Remember?

Why... so many... peas... No matter which Biology class you take, what school you go to, how high your GPA is, you will never EVER escape the wrath of Mendel and his peas. Quite frankly, I think the guy was just hungry.

Memory is... a tricky thing. Some people have really bad memory and some people have really good memory. The difference between people with bad memory and people with good memory is this: people with bad memory tend to blame their memory for their forgetfulness and try to get away with it. I think that's total BULL. "But-- but... my memory really IS bad!!!" you say? BULL. I strongly believe that people can choose what they want to remember and what they don't want to remember. No matter who you are or how bad your memory is, you remember what is most important to you. Still disagree? Let's say on a given day you have a final, you have to wash your car, take your sick pet to the vet, hang out with a friend, and fold your laundry. What are people with "bad memory" going to remember? They're going to remember to take their final, take their sick pet to the vet (hopefully) and MAYBE they'll remember to go hang out with their friend (at least give them a phone call, don't be rude). Everything else will probably be forgotten because it's not important (or less important). Those of you that know me understand that I hate it when people make me wait or don't show up without letting me know (using hate here is being generous; a better phrase would be despise beyond the depths of the Earth). Why? Because you're indicating that I'm not important (no one wants to hear that). So in essence, there really is no such thing as bad memory. Rather a better term for this is minimal selective importance designation. Of course this is too long, so another term we can use to substitute this is: stupid. Therefore, you either have good memory or you're stupid.

On a less depressing note... look at this! Isn't this cute? My aunt is crazy and this is super early. Around December she asked me what my favorite colors were (I said teal, but blue is close enough... I have yet to see a teal m&m) and this is what she did. I happen to know that customized m&m's cost around $50 dollars so I'm grateful. This was thoughtful, cute, and super cheesy. I like. Thanks auntie!

I'm going to admit that... sometimes I don't pick up the phone because I don't want to :) That being said, if you call me and I answer (or if I call you back), you should feel honored because that means I want to talk to you.

Go figure

And it begins.

The air conditioning was on the whole night and my throat hurts. Spring is supposed to be the time of perfect weather, but no. I can't even enjoy my favorite season when someONE is out to ruin it with air conditioning. As all the normal people can tell, there is no need for air conditioning in spring. If you do, in fact, find out that it is so hot in spring that you need to turn on the air conditioning, it is probably time for you to lose some weight (just being honest). I'm already sleeping with three blankets and it's still not enough, but that's not the problem. My throat hurts so much right now that I'm afraid I might actually be sick. I'm so tired of this crap. Go to Antarctica you damn idiot eskimo. Freaking psycho.

OH MY GOSH. I thought that the week of finals was Top Chef's season finale, but it's not! The finale was yesterday. Richard Blais better win. He's so cool. And also I like his hair (refer to fohawk obsession). But really, he's a nice person and he deserves it.

In physics we're learning about the Bernoulli principle and the Bernoulli equation. But due to excessive television ads on Hulu, I keep calling it the Bertoulli equation. Ultra embarrassing.

I've come to realize that not many guys understand me. Only guys that are nice will ever come close. And as a side note just because guys are nice it doesn't mean that they're gay. I hate that assumption. That preconceived notion tends to make guys want to be jerks and idiots which decreases the amount of "likely candidates" (if you know what I mean). Anyway, I just think it would be hard for me to find a guy that understands me and likes me back. Really, I've only encountered two guys that understand me and one of them might be gay... -_- I don't know (but I'm not assuming that because he's nice; this is based on his... frequent hand gestures).

You know what's strange though? Most guys that I've asked want to have children and watch them grow up etc. I thought this was pretty surprising because I've always thought that guys never want to assume responsibility over things like children. Conversely, most girls that I've asked don't want children. When you think about it, it makes sense. Women, in general, would never want to put themselves through the "#1 pain". In addition, the woman must take responsibility for the child (incubation time + breast feeding). Whereas the only part the male takes part in is siring and perhaps raising the kid (only if they want to). Sorry, this post has turned into a bio post without me trying. Now the interesting part... would I ever want kids? Oh, heck no. Something that big is never going to come out of something that small. I'll pass on children unless I can make them in vitro (hey, this might actually become feasible in the future). Also, why would I want to spend all of my money on children when I slave through school in order to earn money?

