Toothless

J: "Hi~ Did you miss me?!"
Aunt: "I'm tired, I just got back from walking."
J: "What are you doing right now?"
Aunt: silence
J: "Hello? Don't you want to talk to me?"
Aunt: "I would rather shower..."

J: "Hi Grandma! What are you doing? I have a strawberry plant that I'm taking care of lately. I hope it doesn't die. Teach me your gardening secrets" + other life updates

G: silence

J: "...Grandma?"
G: "Huh? Oh, I'm watching a drama"

I'm so loved... -_-

This one time when I was younger I lost my tooth and I remember asking if there was a tooth fairy. The response was a blatant "no"--as with most Asians we're told the truth. There was never a Santa or an Easter bunny either. This can probably be attributed to the fact that our parents were too cheap or lazy to lie to us. I don't blame them, I would do the same. Anyway, there went my opportunity for free money. I really couldn't accept that there was no such thing as a tooth fairy, so I took my piggy bank and emptied everything underneath my pillow and went to sleep. The next morning I woke up and screamed that the tooth fairy had come. Ah, the art of deception. I must have had a very lumpy night.

Sweet youth

I was reminded of my childhood...

If you guys don't know what these are... well... we can probably no longer be friends.  Back in the day we would aways fight for the part with the knob because it seemed "bigger." Now I know that these are really just plastic sticks filled with sugar and water, albeit dang good sugar water. It's crack for children, basically.

You know what else? Lychee jello.

I used to down these like a crazy pregnant woman. I only liked this brand and this shape. Some stupid kid had to go and choke and become a vegetable while eating one, so FDA banned it which caused the company to change the shape into an awkward rectangle and chop up the lychee. Way to ruin my life. That's when I stopped eating them--they were just never the same anymore~ :( and really? What kind of idiot parents give their kids jello the size of their throats?! Use your brains--oh, wait.. -_- 

I-ball

Essentially what I want to ask you guys is why do we do this? Does anyone even know why we're here? We go to school and stuff our heads with information--often times useless--fill in little bubbles and then forget everything we've learned in 10 weeks. What's the point, really? Getting a degree secures an entry-level position in society, but then what? Where's the satisfaction? What exactly are we achieving here? How is this going to influence our lives--how about the lives of those around us? Honestly, is there a purpose to any of this? Please tell me if you know because quite frankly I have no freaking idea and it's driving me insane. If you want to be rich all you have to do is invent something stupid that the general public (who are usually also stupid) will go crazy over. Primary example: Snuggie.

Clearly all of this introspection and questioning of life is becoming detrimental to my health. Notice the stupid vessel in my eye that has decided to burst. It's been two days and it still hasn't gone away, so I go around looking like a psycho. :(

Like an idiot, I ran into a giant pile of branches and grass on the side of the road... I should probably bike with my head up from now on. Embarrassing -_-

Plethora

I think... I'm the corniest person I know. The weirdest things make me happy and I define the weirdest things as touching or cute. Really, strawberry plants and tic-tacs. And who makes scrapbooks anymore? Also this concerned potato that keeps calling me to make sure I eat. Geez. Too cute. You know what else is cute? I realize that most of my lab people have pretty good memory--and they seem to notice/remember these minor things that other people don't i.e. cutting my bangs, new ring, or some random detail that I may have said in passing. Like I said, I like it when people pay attention to these little things. Does that mean that I tend to favor people with good memory and thus, to win my heart you need to have an excellent cerebellum/hippocampus? I guess that's not very fair, haha. But the way I see it is if you think something is important or if it stands out to you then you'll remember it no matter how minor it may seem. And that's why when someone remembers that I like orange tic-tacs and they randomly bring me a pack I get really happy because I don't even remember telling them that I like them--also why would you remember that? So cute. Does that make me a lame person? Yeah, pretty much, but hey... I know people that are more ridiculous than I am. There's this one girl that refuses to talk to anyone with a GPA that's lower than 3.5. -_- I can understand not talking to anyone pursuing a B.A. (exception of business/econ/english) since the vast majority of them are strange people (I'M KIDDING. Don't attack me. Sorry, it's too much science major pride.), but a GPA requirement is a bit ridiculous.

J: "What? Why don't you like her?"

T: "She's pretty, but she has the fashion sense of a rock..."

LOL. Hopefully no one says this behind my back. 

Illness

I'm really friend-sick. No, not homesick, just friend-sick. I seriously miss my middle school/high school friends like crazy. I'm in sulky depression mode. I really want to karaoke, joke around like an idiot, and sit in the car and not have to say anything at all. You guys... :'( it's been too long. I know we Skype, call, and text a lot, but it's not the same.

