Chips and blood

I feel like I've posted this one already... The only album I've ever purchased from iTunes.

I'm afraid I won't wake up, so I'm just going to stay awake. Day two is easier than day one, but that's mostly because I went to ujam today. I kind of just started dragging my body around at the end because I was feeling really delusional. I'm praying that I'll be able to function tomorrow, but I guess we'll see what happens.

What is this world we live in where people strive solely for money, status, and power? We should be ashamed of ourselves.

Composite

I love stickers. They're good for so many scenarios. That one is my favorite. I wish I could do this to people when they tell me they can't give me my data until next Tuesday... That'll teach them.

Too cute :')

Commitment calendar

There aren't that many reasons to get married. Theoretically people can go through their lives being "partners" and have children and it shouldn't make a difference, but people do get married for several reasons, one being security for fear of their partner running away--though if you need to take such drastic measures chances are they're going to end up running away anyway. It's a means of security as well as social consent for couples to have sex because otherwise you're just a filthy whore. I guess the last reason would be money/citizenship/government benefits? I can't think of any more reasons, but if you already have a good relationship marriage can strengthen it. Just saying.

This is funny! I've never thought about villains like this before, but it's true. I watched Pocahontas last night. I don't remember John Smith having so many corny lines: "I would rather die tomorrow than live 100 years without meeting you."

I stood there for 16 minutes trying to get the perfect picture. These things move really fast...

Collected dust

I flipped open my elementary school yearbook and I realized that everyone in my class was white. It's very interesting though... the mind of a child. I never really paid much attention to the fact that they were white when I was younger, but when I opened up my yearbook and looked down that was the first thing I noticed, which was kind of shocking. Getting older ruins you.

Red - guys that I liked (I was scandalous, I know. You should read my old journal entries)
Blue - best friends
Purple - people I didn't like... 2/3 of them had too many boogers

Castaway

I went to Safeway to try and find a good housewarming card last night and I came across these instead...

The first one was listed under support. :)

Oh, you know... typical weekend activities. 

Crash dummy

I have this friend that I've known since middle school and we were incredibly close until college happened and we started drifting apart. Of course you're all thinking "Duh, no one talks to middle school friends anymore" but I tend to hold on to people worth holding on to and most of my closer friends are from that time mostly because I don't know why anyone would have wanted to be my friend then, yet they were, so I'm biased... though I guess most people typically don't like previous versions of themselves... then again I haven't figured out if I like the current version of myself either...

Anyway, I'm not sure if it's because she started hanging around a scandalous alcohol princess or if it's because she started dating this...... sigh, as long as she's happy... or if it's because she was at a cc when the rest of us left to universities, but the drifting has progressed to a point of no return--Pangaea status. I've really been trying to figure out what happened and if there was one decisive moment that drove the Titanic into the iceberg, but I can't pinpoint the origin of destruction. I don't really think we can go back to how we were because we've become different people. It's not that I don't like her or don't care because I really do and I wish that we could be as close as we used to be, but realistically it's not going to happen. I've tried, though admittedly half-hearted, but I don't feel compelled to be around her because when we hang out it feels like a sad interrogation. There's nothing to talk about. It's almost uncomfortable. I'm tired of feeling like I need to struggle to sustain/revive our friendship. As I always say, there's no point in interacting with anyone unless you're happier than when you're alone. Doctors can only give CPR for so long... It's time to call it. Time of death, 7:02pm 02/21/2014.

I think that the fundamental problem is her fixation on the person I was in the past and inability to adapt to the person that I've become. It makes me  sad to know that if I met her now we probably wouldn't be friends. Our friendship has been dying a slow death these past five years, so this is my acknowledgement of that death/goodbye post to my friend that doesn't even use social media. Thank you for laughing so hard when my pants fell off when we were scooter-ing, drinking unhealthy amounts of energy drinks with me, and saving my arse so many times/always being there for me back in the day.

Cash crop

Dinner... because I am lazy. 

Also, my friend got me in the mood for Jack Johnson, so you guys can join me~

I'll post something more interesting sometime soon, but my words are irrelevant because most people go to blogs to look at pictures anyway. 

Crimson apple

I think I need to start working out again because my health is on an exponential decline. I lift up my arm to brush my teeth and then I have no energy to do anything else in life.

I love this! I was lego obsessive in my childhood years... that and educational computer games. Where in the world is Carmen Sandiego? :)

Ferris wheel... *shudder

Candy crunch

Where was this song when I needed it?! Wow those lyrics though... Spot on.

This is kind of cool. I think there are a lot of words in Asian languages that don't have an English translation. Sometimes I want to say something, but the perfect word is in another language and I get frustrated.

No news is good news... or so they say.