All jokes aside, I really wouldn't mind having one or two children if I happened to be with the right guy and I loved him A LOT (but, man I better be REALLY in love or else nothing is coming out of this vajayjay anytime soon).

punch people whose names start with A <3

Bubble

Aiiyah.

My tooth still hurts and it has already been a week. That must have been a monster of a cavity. Bahh. You know what they say though? Dental pain is the #2 greatest pain ever. Want to know what's number one? Child birth. Go figure... I mean it's not everyday you try to squeeze the equivalent of a small alien monster out of an orifice the size of a quarter.

Man look at this blister! What a beast. Sorry, I had to post a picture of my foot. I hate feet (that's beyond the point here). But that's the last time I go on a two hour run without putting a bandage on my toe. You would think I would learn my lesson because this happens every time, but no. You would also think I would stop drinking coffee on an empty stomach. Nope. I'm still as stupid as ever (either that or lazy... maybe both). Well, this is what I get. A giant blister and constant stomachaches.

I hate Physics. I keep complaining about this because it is probably the biggest waste of my time on earth and for some reason I'm always stuck with a bunch of idiots. Actually, last time was alright because at least they were nice. This time they're just... sigh. If it gets to the point were I have to be the one that contributes, talks, and writes on the board the most you know that something is not right because it's just easier if I talk occasionally and other people write. And for some odd reason unknown to mankind, my physics TA is obsessed with philosophy and history which makes D/L just THAT much more painful.

I don't really understand why thermal isomerization happens. I think I might email my professor. Have you guys ever emailed a professor? I realize that when I ask them a question the most common response I receive is "that's not going to be on the exam, so you won't need to know it." I don't think they understand that I'm insane and I need to know the why, how, and ifs of everything or else it will bother me to death and eat me alive. Just ANSWER me dang you.

mix salad & play music <3

Good stuff

First of all... this totally made me LOL.

and then this made me laugh even louder.

I couldn't sleep last night, so after turning around and around in my bed I decided to get up at 4am. My eyes feel like they're about to fall off again, but I should be used to that by now right? Yeah... I don't understand why I keep picking classes that are at 7:30am when I can never fall asleep. I'm a morning person. If you see me in the morning I'm guaranteed to be 100x more pleasant than if you were to see me between 3-7pm. I hate those four hours. It's that awkward part of the day when you don't know what to do with yourself. You're extremely tired and groggy, but you feel that you still need to be productive because the sun is still up. I'm not too sure if anyone else feels this way, but at least that's what I think.

I wish I could clone myself, send my clone to school, and then subsequently have it come back so I could absorb all of the information it learned into my brain. That way I would never have to leave the house.

Okay the time of the year has come... I get to spoil myself even though I don't think I deserve it. iPad2? Vaio P series? PS3? NEW CAR?! Just kidding. Not rich enough. Maybe I shouldn't buy anything if I'm going to get an iPhone... am I going to get an iPhone? My phone problems are driving me insane. Sigh I don't know anymore... and rumors state that there will be no iPhone 5 until 2012. Can I even wait that long? Can my phone hold out for another year?

Come on you all. We're in college now. This is not middle school anymore. Is it really necessary to douse yourselves with love spell from Victoria's Secret or some other equivalent bath and body works body spray? Please save up money and invest in a perfume that actually smells good. Okay thanks.

crack eggs & cut plums <3

Bam

Today I found out that I have a midterm the day before my birthday, on my birthday, and the day after my birthday. Hooray! How depressing man.

