Ghastly

I'm seriously so sad these days. I'm sulking around in depression because I'm upset with myself and my sudden inability to make decisions. Have I always been like this? Anyway... I didn't know that I was in such a blatantly crappy mood until my friend told me that I seemed crabby also when I went to pay at the cash register today it went down like this:

"How are you today?"
"Good... How are you?" mumble mumble
"Are you okay? You seem... Tired?"
"That seems to be the constant state of affair..." grumble grumble
"Haha! Well, it is Monday! It's just because you have your jacket and shades on..."
"You're right! It must be because it's Monday."

I'm pretty sure I seemed like an angry lady. How can you not be angry if you work for 9 hours and you're in my situation? Can someone just decide for me? If not then can a meteor fall out of the sky and squish me? I can't do this. I'm so conflicted.

I don't know why you put up with me, but if you didn't exist I don't think I would be able to either. You're always the best even when I'm the worst. :)