Proving my supervisor wrong today wasn't even very satisfying. I was looking forward to it too.

Life is so--sigh. Every time I think about applications I want to sit on a cactus and rip out my hair. I'm very close to giving up everything and moving to Africa to become a goat herder. That way I can get a corgi (with a cute butt) to help me. Though to be honest, I'll probably contract malaria and die before that happens. Hooray.

B&W

Everyone was falling asleep in my molecular cell bio class today. The professor kept yawning and ten minutes before class ends she yawns again and pauses--

M: "Okay, we're going to need to end lecture right now because I'm boring myself to sleep."

Hilarious. That woke me up, but whenever a class ends early I do a little victory dance in my mind. Don't pretend like you're too cool for that. I know you guys do the same.

I don't know how many of you read Yahoo news, but the headlines today are pretty ridiculous. Teenagers getting drunk off of hand sanitizer and people falling through the pavement in China (if anywhere... lol not surprising). Yahoo always has the most interesting news. I like how they have time to report on obese cats, but fail to mention the manhunt that happened in Sacramento on Friday in which some guy car-jacked a variety of vehicles, including a tractor which he drove on the Cosway. Of course everything ended with the guy going crazy and getting shot by the police (that's all they know how to do, really--shoot things). Nice. Go read the article. Loads of fun. :)

HS

I was reminded today of some awesome people that I miss like crazy... Recall high school when I never turned on the air conditioning unless there were other people in the car with me (I still continue this habit).

J: "Oh are you guys hot?" *turns on a/c
E: *turns off a/c
J: "What are you doing?"
E: "We're real friends right?"
J: "Duh. It's been 10 years you know..."
E: "Real friends will suffer with you"

And E, S, and H suffocating in my car was pretty much the basis of my high school life<3 that and singing Kelly Clarkson, Jason Mraz, or Barbie Girl with them on the way home. Things were so simple in high school. Sigh.

Shortcake

I can't wait until my strawberry plant bears strawberries. I think that will make me feel successful since every plant that I've grown up until now has died. Well, except cacti. They're the only ones that don't die on me. I blame the weather! Okay, not really. I usually only remember to water them the first few days and then I forget. Then when they're shriveled and ugly I give up on them. Yes, that is my moral in life. That's why I don't make friends that look shriveled and ugly or else I would abandon them. I'm kidding! I would love you guys even if you guys were shriveled and ugly. I wonder if the reverse is true. -_- I can already imagine everyone running away in a giant mob. That's besides the point. What I meant to say was... I'm determined to be successful this time. Even if I fail at everything else I will grow at least ONE strawberry.

Midterms anyone? Good luck. I'm so blah lately. I know that I have a bunch of stuff that I should do, but the mere thought of having to do it makes me very sluggish. I think the heat is getting to me. I kind of want to drag myself around on the ground everywhere instead of walking. Sloth mode. That reminds me of this one time in middle school when I was so lazy that I sat on my skateboard and scooted around everywhere. That's probably also why I was such a fat chunk of lard at the time.

Seriously this weather... I can't open the window or else these little bugs come in. Spring is my favorite season, but somehow it didn't come this year? Anyway if you're studying and you need some study music here you go. I realized I haven't posted any American music in a while (ahem, that's because not many songs in English are good...).

Blackjack

Once a year they always call at 12:00am without fail<3

Man, going to Safeway was such a bad decision. I always forget to avoid Safeway during picnic day and I end up with having to deal with lines as long as your grandma's sagging boobs. Okay, that was unnecessary, but I'm just saying... the lines went from the cash register to the end of the produce section (i.e. the back of the store).

This is really cute and creative. Take a look. I hope I can marry someone like this. :)

Today is... well let's just say that this year might break the trend. The day started off well. I went running, was bombarded with awesome phone calls, and I now have a creepy spongebob in my bedroom that I can abuse all I want. The best part is the fact that it's only 4:20am... haha, what? Life's good, yeah? If only for a day then at least it's this one. I can go back to moping in depression tomorrow, but for now thanks everyone~

Old people?

Okay really. I've stared at this for an hour and I can only see ten. There are supposed to be 13. This is driving me insane. Someone tell me where the last three are. My aunt sent this to me and told me only awesome people can see 13. I want to be awesome. P.S. the words on top say that if you see less than ten you're an idiot, if you see ten to 11 you're normal and if you see 12-13 you're amazing, basically.