Oh, it is love. I love my ochem teacher. I had her for chem 2B as well. I'm so grateful. Man... but the people in that class are questionable. I swear I feel like I'm in a class full of idiots. People ask the stupidest questions. How did all of you doofuses pass? I just found out today that to pass a class you only have to get a D. Did you know that? So that's why... I thought that you had to at least get a C+ to pass... but I guess not. It does explain why the average is so low though. Oh well, it's essentially better for me, so I shouldn't be complaining. I just feel like I'm losing brain cells every time someone asks a question.

I think I'm going to love Mondays from now on. I'm so utterly happy that no words can fully express the magnitude of my happiness. Even the frog sex can't ruin my day.

These things are so strong. I think my brain is bursting.

sing & eat cereal <3

Sexy party

Frogs are having sex outside my window. I feel like I should play a song for them. Maybe I should play satisfaction. Do frogs like house music? Do frogs usually mate in spring? This is ridiculous. Croak croak. Well, as you all know (or don't know) it's been raining lately and because of this fact, a dirty lake has accumulated in the field behind our apartment. We figured out that it would only make sense because we do live on lake boulevard (please do not stalk me)... this place probably used to be a lake. Anyways, I guess it's only natural for frogs to follow the water. What I don't understand, however, is why they only choose to mate near my side of the apartment. I went into my housemate's side and you could hardly hear them. And what the heck man, who is out having sex at 2am?! Actually... a lot of people. Okay, fine. I take that back. Well, I just thought I should say that I don't appreciate this and I wish frogs would have quieter sex.

I LOVE spring. I LOVE April (and May). This puts me in a good mood. Oh, oh, my roses are blooming~ Knight in shining armor take me away~!

I'm pretty sure my good mood is going to last a grand total of one week before something (or rather someONE) decides to ruin it. That's okay. Cherish the moment, eh?

Good song. Even though I think Eric Turner looks like a creeper (M thinks he looks like Jesus... yeah... not so much). You guys can be the judge of that.

--edit.

lol

cook frogs & bake biscuits <3

그래서...

Where does the week go? How is school starting already? What have I done with my life? Darn.

I went to the bookstore today and bought 1 book. It ended up being $200 dollars. That made me laugh.

Oh, hello. Meet my dream car. Audi R8. White. So sexy. Except that girl should be me. Is that Eva Mendes? Probably not...

Ow. I just bit my tongue.

There are these two people on Facebook that I constantly stalk. I say that I stalk them because I'm not that close with them. In fact, I don't talk to them much at all and yet, I find myself stalking them. Mostly because by stalking their wall posts I practice Korean and Japanese. I wonder if that's creepy. Probably... hey, they were the ones that added me. Actually, I've only added a few people on Facebook maybe around 5. This is mostly because I'm afraid that I might add the wrong people and become friends with some creep which is why I never press that button unless I'm 100% sure it's that person, but even if it is I'm still iffy about it. It's just much easier to sift through all of the friend requests pressing ignore, ignore, ignore-- dude you don't even talk to me why are you adding me, ignore... and it kind of goes on like that.

Anyway, good luck with life guys... I'm definitely going to need it. I don't know what I've gotten myself into. 2 internships, 1 research position while taking 118 and 101. I'm probably going to die.

drink tea & study <3

F-f-friday

For those of you that can read this... lol ridiculous...

http://udn.com/NEWS/OPINION/OPI1/6235633.shtml

I took my cousins to In-n-out today (Friday, Friday...). I think I spoil them too much. They couldn't decide on what "fun activity" they wanted to do after so we ended up playing Wii for three hours. Ah, well. It's nice to be a kid once in a while, but it's extremely tiring. This must mean that... I'm getting old. Sigh.

I'm back at school again. It rained throughout the duration of my drive, but it's all good.

take vitamins & run <3

Oh oh oh

OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH. FAINT. How is he so good looking? And I really like the hair.

Oh my goshhhh. Faint, again. This is a new picture... from his new show I think. I like his hair too. Oh, 藍正龍Please marry me.

