Brown leaf

我覺得...

最近生命中的優點繼續下降...
已經努力, 堅持.. 這嚴峻的過程
如何補償辛苦的代價...
我為這件事情付出多少時間, 激情, 而眼淚
有人了解...嗎?
起初認為把百分之百的功夫放進我所做的"產品"上, 一定會成功...
事實上, 不是這樣... 矛盾吧?
功到自然成大概是世界上最爛的成語.
其實, 這個世界就是這樣
不但不公平反而還很殘忍
我發現我不及格, 沒有我自己想像的聰明..
但自認聰明是第一個錯誤
我發誓不會再對自己有任何的要求了
因為我承認我在這方面/這件事情上...
永遠不會成功

對不起啦~ 最近超弱

그리고 매일 생각하고, 소원하고, "제발 죽어싶어!" 이렇게 살면 안돼... 근데, 아무것도 없어... 사람들이도 없어... 돌겠네! 답답해 지금. 내가 왜?

I'm really sorry... that was super depressing... but yeah. That pretty much sums up how I've been feeling as of late. It's just really frustrating... And so because I've been so frustrated I opened up my $50 tea leaves that I've been saving for two years and starting drinking it like a tea drunkard. I don't even know if that's a real term, but it is now. Additionally, I bought another drum set to make myself feel better. Anyway... I guess I should be studying for tomorrow. Here's a video before I go.