Not bad

Today was a good day. :) It's very rare that I have good days anymore. Lately I've been feeling overly emotional, stressed, and depressed (because of applications), but today was surprisingly good. Mostly because of my professor and TA and also because I didn't have to go to the lab that I'm irritated with.

J: "So... we're not meeting this week right?"
M: "What? Why not?"
J: "Oh, I thought..."
M: "Just come. I'm paying."

Dawww so cute. I forgot to tell you guys that I got coffee with my professor last week and that's what she was referring to. I'm supposed to have coffee with a different professor Wednesday afternoon, so we'll see how that goes. I don't know what's up with my professors this quarter... they're so friendly. Either that or they really like coffee. -_- What the fruit. I still think this is weird. They even use emoticons in emails. My gosh. Revolutionary.

Maize

Wow. Okay I just saw that I haven't updated since Wednesday which is uncharacteristic of me. I apologize to everyone that's procrastinating on studying for midterms, but my life is so mundane that there's really not much point in updating. It's always the same. Class lab class lab lab lab lab lab LAB. I hate my labs. Driving me insane up in here. What's the point, really? Publishing papers? Then what? HMM? -_- sigh. I complain so much here, but I still go and act like a good child even when my supervisors are horrible people. I'm such a wuss. I keep saying I'm going to quit, but I don't. I'll quit one of them in June though, for sure. If I don't then you guys can slap me. Someone needs to slap some sense into me.

I cleaned the heck out of my room this weekend. Mostly because I'm procrastinating on studying for midterms. I can attest to the fact that there is absolutely no dust anywhere. I was very close to getting down and dirty--using a toothbrush to scrub the walls. Joanna cleaning is more intense than spring cleaning. Pictures of spring cleaning contain smiling mothers wearing big yellow gloves. Joanna cleaning looks more like this minus the plants.

Seems like a waste. Maybe I should have eaten the cup? 

Dang you Sab. Get your Facebook back. How am I supposed to discuss dramas with you??

Grunt

I had a whole angry post planned out, but H called me and I am now calm. If only I could find more people that would know exactly what to say at every point of the emotional roller coaster that I call my life I wouldn't have to rely on H and bother her so much. Ugh. If I have nothing nice to say I'm just going to keep my mouth shut. I swear I must be extremely unlucky. The problems surrounding one lab are solved and then the other lab starts to develop problems. Let's just put it this way: I downloaded the "kick the boss" application on my phone and I've been shooting the guy with shotguns, pushpins, and shuriken. This seems to be my alternative to therapy.

I think I'm friends with my professor. This is very strange and new to me.

Yellow or white

My aunt sent me a picture of an onion. I was very confused. I asked her why she sent me an onion and she said to prevent me from getting sick. I told her that I hadn't gotten sick since Junior year in high school. She told me not to pull my pneumonia/lung infection near death crap again. I told her that I had no control over that. She told me to eat an onion. I love our relationship<3

S: "Man long distance is hard..."
J: "Yep, that's why people break up"
S: "Good thing we're not going out"
J: "Oh please, I would never date you"
S: "What?! Why not?"
J: "...you're ridiculous. -_-"
S: "Call me this weekend or we're breaking up!"

Lol you stupid thing.

I spent four hours playing the piano today when I should have been being productive or sleeping. Yeah,  it was totally worth it. My hands now look like this. Actually, that's a picture of rheumatoid arthritis...though I'm pretty sure you guys would abandon me as a friend if my hands looked like that. :'(

Laughy laughy

HAHAHAHA. I'm lame. Leave me alone.

Black crow

Today as I was sifting through my contacts while walking past a dead crow I noticed that I have a lot of old friends. Not old friends as in friends that have accumulated from a long time ago (though I have a lot of those too), but old age wise. I realized that the people that I talk to most are older than me. Don't get the wrong idea, I'm not a reverse pedophile. When I say older I mean between 22-27. This has been a common trend throughout my life. It's easier for me to play/talk to older kids because I feel like they're not as 幼稚. I don't know how to say that in English (English language needs more descriptive phrases). Childish? It's very rare that I'll be close to people younger than me, though if I am it must mean you're super special and not like that--I only know about 5 of these people. As for people my age, I'm still extremely picky. Some people are so incredibly 白癡，白目，蛋白質 (lol jk on the last one), but stupid, basically, that you want to punch them in the face and smash them into a wall. It's just that the frequency of people like that in the pool of the population older than me is much smaller than that of the population that surrounds my age. Given all of the stupidity in this world the fact that I can still manage to find people so awesome is pretty dang amazing--that is, you guys are amazing. :)

This is a dead crow.