Do I have a thing for fohawks? I don't like it if it's too noticeable because then they end up looking like this crap right here, but it's pretty good looking if they get it right. Oh, oh, ohhhh. I'm melting.

Guys look really good in dress shirts (as long as they're not too tight and borderline gay).

Ha pee

I've actually had time to play Loco Roco lately. I'm so happy. And also, I've been more social (to some extent). Me being social... I call it selectively permeable-y social (like a phospholipid bilayer, wink wink). Meaning, I'll hang out only with a select few people. Sorry, I'm too lazy to put in effort, as usual. Today was nice though. I had fun :)

Egh. My soup is sour. That's the last time I trust you to make soup for me. This is why I do the cooking. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful, but... yuck. -_-

Oops I forgot to take my birthday off of Facebook. I better go do that now. I know, I'm like a month early, but I hate birthday spam. Did I ever mention that? If you guys want to say happy birthday to me I would prefer a phone call or a letter... text/email/fb message is okay too I suppose.. just not as personal. But, wall posts are NOT okay. Mostly because if there is a post on my wall that says happy birthday it will probably show up on the newsfeed and then a bunch of irrelevant people will start saying happy birthday when they didn't even know it was my birthday to begin with. This is a phenomenon called birthday spam. I also can't stand seeing birthday spam on other peoples' walls because I know that the leavers of spam rely on the fb notification on the side of their home page to tell them when someone's birthday is. I guess it just doesn't feel as sincere. I don't know... I'm suppose I'm crazy, but this makes sense in my mind.

What should I get myself this year? I want a PS3, but I don't deserve one. Also, there's really no point because I don't even have a television. Boohoo. Maybe I should just get myself a lump of coal. I was wayyyy too close to getting an A- in Physics. That's what I get for not studying for the final (if I had gotten three points less my grade would have been doomed).

go out & drink coffee <3

x2

Guess who's back? Back again. Shady's back tell your friends. Just kidding. I should never become a rapper.

I don't know why I always do this. You would think that I would be smart enough to learn my lesson by now... but I'm not and I don't. I drank coffee on an empty stomach again.

What if Starbucks made designs in their coffee that looked like this? Well, I would be more of a coffee addict than I already am now, that's for sure. Bah. Totoro is so cute and fat. I just want to hug him to death.

Mmm

If I could go somewhere over break I would go here. Venice sounds pretty good right about now don't you think? If not there then here. Light up the night with purple. Too bad I'm broke. All I can afford is cereal. My car needs to get maintained AGAIN. I swear if I have to spend another 900 dollars I'm going to scream. Last month I couldn't eat because of that stupid tire. But... I guess it's necessary... :(

I'm heading out in about two hours. Can't wait to see you all~

run around & play drums <3

Free almost

It's Friday, Friday-- okay no. Let me just say that HALLELUJAH it is OVER. One week until it starts once more. For the past four days I've slept agrand total of 45 minutes. I have no idea what is what anymore. BUT, it's okay because everything is done with. However, I'm really worried. I guess we'll see what happens.

The only thing I've been doing the past two weeks is studying... in fact, I turned my closet into a giant phylogenetic tree because it wouldn't fit on a piece of white paper. I'm too lazy to take it down right now, so I can't wear any dark colored clothes until I become less lazy.

Anyway, apparently it's Saturday. It just didn't feel like it you know? As a celebration for finishing finals I made more desserts. This time I thought it was time for Tiramisu, the love of my life. It's supposed to be a surprise for someone/someones, so hopefully they don't see this post too soon. The one in front is the one I made for my housemate who has never eaten Tiramisu before (what a shame, what a shame) and the three in the back are my version of "to-go" tiramisu. Not as fancy looking, but they still taste fancy ;). Hopefully they'll survive the drive. Anyway, I should probably get some sleep.

Hope everyone is having a good break already :)

watch shows & play games <3

UGh

Amazon, Facebook, eBay, YouTube, hulu, and ochem are SO distracting (yes, ochem is distracting me from doing bio, I am indeed a nerd). You know when you can pull things off last minute so you put them off? Yeah. Not a good thing. Blimey.