Good grief. Valentine's day. -_-

Cringe worthy

Well, Groupon thought that I looked like I needed a facial this morning, which is always an encouraging way to start the day. Unfortunately, I can't seem to disagree as I've been comparatively dry and wrinkly as of late, so perhaps I should purchase this after all. Sneaky marketing tricks... I should make coupons for dark eye circle treatment and send them to people at 5:00am on a Monday morning. Brilliant right? In a parallel universe my name is Sleeve Javs and I created Pear.

Hash tag domesticated life. I kind of miss drying clothes like this. I hope my friend doesn't mind me posting pictures of his clothes... at least you can't see my underwear. Don't enlarge the picture you crazy people. 

Crisis

I'm tempted to buy gta five because these days I've been wanting to become a mobster and throw people out of their cars, but then I see the price and decide that punching a wall is equally effective. Hash tag poor person life. I also heard that KH2.5 is coming out soon, so that's exciting. Alright, no one cares, so here's a picture.

The one time I got a chance to sit down and take a proper photo.

It's that time of day. I guess I should go put on some clothes...

Cartoon

This is ridiculously cute and insanely hilarious. I'm not sure if it's because I'm sleep deprived or if it's genuinely funny, but it's only a minute long, so go watch it and laugh because we all need more laughter in our lives.

Dance party by myself.

Crippled

I just thought I should take this opportunity to share my struggles with you guys:

My computer person is in the city and ignoring my calls. I seriously don't know how these computer science/engineering people do it. I've been sitting here downloading things while trying to learn code for the past five hours and I don't seem to be getting anywhere. I cannot believe that I canceled plans to get this thing done and I'm no better off than when I began, so you know what?

This stupid black command box thinks it knows everything. Error file not found? THEN LOOK HARDER. Ugh, bring out the crowbar. What kinds of people even own those things aside from mobsters and carpenters though? Just saying. STRESS!

Creative

I remember a while ago someone accused me of being very fast to give up on relationships. ...it depends. ALSO, you can't use any previous boyfriends as examples because sometimes (okay, often) I'm very stupid and decide to date any male creature that exhibits any ounce of kindness towards me. -_-

First of all let me clear this up, I don't think that I give up per se, rather I have to convince myself to let go. I think that one of my greatest obstacles is the fact that I grow attached to certain things or people and it's very difficult for me to force myself to stop caring about them even when they make me feel like some sort of pariah and are incontestably detrimental to my health because I begin to engage in mentally self-destructive behaviors when I should be focusing on more salubrious activities. Perhaps the solution to all of my problems is to establish some sort of moratorium for thinking in general.

Anyway, my second point, I will fix what is broken if it is worth fixing. But honestly, I think the things I would fight for now would never break to begin with. In the past, I tried to fix everything because I had to be a crazy problem solving everything-has-to-fit-into-a-tidy-box type of person and I ended up wasting a lot of time, so I have learned--and am continually learning--when to stop. Older and wiser? Hopefully, but mostly just older.

Tourist in action.

Centerpiece

Something about this picture makes me happy and I don't know what it is. I didn't take this while trying to be a creeper... You're supposed to focus on the plants and not that couple in the background. -_- If only money trees could produce real money...

Crescent

I think I'm in the middle of some sort of identity crisis. I've been trying to figure out if I talk a lot naturally or if talking a lot was a subsequence of my attempt to become a more outgoing person back in high school. Every time I'm nervous or in an uncomfortable situation I tend to talk and laugh uncontrollably. It's probably good that I haven't crossed the line towards being a psycho and no one can tell that I'm incredibly uncomfortable most of the time... unless they can and I'm disillusioned. -_-

Oh my gosh, these are great. I couldn't stop laughing at the centrifuge one because that's precisely why I run it at 1500rpm.

I honestly think a giant piece of cracker flew up my nose because I can't stop sneezing. Okay, I'm done here.

Crystal

Expensive arse rice.

Okonomiyaki.

Takoyaki.

Don't feel like talking today, so here are some food pictures. 

Crispy

Yesterday when I went grocery shopping some random guy whistled and smiled at me. While I would have typically found this type of behavior repulsive, I kind of appreciated/needed it, so I smiled back. Scandalous aren't I? Recently I've been feeling like I can't do anything right and that anything I touch will end in disaster. My friend insulted my guitar playing as a joke, but guitar is probably the one thing in life that I actually take seriously, so that made me rather depressed. That and the fact that I've been thinking about the many things that have gone wrong in the past, so everything kind of snowballed and here I am crying over a sad movie that wasn't even that sad. I just want to do laundry without my tears and boogers flying around everywhere, is that so much to ask for? I'll probably get over myself in a few days, but for now I kind of just want to suffocate myself in my blankets.

I want to drink this again...