Spend it

I need to go and buy another telephone card. I was up until 6:00 am this morning talking to my grandma and my aunt. I thought I had 200 minutes left on the card, but when I checked it today it said that I only had 60 minutes left. I'm pretty sure I didn't talk for over two hours. Oh well. Sometimes money should be spent.

You know, I can't stand stingy people. I mean frugality is of course a good thing because that way one can insure a decent future. But at the same time, to what extent are you going to save? Are you really not going to spend the extra 25 cents because that's considered too expensive? It's understandable that some people have financial issues; heck, I get it I used to be one of them, but there's a difference between being resourceful and being that one stingy person that doesn't watch the movie in 3D because it costs three more dollars than the normal one, so everyone ends up not watching it in 3D. Do you really want to be that person that ruins the mood so that they can then go to spend that money on themselves? So annoying. I feel like if you're by yourself then you should go ahead and save as much money as you want. Then when you're with your friends you can say that you did save a few dollars a while ago so it would be okay to spend just a bit more this time. At least that's my strategy. What I'm saying is, don't be that one person. It's a bad position to be in. (by the way, the 3D movie thing was hypothetical)

Whoo, that was a mouthful. But seriously, some people... driving me insane here.

How to say this? I feel sad. Distanced in a way. Everything is the same, but everything is different. Often times I find that I question myself. I wonder if it's me that has changed or if it's 對方 (don't know how to phrase this in English, I'm so fob) that has changed. Either way, as I've said before I'm not going to bother. Why would I call you if you don't call me? Why should we hang out when neither of us want to put in that effort anymore? Things like these require effort from both parties. It's useless to force things. I've learned that the hard way. I'll just brood for a while and get over it. After all, everyone changes eventually right? I just never thought it would be us. This whole situation is quietly messed up. I say quietly because it feels as if we're playing into the facade and avoiding what's actually happening. Letting go is harder said than done, but being away from here will allow me to embrace acceptance.

I went to Fresh Choice today. That was probably the highlight of my day. Oh and also I finished Red Dragon (psychological thriller by Thomas Harris-- first book of the Hannibal Lecter series). It was so good that I finished it in two days. Highly recommended read if you're bored.

recycle & brush hair <3