I chewed two packets of gum. My jaw hurts.

2 posts in a day. Sigh. I am unworthy.

George foreman

I've been craving grilled asparagus lately. I know, it's probably the simplest thing in the world, but it's good.

Anyways, in an odd way, I'm kind of waiting for today to be over with. Good things will happen after today. Well, at least the most important good thing will happen... and then finals start Friday (for me, that is). I kind of just want to get all of this information out of my brain already and I never know what day of the week it is anymore. My housemate and I have concluded that because all we do is study we have no room for fundamental concepts in our brains. It goes something like this:

M: "Oh my gosh, what day is it?!"

J: "Dude... it's Tuesday... lol you're ridiculous."

M: *checks calendar "No, it's Wednesday!!"

J: "Oh my gosh, I need to do laundry... or did I already do it yesterday?"

M: "I've never seen you fold your clothes before..."

J: "I always fold my clothes what are you talking about"

...and the delirium kind of continues like that...

VERSUS...

M: "Hey, do this mechanism"

--5 seconds later--

J: "Alright, done."

What the freak. What the heck is that thing doing up right now. Way to ruin my day already-- so loud... and it's only 7:00am. Breathe Joanna, breathe. Just a few more days...

I'm getting grignards, PCC, and LiAlH4 mixed up. Must... study... more... (I'll edit later if anything interesting happens).

--edit.

Oh my... if anyone hasn't seen this video... don't do it you'll lose brain cells... Rebecca Black - Friday. Okay... someone posted this on Facebook and out of curiosity I clicked play. Bad decision. I'm not sure if I should feel sorry for her or what... but I think this image from someone's tumblr post sums up everything pretty well. Seriously, she can't even decide which seat she wants to sit in. And you know, this girl keeps singing "partying, partying," but I highly doubt that she's ever been invited to a party in her life and if by some miracle she has, I'm sure she would be the awkward girl that stands next to the fruit punch bowl.

take notes & shop online <3

You know

Don't you hate it... when you burn your tongue? Darn. This was because I was too impatient to wait for my coffee to cool yesterday. This is so uncomfortable, but once again it's my own fault. Boo.

I got a problem wrong on my ochem midterm and I wanted to know what I did wrong so I asked the head TA. Instead of explaining what I did wrong she told me to make a model. I sent her a total of five emails before I gave up and pretended that I figured out what she was talking about due to her insight and intelligence. How useless.

I really need a new phone. My stupid 2+ year old phone is calling random numbers at night and running out of battery after one phone call, but I'm stubborn and I'm waiting for iPhone 5 to see if Steve Jobs can blow me away with his technologically innovative ideas. Who knows, the next iPhone might be run on mind control (you know video games based on the concept of virtual reality/mind control are already released for sale?). Just saying.

Whenever I don't want to do work I go on Yahoo news. You've got to admit though, the stuff on there is pretty interesting. It could probably keep you distracted for a good hour or so... which really isn't a good thing.

The season finale of Top Chef is TODAY! I would be more excited, but I can't watch it. How depressing.

Hey, how come everyone on Facebook is set on taking the 'perfect' picture. You know what I'm talking about... the camera angled just so, the light hitting the face hiding imperfections, face tilted at a 45 degree angle, etc. Everyone knows that Facebook pictures take on average 500 shots and the picture chosen is the one where perhaps a shift in the universe has made the person's face look slightly better for a millisecond as they happened to capture it on camera. This is SO deceptive. If you're ugly just deal with it, don't give people false hope. At least that's what I do. I wish more people would take 'ugly' pictures. They're so much more interesting to look at.

play piano & fold laundry <3

Kiwi QT

Oh, hello kiwi.

I got it! Hooray! I got the research position. They hired me on the spot. I'm happy (happiness is rare nowadays).