I was thinking about my childhood obsession with sand art. If you don't know what I'm talking about then I'm truly ancient. I really want to go to Michael's or Joann's to buy some. By the way, Joann's is actually Joanna's we're just too poor to buy the A. ;)

DPD. I love Kenny Choi. Such a nice voice. I remember playing guitar and singing this song to annoy  E because I was trying to force her to stay awake at 4AM when the OC was loading. Oh man, good times.

Solli

Yeh.. haven't updated in a while. Forgive me?

Oof. I fell down the stairs yesterday. I am bruised. Geez. What kind of idiot is too lazy to turn on the lights at night? This idiot right here. 

Somehow I thought it was a good idea to drink three bottles of water before driving... Good job, me. I drove a good 100mph for the last 50 miles because I thought I was about to pee my pants. -_-

Easter egg stuffing. Chilling. Library adventures. Shopping. Un-productivity. Apple scented facial masks. Yep, that was my weekend. Ugh. How is it Monday already? And why are midterms next week? Have we learned anything yet? I don't even know what classes I'm taking right now lol.

My gift to you guys. It's old, but still good. ALSO it's written by Jay Chou, so you know it has to be.

Diagnosis

What? Since when do professors care about students? Shocking. I feel loved. I'm touched~ :')

Dude. Sometimes dramas are seriously... Why does it take 3 freaking 1 hour episodes to confess your love? How many times does the phone have to ring when you're right about to say it or some annoying character pops in and ruins the mood. Please someone suggest a drama to me that doesn't have this BS. Maybe I'm spoiled by 犀利人妻 lol. So good. 

I have the best housemate ever. She threw away my rotting spinach for me teehee~ Yes... like I said, strange little things make me happy. 

I wonder how it would feel to quit all of my labs and just go to classes. I think life would be really relaxing. I was talking to someone the other day and they said all they did was watch shows at home. What on Earth. Who has time for that? Somehow it feels like this week has gone by really fast, but at the same time it feels like it has dragged on for years. It needs to be Friday already. -_-

Day 1

Okay he sort of apologized--but not really. You know what I mean? When people apologize, but avoid the word sorry. Coward.

Lab (as in class lab) today was horrendous. I already know how the rest of the quarter is going to play out. My lab partner kept looking over at me and asking me how to do simple calculations. That was fine. I explained them to her. Then she gave up all-together and started asking me what the answers were. Okay, fine. I told her. Then she asked to see a whole page to "make sure our answers were the same." Then I got annoyed and just gave her my whole lab and sat there waiting as she finished copying off of me. So annoying. If you're too stupid to calculate enzyme concentrations then go work in an industry where your dysfunctional brain can still be salvaged and put to some use. Dang it. Okay, sorry I needed to rant... I have calmed down.

Also, I'm having trouble downloading the modules for one of my classes because they're stored in zip files. My friend told me that I needed winrar or some equivalent to open zip files, but I'm too cheap to actually buy the program, so I downloaded it online. It works. I mean, the files open--which is good, but everything is in German. Therefore, I realize that I have two options: 1. Stop being cheap or 2. Learn German. I would choose number 2 every time. Pfft, my clothes aren't going to buy themselves.

EFF YOU!!!!

I rarely check my school email nowadays because I find it more and more upsetting especially when complaints show up in my inbox. Of course I gritted my teeth and apologized accordingly when what I really wanted to say was this:

And that was relatively civil too. There are many other words that I wanted to add into there, but I was afraid that I might accidentally send it since I wrote it under the real response. AUGH. I should have listened to Hansol in the first place. I should have quit in January and these problems wouldn't have surfaced. As a general rule of thumb, Hansol is always right. Always. If I'm not going to get paid for this damn slave labor I should, at the very least, be happy as I do it, right? This is such a hostile environment. Not only do I have to be a subject of harassment, but I'm also unappreciated. Life freaking sucks.

Conclusion

The basis of my Spring break was work. BUT I did play a lot and I hung out with a lot of people, so I think that was enough to recharge (brain-wise). This Spring break was seriously extremely exhausting. Also, I went to the gym every day. Anyone proud of me? I am. Given the fact that I'm so lazy... I must get my "abs" back! It's in quotes because I never truly had abs. Only the outline. -_- BUT! You can see my calves again. :) I'm not lying! My housemate said so as I was walking up the stairs. Hehe~

This morning I woke up, ran to the bathroom, and threw up. Fortunately I made it to the toilet on time. I'm not sick or anything... I have no idea what's wrong with me--which also explains why I was ignoring calls/texts this morning. Forgive me for dying.