think it's better this way. People tend to disappoint me and if I minimize contact with people, then I won't become disappointed right? I know this is cynical and pessimistic, but I no longer have any expectations. If I'm going to meet someone somewhere, I assume they're going to be 30 minutes late (I will not wait for anyone over 30 minutes anymore [unless it's W... I would wait for a whole day if it was you because I've failed you so many times]), I've learned my lesson. No more waiting for people for 6 hours at the mall. Those times are over with. Anyway, if you assume that they're going to be late then if they show up and they're on time or a little bit late, you won't feel as upset. It's kind of a sad way to look at life, but you know what they say? Pessimists can never be disappointed, only pleasantly surprised. Just my four cents (because I think that was worth more than a mere two).

People need to stop it with the fake high pitched voices and excessive laughing. It's annoying. I'm annoyed.

I've decided that I'm going to master the macaron over the break. Also, I don't think S is coming. I'm sad. That means no road trip. Now the question remains: should I go back to SJ? 70% yes. My car is making weird noises and I haven't seen W E and V in way too long. At the same time there are innumerable problems that could arise if I go back. I'll sleep on it (or not... haven't been able to sleep and sleeping pills don't work anymore).

MY BIO LAB PARTNER IS AWESOME. Does it top last quarter? Not sure how to answer that... they're different. Anyway, she's a nerdy, anti-partying boring person (but not more boring than I am, who can beat me?) that happens to be hilarious without trying to be. It feels natural... like I've known her all my life-sort of thing. That's my type right there! And she's probably the first (and only) person that understands my theory of eating. She told me that she's never hungry, rather she eats because she feels like she should. That COMPLETELY makes sense to me because what I say is, I only eat to stay alive, but every time I say stuff like this people look at me like I'm some psycho. I don't know... maybe we're both crazy, but crazy people unite yeah? I met her around the 4/5th lab which sucks because there are only 8. Anyway, that alone makes my Thursday labs much more tolerable, so if there's anything I'm thankful for it's got to be this.

Today I realized that I'm abnormal (actually, no... I realized this a long time ago; today was more like an assertion). What kind of girl likes games? Why am I admitting this on my blog? Ahh, but I love Kingdom Hearts. Loco roco... so cute. I've been afraid to start playing because I know if I start I'm going to fail my finals. Patience is a virtue. I'll wait until spring break.

I find myself in the center of a love pentagon (yes, it is no longer a triangle). Why me? I asked my housemate "why me" and once again all blame has been placed upon my face. And once again here I am asking myself, what does that mean? Oy vey. I don't want this. Go away! Plastic surgery here I come.

play games & text <3