Ahh. I had a really good cup of coffee this morning --BLACK (and yet I'm still tired; go figure). At first I went to the Starbucks near my house, but there were no parking spots and when I finally saw one and was about to turn a rude woman rushed into the spot even though it was clearly supposed to be mine. So I gave her a "dirty look" and went to the Starbucks in Safeway instead. Then I got a salad at Subway and I ate in my car because I don't like smelling like a giant sandwich (who gets salads at Subway? the guy knows me already because I'm so odd... and don't act like I'm crazy you're all well aware of how you smell after you walk out of Subway... then again I'm overly sensitive to everything so I don't know). That's about as exciting as my day gets. Eating lunch in my car watching rain fall down on my windshield. Alone (okay, it's my own fault for not trying, so I suppose you don't have to show me any sympathy).

I wish I could be a lancelet aka. amphioxus... then I could lie around all day at the bottom of the ocean doing nothing. If only I could filter feed on air... I would never have to worry about feeding myself again (not too sure how I feel about pharyngeal slits... having gaping holes on the sides of my neck doesn't sound too enticing). Of course if I did filter feed on air all I would be eating would be dead skin cells, bacteria, fungal spores, and all of the cat hairs in this house. Yum. We're doing marine animals in biology as the last unit (if you haven't noticed already). It's really interesting. I love marine animals they're so cool looking. Hagfish are beast. What other animal has rasping teeth to eat rotting flesh? Delicious.

For the first time in my life I'm classified as underweight. SCORE! I have almost obtained my goal in life. I have to get into that severely underweight range before I'll be happy. I'm kidding, I'm kidding. I'm not trying to be anorexic. Almost anorexic will do just fine. ;)

By the way check this out it's really cool.

http://realestate.yahoo.com/promo/five-weird-but-wonderful-homes.html

and also, Japanese people are very classy... I'm thoroughly impressed. S, you're welcome to come and live in my closet anytime. :)

lint roll & dust <3

Shake shake

I give up. I give up. I give up. I give up. Really, I have more important things to deal with right now. This is ridiculous. People are so... THAT IS IT. I am not trying ever again. If YOU want to talk to me then YOU can start the conversation. If YOU want to hang out with me then YOU can call me and plan the whole thing. And if YOU want to be my friend then YOU can be the one to put in the effort because I am SO done with this (I sound like one of those spoiled white girls on sweet sixteen... not my intention, but oh well). I really don't understand. Freaking bipolar. And THIS is why I cannot STAND people (..and you guys wonder why I'm so antisocial.. I have valid reasons you know). Whatever, I give up on finding anyone here. The preconceived notion: "meeting your bestfriends in college" thing is a total lie. It should have been obvious to me since last year (with that sex addict), but I like giving people the benefit of the doubt. NO. I AM WRONG. People are horrible and I will continue to think so until someone proves me wrong. This is so unnecessary. Why do I have to get so attached to things? I wish I could be an optimist, but stuff like this keeps happening which makes it pragmatically impossible for me to do so. "THE HORROR, THE HORROR" -Kurtz, Heart of Darkness

ON A BRIGHTER NOTE. My interview is today. I'm really excited an

d nervous and happy and... I don't know, I just want to leave a good impression without compromising who I am. I hate it when people try to act like someone they're not. It's so deceptive because you might actually like the fake them at first and waste time getting to know them only to find out that they are dangerous psychopaths in reality (s

o much for "on a brighter note"). My point of this was.. WISH ME LUCK! I really want this research position. It's on the study of vitamin D and prenatal development... maybe I can change someone's life, win the nobel peace prize, you never know ;)

Do you guys notice I update more during finals week? Yeah, bad sign. And this is all I want to do right now...

