For those of you wondering, my living situation has not exactly gotten any better. Unfortunately, there are still people on top of each other in my room. People have been giving me suggestions (most of them violent) to fix this problem; however, I think that the solution of the situation is not as simple as merely cutting, yelling at, or throwing her out the window (if only life were that easy and direct, I would have the ability to kill everyone that I don't like). Eventually, I'll get sick of coming into my own room after a long day of schooling and seeing people, for lack of a better phrase, "getting it on," and when that happens I won't be as passive and nonchalant as I am currently. But, because my suite mates let me invade their room, it makes everything a bit more tolerable, and for that I am grateful. I'm waiting for the day in which she feels ashamed; yet, at the same time, I don't believe that day will come anytime soon. In the meantime, I can only sit here and hope that she'll come to the realization that she does not live alone (either that or I can hope that the guy stops liking her, which will probably happen before the realization does).
Theoretically speaking, I have "power" now. I have the power to say that I respect her; hence, she should respect me as well (I mean seriously, I leave the room without complaint if she's about to sleep). I have the power to tell her to get the--- out of my room. I have this power, but I'm not going to use it. Just because you have the power to hurt someone, it doesn't mean that you should. People get hurt all of the time and when that happens, they feel the need to retaliate. But what good will that do? The obsessive desire to retaliate only results in an ongoing battle of revenge; which is fundamentally, a waste of time. So, I forgive her. I have to focus on the fact that I'll be living with amazing people next year. 4 months, 2 weeks. I can do it.
smell flowers & eat tomatoes<3
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