eat cereal & get ready <3

Hypnosis

I cannot believe that I just... wow. What a waste of life. Okay. So. I attempted to go to sleep at 4:00am, but couldn't because it was too loud, so after tossing, turning, and plugging my ears I gave up on sleep and did ochem until around 6:30am (yes, this means that once again I didn't sleep last night). My physics teacher made the final lecture optional because it was review, but I felt guilty and decided to go (not to mention, I like my teacher... well, the way she dresses at least; casual-professional). I battled the rain and arrived at class where there were a grand total of 20 people. Okay, I might be exaggerating a bit. Anyways, it turns out the projector wasn't working and the tech crew wasn't working in the morning either, so the teacher decided to have students go up to the board and do problems and teach the class. What a waste of life. Why would I want to stay there and listen to a bunch of idiots that don't even know what they're doing? Man. And this was AFTER I gave her full marks on the evaluation too. I left after half an hour. Back to my sexy Grignard reagents. What a waste of time.

People say that when I'm tired I still look the same. That's probably because I'm always tired, so no one has really seen anything else. If only I could get more than 1-2 hours per day, I would be extremely grateful. Man, people that complain about only getting 5 hours of sleep... sigh, what I would give for 5 hours. I feel like this all the time:

https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUfBYRSxFv0upC2nyqJVDEygUaQwAJ9icq3ZmdvJa4aVhkT5vgo5C1voCzrxDKW87b5UOh4hZ6Oq7ik53pvPkkCpmrET1hXAa-Hjhg86TvwbZquG5BEtJYySHKPrWBENftDUhZHFmQeGI/s400/too+tired2%5B1%5D.jpg

I love rainy days. I love the sound of rain against my window. Umbrellas are also useful because you can avoid people. Haha, I kid. You know, people assume that I avoid them all the time, but I don't. If I don't say hi it's because I genuinely don't see you--which I usually don't because I'm always looking at the ground (avoiding unsanitary things) or at my ipod. Just say hi to me if you see me. Geez. People are so stubborn.

wear socks & eat mangos <3

진짜

Ever since that incident happened my aunt has been super paranoid/worried, so she is forcing me to take four giant vitamin pills per day. I hate swallowing vitamins because they don't taste good. I guess essentially they don't taste like anything. I would rather eat those gummy adult vitamins because they taste good (shut up, don't judge me I'm ten okay?). My hand looks ultra wrinkly in that picture for some reason. Okay, I'll stop lying. My hand IS ultra wrinkly. And uh.. don't mind the cyclohexane. I'm not nerdy at all.

I was rushing so much this morning that I whacked my hand on the faucet and it hurts. Why must we live life like this? Why?! I feel sorry for us, we're like fugitives that are always paranoid, but at least we're suffering together. If I were going through this alone I probably would have had to be taken to the asylum already.

My eyeball feels like it's about to fall out of its socket. "Crazy" night last night (doesn't that make me sound like a party-er?). I got home at around 10:45pm, but I didn't want to go back. I really did not want to go back. So this is what I did. I sat in my car and made a 45 minute phone call. Then I called M (who was sleeping, surprise surprise), woke her up and told her to come outside so we could go to Safeway. We tried to waste time for an hour+ BUT WHEN WE GOT BACK ALAKJLKJadsdlask;a didn't 睡覺 yet. Are you KIDDING ME?!?!?!???!??!?!?!?!?!! After we DELIBERATELY tried to... That's so... 她平常不會那麼晚睡覺但是因為她超喜歡管閒事， 等到我們回來才去睡.. I'm about to rip out all of my hair. 진짜성가신. How many languages do I need to express my frustration in before I get my point across?!?! Okay. All better. I just had to get that out of my system.

Hardcore study time! All day, everyday. I might need to leave the house and never come back depending on situations. I'm probably not going to eat today.

play piano & drink water <3

Yawn.

好累。

I don't think I've ever been this tired on a Thursday before. Mondays and Fridays feel like death, but usually Thursdays are tolerable. The lab practical... yeahh... I don't know about that... I'm just hoping for an A-. How shameful. I have such low standards I should just become a homeless person.

For the first time in my life I went to office hours (TA's not professor's). I never go to those things because they're always useless. Surprisingly, I actually learned something. But, that's only because my ochem TA is awesome.

MY LAUNDRY. I'm so lazy wow. I washed my clothes last week, but they're still sitting in my laundry baskets; unfolded. I should fold them, but... I'm SO lazy. Whatever. It's not like anyone is looking at me anyways. I'll just look like a wrinkly grandma when I walk out the door. I say that now, but I'll probably run into some hot guy (I swear it's always when I look the worst... then again I look the worst everyday... -_-)

I'm itching to play piano. I haven't played in a day. Itch itch itch.

What the heck is wrong with me? I hate Nicki Minaj, but I'm currently addicted to super bass.

OH AND LISTEN TO THIS. I get dressed to this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WvPAIm4KWIM

but in no way am I encouraging you to picture me naked. That wouldn't be a good image.

STUDY HARDCORE & sleep <3

Realization

Lately, I've realized that my friends keep apologizing to me.

That probably means I need new friends.

This realization makes me sad.

That is all.

take sleeping pills & starve <3

Four cents

DONE. Now time to study for other things. I can't believe I haven't updated in so long. I guess I've been busy like a bee. Bzzz. As for my social life? Well, what social life would be the better question. That's okay though. I don't mind being a recluse as long as I can ensure a secure future. After all, job security is rare in times like these. In all honesty I think it's better this way. People tend to disappoint me and if I minimize contact with people, then I won't become disappointed right? I know this is cynical and pessimistic, but I no longer have any expectations. If I'm going to meet someone somewhere, I assume they're going to be 30 minutes late (I will not wait for anyone over 30 minutes anymore [unless it's W... I would wait for a whole day if it was you because I've failed you so many times]), I've learned my lesson. No more waiting for people for 6 hours at the mall. Those times are over with. Anyway, if you assume that they're going to be late then if they show up and they're on time or a little bit late, you won't feel as upset. It's kind of a sad way to look at life, but you know what they say? Pessimists can never be disappointed, only pleasantly surprised. Just my four cents (because I think that was worth more than a mere two).

People need to stop it with the fake high pitched voices and excessive laughing. It's annoying. I'm annoyed.

I've decided that I'm going to master the macaron over the break. Also, I don't think S is coming. I'm sad. That means no road trip. Now the question remains: should I go back to SJ? 70% yes. My car is making weird noises and I haven't seen W E and V in way too long. At the same time there are innumerable problems that could arise if I go back. I'll sleep on it (or not... haven't been able to sleep and sleeping pills don't work anymore).

MY BIO LAB PARTNER IS AWESOME. Does it top last quarter? Not sure how to answer that... they're different. Anyway, she's a nerdy, anti-partying boring person (but not more boring than I am, who can beat me?) that happens to be hilarious without trying to be. It feels natural... like I've known her all my life-sort of thing. That's my type right there! And she's probably the first (and only) person that understands my theory of eating. She told me that she's never hungry, rather she eats because she feels like she should. That COMPLETELY makes sense to me because what I say is, I only eat to stay alive, but every time I say stuff like this people look at me like I'm some psycho. I don't know... maybe we're both crazy, but crazy people unite yeah? I met her around the 4/5th lab which sucks because there are only 8. Anyway, that alone makes my Thursday labs much more tolerable, so if there's anything I'm thankful for it's got to be this.

Today I realized that I'm abnormal (actually, no... I realized this a long time ago; today was more like an assertion). What kind of girl likes games? Why am I admitting this on my blog? Ahh, but I love Kingdom Hearts. Loco roco... so cute. I've been afraid to start playing because I know if I start I'm going to fail my finals. Patience is a virtue. I'll wait until spring break.

I find myself in the center of a love pentagon (yes, it is no longer a triangle). Why me? I asked my housemate "why me" and once again all blame has been placed upon my face. And once again here I am asking myself, what does that mean? Oy vey. I don't want this. Go away! Plastic surgery here I come.

play games & text <3